My cramps were terrible this morning —the worst they’ve been in maybe 3 years. Tea almost had to be cancelled! But four painkillers and a hot compress later, I managed to get ready to go… no fancy dress this time. 😟 I couldn’t handle it feeling like that. I still felt decently cute, though.
Oh yeah –somehow, I forgot to show off this bag until today! The reason is that I got it during the recent vacation, as an early birthday present from Christopher. By which I mean I saw it at Boxlunch while Christopher was miles away (we spent that day in separate places) and I told him I’d had to have it even if I overdrafted my bank account. So, would he go halfsies with me on it as a birthday present?
In the end, he covered the whole cost, knowing how much this movie means to me on a spiritual level. 😁 But I wasn’t allowed to touch or take photos of it or anything until my actual birthday. And then I forgot because I’d hidden it. Anyway –here it is!
Christopher wore one of Grandpa’s shirts today, so I took this photo to send to Grandma. It’s been just a couple of days since the first anniversary of Grandpa’s passing… The flag was a gift from Grandma too so I included it in the photo:
Mignon was my companion for this outing!
🍰🎀 Time For Tea 🎀🍰
Here’s Mignon with my first tea pick, a peaches and cream tea. It’s a favorite of mine.
Then we had quiché and tomato soup!
Finally the best part came! I didn’t take a photo of the tray this time… It’s the same as usual –lots of delicious finger sandwiches and sweets.
They always put so much effort in the little details!
We took our time and really enjoyed ourselves. It’ll be a while before we get to go again.
After tea, we went to walk around Tate’s Comics. Then Christopher began to look for some other place to go before heading home, but so many old places we frequented had shut down permanently because of Covid… I just sat and played with Mignon while he looked on his phone.
Mignon might have gotten a little restless after a while…
Eventually we went to a retro antique store and to a thrift shop. We didn’t have any intention of shopping, but I found this book for just $1:
If you know these characters (you probably don’t) you know how hard this stuff is to find! Can’t beat it at just one dollar.
It really was a wonderful time. I didn’t have the heart to tell Lia (the owner) that it might be months/over a year before we can go again. 😢With our current situation, I think we will be lucky to be able have such a treat for our next anniversary… but it was such a lovely time, and I feel so lucky that we didn’t have to cancel it.
My last bit of birthday stuff (mostly Amazon gift card stuff) is arriving today and some arrived yesterday! I really ended up spoiled beyond belief… I will say that, considering that luxuries such as these are gonna go out of the window starting in August, I’m so glad that I have so much stuff to have fun with for a long while.
🐣 Littlespace Stuff 🐣
First is this Bingo night light! I’m going to enjoy looking at it every day on my desk while I work:
Here she is all lit up! You can’t turn the light off –it goes off by itself after a few minutes.
Here are some more vintage unopened trading cards. Can’t wait to open these during Littlespace and then scrapbooking with them!
These things can be really hit or miss though. Sometimes I get a lot of “puzzle piece” type cards…
Next –more stickers!! Miss Kobayashi’s Dragon Maid and Crayon Shin-Chan this time. 👀
Then there’s another book for scrapbooking art into my journal. I have one more of these coming later today.
🌈 Other Cool Things 🌈
I had a lot of these books on my wish list and was really glad to get at least one. It’s absolutely fantastic! If you’re a writer I highly recommend it.
The way it works is, you look up an emotion, and for each emotion you get a wealth of expressions that you can use to express that particular state of mind. It’s just so cool.
Finally —this wasn’t a birthday present. I preordered this AGES ago… it finally came today. (*￣∀￣) ✨
I really did buy a lot of crap before things went south recently… 😅 and other than Grandma’s check (which I saved) I pretty much spent all birthday money right away, too… I wanna make sure it is clear no donation money went to any of this junk. It was either purchased before or with gift cards/money given to myself with the caveat that it was to be used for birthday treats.
Also. I think you all know this, BUT… my spending sprees often coincide with depression. Especially if it’s my Little side that is hit. 😓 You can often tell I’m depressed even if I’m seemingly super happy by how much s**t I buy in a given period of time, even if I seem super happy in my posts.
With that said, it definitely won’t be possible going forward for a while, so I’ll have to find a different coping mechanism. 👀💦 Thankfully, I have a lot to entertain myself… and the Zoom meeting with other Littles did me tremendous good too!
To be clear, no one has given me a hard time about this at all… but I worry about perception, so I wanted to set that straight.
I think that’s all for this post. I’m working really hard. Things are still fairly stressful at home, but taking time every few days to be Little is doing wonders for my mental health. I hope you’re having a lovely weekend!
Today I did something I’d been toying with for some time, but felt too shy to do. Same reason actually why I didn’t do BFC… Now, I wish that I had attended that as well. See, today I attended Isolation Storytime for the first time!
