Yesterday and today I visited my mom. It was a better visit than usual for me, because I was able to talk to my mom about a lot of concern and stress I had regarding her welfare and the future. I’d been keeping it all bottled up for the better part of two years, to the point of having nightmares and it affecting my everyday life, especially recently (this is somewhat related to the “things I didn’t want to go into detail about” in previous posts: basically the stress made it much harder to deal with other normal, everyday stressors).
My mom really listened to me and made me feel like everything is not all on my shoulders and like we can work together to achieve the things we want as a family even if not immediately. For now, we were able to secure another year at her current apartment, if at a much higher rent, unfortunately. But, small victories matter.
I am still stressed but I feel like a weight has been lifted off my chest and I can breathe and focus on my goals again. 💕