CW: This post will have small bits of weight loss/calories talk, nothing major, please don’t keep reading if this triggers you.
Today was a good day! I zoomed with mom, had a long bike ride (over seven miles). Did lots of work around the house, played Code: Realize, worked on art, and ate well! Wasn’t hungry, felt like I treated myself multiple times today and somehow I was well under my calorie limit! So, I’m ecstatic. As I work harder and harder, my negative obsession with eating junk foods wanes. I’m really proud of myself, and getting some encouragement from Sammy today was a tremendous boost too.
Tomorrow I have to get my blood drawn… and with that, the scary test gets closer and closer. 😞 I’m trying not to think about it. BUT! Hopefully in the evening, for date night, we get to go to Chuy’s which just opened. That’s exciting. Maybe I’ll wear one of my new skirtalls, and bring Falafel (my little stuffed camel) along.
In other VERY VERY EXCITING NEWS…
Many of my friends will know what a MASSIVE deal this is to me. I’ll most likely stream myself playing this. This game had a huge impact on my life, the music makes me cry to this day! I really hope it’ll be a physical release, but I’m not holding my breath. I’m just thrilled for it to be remastered at all!
Anyway, I have to cut this short. Long day tomorrow. Goodnight, everyone!
This drawing was meant to be accompanied by a long post describing my acceptance of being agnostic, a word I’ve only begun to use to describe myself this year, after one last, deep foray into religion that ultimately helped me finally be free.
In the end, I decided to post it by itself –well, mostly. This was going to be a lot longer. But I feel that my road to peace, to breaking away from religion and trying to find my spirituality without being constrained by fear or indoctrination, is more between me and my maker (I do still believe in intelligent design, but I also accept that it may not be a thing, I just wish that hopefully this is the case) rather than something I should share as a long diatribe.
The short of it is, I feel at peace –I had to grieve, in a way, but now I am happier than before. I was afraid that accepting what I suspected in my heart since childhood meant the world would lose its wonder and magic, but it has not: the world holds incredible wonder regardless of how it came to be. The only difference in my life, truly, is that I am free from fear, and left with wonder alone. I’m grateful for the journey.