To tell you the truth I fully expected to keep my webcam and mic off for the whole thing, lurk a while, feel super uncomfortable and leave. This is because generally, being around other Littles that I don’t know intimately tends to cause a cognitive dissonance in me, a strong awareness that I’m a grown ass adult doing kid things, and I go into a bad headspace.
I’ve heard this happens to other Littles as well. In your mind, during Littlespace, you feel like a little kid. But depending on how your mind works, seeing other Littles being Little in their very adult bodies can be a reminder of reality and yank you right out. This, I assume, has a lot to do with how much you are exposed to other Littles, and is probably why I have Little friends with whom this does not happen at all.
Anyway, to my surprise, this ended up not being the case. For reasons I cannot explain, I turned my camera on right at the start. I ended up not feeling so shy and having so much fun. The hostess, Tibby/Mavis, was wonderful, I was blown away by how talented she was in her singing and playing! And everyone who offered their time and effort was so lovely too. I really enjoyed coloring while listening to stories. It left me feeling quite happy. I think I might even offer to read a story down the road…
It was also my first time in a Zoom group meeting. Still getting used to the mechanics of that.
During this time I tried out my new crayon sharpener that I got from Drake as a birthday present. It’s amazing! It really gets crayons back to their old sharpness:
By this I mean proper crayon shape. I just found it so cool!
Anyhow, my first IsoStorytime attendance was very sudden, I had actually decided not to attend and changed my mind ten minutes before start time… next Friday I may use my laptop at floor level instead and prep myself a play area well in advance. Maybe even order a Happy Meal if Christopher lets me. 😁🍟
Hi hi, everyone!! 👋 Guess what today is. It’s my birthday! 🥳 Of course you know, because I’m the kind of person who doesn’t shut up about these things. 😁 The first thing I woke up to was a birthday greeting and Amazon gift card from my mom in law. I think I had spent it literally ten minutes later. I’m terrible.
But anyway, got even more stuff I’m looking forward to arriving now. Today was extremely overindulgent. 😅 But I have been so sad, and so stressed, especially the last week. I am a lot happier.
🎁 Opening Presents 🎁
The first present I opened arrived some weeks ago. I didn’t know who it was from until today –thank you very much to my friend Kiba! It’s Felix Salten’s “Forest World”:
Felix Salten is a writer best known for the books “Bambi” and “Bambi’s Children”, but he also wrote “Fifteen Rabbits”, “Perri: The Youth Of A Squirrel” and many other wonderful books, which are often heartbreaking and full of death, but also hopeful and with beautiful descriptions of the wonders of life and of nature.
As I continued opening my presents, it turned out (based on the included gift notes) that I got some from Bluey and her gang! 🤯 What is this sorcery?
They sent me the Shadowlands board game, and some stickers! Thank you Bluey, Coco and Snickers! I think my friend Mwako was involved in making it happen, though… 🦁
The next package was from a dear commissioner, whom I love to draw. He has a very cute mouse fursona, a weakness of mine! His name in the community is Fieval. He sent me some Bluey figures! Thank you very much, Matt! 🐭💕
It was finally time to open my biggest present. I was very excited, so I saved it for last, and… HOLY CRAP!! 😭😱💕💕💕💕💕💕💕✨✨✨✨✨✨🌈🌈🌈🌈 *sobs*
I lost my freaking mind, it’s so cute!! Again, I suspect a tiny lion had something to do with it… although it still seemed to come from either Bluey or Bingo. Who IS the keepy-uppy expert? Was that ever established? I can’t recall. 🎈
You know… I wish I could have told 7 year old me that I would still be getting toys from multiple people for my 38th birthday –from people who also, like me, like toys and kiddy things as adults. That I would have a tank full of snails and four cats, and a library, and a husband who’s kind of a big kid like me in some ways too and makes me feel safe and loved… and drawing every day… what a life. I hope nothing happens to take it all away, but even if it did I would be so grateful for all I had until today.
🌈 Littlespace Shopping 🌈
Earlier in the day, my friend Snow sent me a present too! Some birthday monies to spend however I wanted today. So I decided to go out. And I finally made an outfit around my new Bluey shirt!
I really love it a whole lot! I wore my boots because it was sprinkling when I left but in the end I didn’t need them. It was sunny all throughout. 🌞🌻✨
Oh yeah… I know this is a petty side note, but I get asked “where did you get X thing” a LOT when I post “Little” stuff. Like multiple times a day on Twitter, often by complete strangers. It gets very old for me… I feel like I am used as a catalog mostly (usually) by people who almost never talk to me or don’t even follow me, even though 90% of the stuff I post can be found if you put 10-15 minutes into a Google search. If we are CLOSE friends then feel free to ask me via DM. 😊 I don’t mind telling friends.I just don’t like feeling used because someone is lazy.
