I’m sorry I’m so late with new posts, especially fitness ones. The last three days have been a blur of housework and other stuff. Grandma and my mom in law are visiting now. We had a lovely evening and they are staying until Sunday morning.
I’m really happy especially for the time I had with my mom in law tonight. I felt like we were a little more close than usual. When that doesn’t happen for a long time, I try to pretend it doesn’t get to me. But the truth is it really does and my relationship with her is deeply important to me… so tonight, I am very happy. I hope she was proud of how nice the house looked, I did my best and I wanted Grandma to be pleased, but I think deep inside it’s my mom in law’s approval I crave most of all. I really do love her very much. I think she knew I tried really hard.
It sounds stupid to write that… I’m not 10 years old. But cleaning this house is hard for me. A part of me wants to be respected as an adult and the other wants to be praised like a little girl. It can be hard to reconcile those two parts of me, but tonight, both parts of my heart feel happy.
I made Christopher another birthday brownie because (he says) I ate most of the first one:
I’m getting in bed now, with Rosie purring my by ear. I’ll catch up on posts as I can… hope everyone is doing well!