Today I did something I’d been toying with for some time, but felt too shy to do. Same reason actually why I didn’t do BFC… Now, I wish that I had attended that as well. See, today I attended Isolation Storytime for the first time!
To tell you the truth I fully expected to keep my webcam and mic off for the whole thing, lurk a while, feel super uncomfortable and leave. This is because generally, being around other Littles that I don’t know intimately tends to cause a cognitive dissonance in me, a strong awareness that I’m a grown ass adult doing kid things, and I go into a bad headspace.
I’ve heard this happens to other Littles as well. In your mind, during Littlespace, you feel like a little kid. But depending on how your mind works, seeing other Littles being Little in their very adult bodies can be a reminder of reality and yank you right out. This, I assume, has a lot to do with how much you are exposed to other Littles, and is probably why I have Little friends with whom this does not happen at all.
Anyway, to my surprise, this ended up not being the case. For reasons I cannot explain, I turned my camera on right at the start. I ended up not feeling so shy and having so much fun. The hostess, Tibby/Mavis, was wonderful, I was blown away by how talented she was in her singing and playing! And everyone who offered their time and effort was so lovely too. I really enjoyed coloring while listening to stories. It left me feeling quite happy. I think I might even offer to read a story down the road…
It was also my first time in a Zoom group meeting. Still getting used to the mechanics of that.
During this time I tried out my new crayon sharpener that I got from Drake as a birthday present. It’s amazing! It really gets crayons back to their old sharpness:
By this I mean proper crayon shape. I just found it so cool!
Anyhow, my first IsoStorytime attendance was very sudden, I had actually decided not to attend and changed my mind ten minutes before start time… next Friday I may use my laptop at floor level instead and prep myself a play area well in advance. Maybe even order a Happy Meal if Christopher lets me. 😁🍟