I have a mask but it’s not in this photo. I’m wearing a mask indoors again when shipping and such, to be extra safe, but I am vaccinated! ✌🌈✨💉
I had a lot of fun on my walk, but was definitely glad that I brought a bottle of water (something I’m bad about) because the heat was quite unbearable. Here is my Little birthday treasure hoard from that excursion:
One of my favorites was this squirrel which will likely be displayed for the entirety of fall every year going forward! And speaking of squirrels and fall… another fun fall squirrel thing I got was a garden flag to put at the front of the house. Have I mentioned I’m excited for fall? 🐿️🍂🍁🌰
As you can see in the first photo I also got fall, Christmas and Birthday stickers, a new pair of scissors, and some Pride tape. And these amazing scented gel crayons! 🖍️🌈✨
Small softcover books make great, cheap scrapbooking supplies… although a part of myself dies when I cut up a brand new book, even if I bought it for this specific purpose… 😭✂️
One of the nicest thing I got was another Highlights Hidden Pictures puzzle book. These are a massive Little button for me.
I love the old-timey art and the level of difficulty is precise to my usual Little age headspace. Here’s some sample pages… 📖🖍️🌈 I love it so much!
Thank you again, Snow, for all the nice play things I was able to get! 💕💕💕💕💕💕💕
📦 Mail Day 📦
As if so many wonderful things weren’t enough, when I got home there was stuff in the mail for me. One was the Bella Sara card packs I ordered a while ago:
I’ll use them for scrapbooking, but opening card packs is also a big Littlespace activity for me, so I’m very excited about them.
The next really blew my mind!! I specifically asked my mom for the Vegeta figure for my birthday because it was so cheap… like $12. I knew she wanted to get me something, I didn’t want her to overspend on me! 😩 Especially when she’s spent THOUSANDS recently on immigration… WHY… 😢
Anyway… she kept messaging during my outing wanting to know if I was home. It was because of this:
So… yeah… one of the most wanted most expensive things on my list. A gorgeous artbook of my first otome experience, Code: Realize ~Guardian Of Rebirth~.
It even has art I’ve never seen before, so I was quite overcome with emotion by this beautiful present from my loving mom.
💕 Date Night 💕
After ALL of that, Christopher and I had our date night! I had a really fancy snack and perhaps a bit too much wine. Bangers is protecting my yummy hoard!
Like last time, we played Age of Empires together-but-separately (side by side):
Later we watched a movie. I was too full from snacks to have dinner. 😅
Christopher petted me for hours while we watched. I was half dozing off between the wine and all the happy feels and just feeling sooooo good, it was a wonderful evening and I felt so loved and safe.
Now it’s time for bed… thank you, everyone, for all the presents and good wishes. You made me so happy. I guess I’ll have more things to share throughout the weekend as they arrive –but tomorrow I really gotta get some work done! ✊💦 Goodnight, everyone…
Today I finished my 100 Days Of Warm-Ups project! Well, it ended up being 103. Before I start to work again, I needed to reset, so I decided to have some Little time. Of course, that means scrapbooking and cartoons!
I had Bluey with me. I offered to share my snack but she didn’t want any.
Cartoon choices were (of course) Bluey and Crayon Shin-Chan.
The episode I started with, in which Shin Chan meets the “real life” Action Mask, is SO adorable. Shin Chan may be the Japanese “Dennis The Menace” but he is far more childlike and genuine, and as a result, he can be so cute sometimes.
For a show with so much sexual innuendo and such jokes, it has huge heart. I’ve noticed that when shows like these add bits of emotion, it gets to me something crazy. Like when Shin Chan sends his important letter and it’s to Misae to thank her for all she does. It was played for laughs, but I teared up. Or when he finds Shiro. I’ve teared up watching this show at least three times and I’m still on season one. 😅
At some point I’m going to start going in between this and Doraemon because I have a lot of episodes to get through.
Anyway!! Have a look at my tape collection!
I’ve got all kinds… Washi, fabric, duck brand tape… they’re a lot of fun. I also have some huge duck brand tape rolls with really cute designs but of course those don’t fit in this box.
The last thing I’ve got to share is my new Bluey shirt. Can you tell I got a new special interest? Oops. Haha…
That’s it for tonight I guess! It’s time to clean the snail tank and then start dinner. I’m making chicken tonight. 🐔
✨ Here’s warm-up 103 of 100! (yeah, went a little over… lol) ✨ This one is for Nazznikonanuke.
So ends the FIRST of my 100 Days Of Warm-Ups project. I am so grateful to everyone who participated! I still have a bit of personal debt to cover, so I will definitely be reopening for a similar sort of project, but only after the entirety of my queue is done.
I’m aware that in spite of my promises and earnestness, and with no help from a lot of crappy things that came at us this year, the warm-ups did slow down my normal queue. So, while I loved this project, I won’t restart it until the queue is cleared. This means I am closed to ALL commissions until that happens. Give me just a few weeks –I’ll be back with a vengeance and posting art every day until then!
🌈 I am currently all sold out of warm-up slots –but they will reopen, so stay tuned! 😊