Saint-Germain’s Route ๐Ÿ”ช๐Ÿ’”

Saint-Germain’s route may not be the best route, depending on your tastes, but you WILL shit bricks.

There’s a double warning for this post. In addition to the usual spoiler warning, PLEASE be aware that Saint-Germain’s route may be very triggering for some people. He’s a pretty yandere bachelor, so if you’re not super into reading about a chick who continues to eagerly pursue a guy who is actively (though incredibly politely) trying to slit her freaking throat, I’d… skip this one. Lol.

Honestly, I’m so used to the padded room that American media has become, with all of its content warnings and such (which even I included here) that the sudden twist taken by this route had me whisper-screaming “He can’t do that can he?!” at my Switch screen.

No matter how justified Saint-Germain’s motivations are, you probably cannot write a route like this in an American game and not get canceled on some level by it, since, after all, you end up romantically involved with the guy (and a trigger warning on such a route would massively affect the shock value it has, which is something I personally enjoy, and surely am not the only one.) Thank God for Japan, I can still get raw unfiltered fiction from there.

This post contains spoilers for Code: Realize ~Guardian Of Rebirth~ soโ€ฆ donโ€™t read it if you plan to play it!!

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Impey’s Route, Part 2 (Good End) ๐Ÿ› ๏ธ๐Ÿ’•

I really did not expect Impey’s route to be such a strong contender for my favorite. Honestly, it’s hard to pick a favorite so far –I loved Van Helsing’s, since I’m fond of that character archetype, he’s very easy to look at, and it was my first route. I didn’t like how Saint-Germain’s route began, but, if you’ve played it (I have yet to blog about it) it blows your freaking mind as it progresses.

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Impey’s Route, Part 1 ๐Ÿ› ๏ธ๐Ÿ’•

I’m catching up on blogging about Code: Realize ~Guardian Of Rebirth~ routes that I’ve done so far. I worked on commissions a fair bit while I was gone. While my iPad charged in between sessions, I gamed. ^_^

My route of choice after getting Van Helsing’s good end was Impey Barbicane’s.

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Back To Squelfland ๐Ÿ๏ธ

Now that my mom in law and her very nice roommate have Animal Crossing too (in addition to my husband and sister in law) I may make an effort to get my town back in shape… it really needs it. And pay off my last loan.

This is the outfit I prepared for our first hangout, it is really nice to play with a bunch of people who are all with you in the same room:

I got a monarch butterfly. I thought the joke for this one was pretty funny.

At times I tried to take cute photos with Christopher but my sister in law inevitable came to play the axe murderer.

When she wasn’t photobombing anything I tried to do:

But hey, that’s what sisters are for, right? I did get some cute photos of us together, though:

As well as some silly ones with the entire family:

I don’t think I’ll be able to jump back into AC properly until I beat Code: Realize ~Guardian of Rebirth~ but I’m getting there. So far I’ve done Impey, Van Helsing and Saint-Germain’s good endings, as well as one bad ending for Lupin and two for Saint-Germain. Saint-Germain has LOTS of bad ends… =_= Four total, I think? It’s one messed up route.

I’m sure I’ll be blogging more about Animal Crossing through the month of December.

Home Again

We got home past midnight. Got so much to do today, but by the afternoon life should be back to normal.

Even though the point of yesterday’s post was to shout it all out into the void, in the end we had a conversation about it in the car. I don’t even know how it came up –I’m sure I brought it up unconsciously.

Christopher showed real concern, but at the end of the day it seems there is but one solution: the way I dress and act justifies my bullying or at the very least explains it. If I want to not be dismissed, ignored, and mocked, I need to wear less colorful clothes, bags that don’t look stupid, and not bring toys with me.

That kind of breaks my heart.

A possible alternative is to be quiet a lot of the time. Either thing is very hard for me to do. The idea of buying different, “normal” clothes simply to be treated with kindness or like an adult is so bizarre to me. But I can be myself the rest of the time when I’m not around family, so maybe it’s doable. I guess if I have to change my appearance and demeanor so much, a part of me is going to be so depressed that I’m going to be quieter as a result anyway so it may be hitting two birds with one stone? ^_^;

It’s particularly sad because while I’ve always known that I’m an obnoxious personification of cringe, I thought my family loved me because of it rather than in spite of it. I’ve always kept this side of me hidden until I met my husband and his family. I thought it was okay but perhaps it’s been wearing on everyone else and that is selfish of me.

I’ve been myself far more than I ever thought possible for several years, so if the truest version of me has worn out its welcome, perhaps I just need to be grateful for those years and go back to being more “normal”. I just have this bad feeling that it will change very little in how I’m treated by family at this point, while making me very miserable in other ways.

But it’s entirely possible I’m making this a way bigger deal than it is. Like Christopher said, sometimes you have to present yourself differently, such as at work. I just can’t present myself in the way that makes me happiest around family. And just because that is a bummer it doesn’t mean it’s not true.

Maybe I’ll try to not be myself at least for a while, and see what happens even if it’s hard. Maybe it won’t be so hard since I’ll feel more self-conscious about it now anyway.

Several more posts are coming over the next few days. I need to catch up on housework and commissions first.