I really tried to give today my all, but it feels like it didn’t work out. I published two new YCHs, but neither sold. Most of my commissioners have purchased plenty of work recently –I am sad that I cannot seem to sell to new people faster, though it is happening little by little. I need new customers if I am to properly pull my own weight.
Other things are making me sad too. Sometimes very small things can make me very happy, or hurt me very easily. Especially at this time of the month. Sometimes I’m not sure if a thing qualifies as big or small in the grand scheme of things, but I can end up sad for a while, all the same.
But good things happened today too… I exercised a lot. And I wrote a whole bunch of the next chapter of my book. I also did a lot of chores and worked on a commission. It’s best to concentrate on accomplishments. There’s always tomorrow after all.
This morning I managed to be out of the house well before sunrise. During my walk, I captured the rising sun. I got my almost- but-not-quite-10-kilometers in. I started the day with energy, but right now as I write this, I feel down and tired. I’m lonely again now that Christopher is back at work, and PMS is getting to me, besides.
On my way back from my walk I picked up a Cuban snail. I no longer do this, as I have too many, but finding a Cuban snail in the middle of the sidewalk by the mall is incredibly rare. Cuban snails are not generally caught in perilous situations past sunrise. This guy was a bit retracted, I thought he might have recently passed, but I took him home all the same.
When I got home and rinsed him, an unusual amount of liquidy slime came out, extremely gross, and in such cases it means the snail is dead and the body has begun to liquify. But you never know with snails. Indeed, I put him in an isolation container with some kale, and a half hour later he’d come out and climbed to the top. I was amazed.
All the same, a snail that finds itself in this sort of tricky spot might be unwell –particularly considering the deep retraction. We will see if he recovers with TLC.
Today I released a couple more YCHs. I’ll release them on the blog as well, shortly. The month is quickly passing by and the funds are not fully raised, but I am trying my best.
Anyway, writing this as I have lunch…
It’s hard to find motivation today. I’m going to try to shower, finish my chores, and work on a pending freebie.
First things first, here’s my outfit for today. Waifu shirt, because why not.
Today was mostly a very good day. Christopher and I spent most of it together once my chores were done. We shopped for groceries, played Overcooked, and watched Words Bubble Up Like Soda Pop, a lovely movie with unique, beautiful aesthetics. It made me tear up at the end.
At some point, I made us coffee…
After that movie was done, we watched the Muppets Haunted Mansion special (I didn’t like it, even though Gonzo is my favorite character. Muppets are very hit-or-miss with me). Then I went on my walk. On the way there, I came across a standoff between a huge iguana and a bunch of ducks. You can still see the iguana in the video below, which I wanted to record because their interaction was funny, but the moment I approached, all the ducks made a beeline for me, scaring the iguana off, which is why it’s on the side:
They wanted food, and tried hard to be cute, nodding their heads and shaking their tail feathers. Alas, I had nothing.
(CW for upsetting animal accident talk below)
I was excited to take a 10km walk today. But just a few kms in, something really upsetting happened and I had to turn back. I was going to write about it in detail, but there is no point in dwelling on the memory beyond the following: I saw a little dog get run over on Pines. It was very upsetting –even for me seeing it almost a block away (though I was half a block from the crazed doggy at one point) for the poor woman who had gotten off her car to try to get the dog, and for whoever ran it over.
If you know Pines, you know it is a very busy road. It caused a big problem and I’m sure upset many people, as a great many cars had to stop very suddenly, and many noticed what happened. It was a big thing, though it was over in mere moments. I turned back immediately and called Christopher to calm myself a little, I was okay, but it just left me so sad. There was nothing I could do.
Once I got home, I jumped in the shower and Christopher put the Bagel Bites in the oven, a last treat before he goes back to work tomorrow.
We watched a documentary about a controversial topic that ended up being very depressing. 😬 But it was a good day nonetheless. Tomorrow I have to get lots and lots of work done… so I better get ready for bed or I’ll blow my bedtime again.
Ok, today was a LOT of fun, I actually wasn’t expecting to feel so happy today with my PMS going on and all… But anyway. I really have to clean my mirror… it looks clean enough but when I take photos there’s problematic streaks. 😅
I hadn’t taken a Furby along in forever. I brought Play-Doh with me today!
We found a few interesting garage sales. One in particular, of an older couple, was like a time capsule. Mack The Knife playing in the background, and all of these ancient things in like-new condition. Some of it was very cool. We enjoyed that stop a lot. In the end I only spent $3 on some things I’ll share down below –at a different stop.
We went out for lunch. Usually we go to the same old places, but Christopher surprised me by picking a completely brand new one! It was called Phở Bar:
We often to go Phở restaurants but I never have Phở. I look for other things in the menu. This time I did have it though, I had a meatball one:
I liked it well enough! But next time I’ll try something else. Christopher had his usual:
For dessert I had a chocolate mousse:
This ended up being on the house, possibly because right as we were done eating, they had a huge party come in and we were forgotten waiting for our bill for like 20 minutes lol. 😬 But service was fantastic otherwise and I did feel this made up for it.
Christopher and I very rarely go to places like this by ourselves. It’s a big treat and a nice thing to do together at the end of his much needed vacation. It really made my day!
My find for today was incredibly cheap and very cool. Some activity books in excellent, untouched condition! When it comes to the Baby Looney Toons and Pooh ones, I grabbed them thinking I’d use them for scrapbooking, but after looking at them at home, I decided to add these to my permanent collection to leave in pristine condition:
These three are by FAR the coolest though. I’m not sure what year they were printed in but they are amazing.
The pages speak for themselves. These activity books are so full of charm. They are clearly very old, I’m surprised they are so well preserved.
All of those awesome little books/magazines together cost just $1. At the same place, I also got this dinosaur facemask for $2:
So, it was a neat little haul for only $3!
The rest of our day was very enjoyable. Christopher played City Skylines, while I did my chores and later streamed for a while. I’m playing Dungeon Keeper with some cheats now, in order to get through levels I’ve not been able to get past in 20 years (granted, I don’t play this game often). It’s kinda fun to have the cheats. Basically, I’ve made my imps cost 0, and every gold block give me the max amount of gold, plus, I made all of the rooms cost nothing to build.
I definitely have a lot more fun this way. But I am aware that in the next level, you start getting slammed just a few minutes in, so it’ll still be strategy. I could easily die even with the cheats. We will see.
I was excited to sacrifice to summon Horny again, I hadn’t seen him in so long…
I’ll make a separate post with my recorded stream.
For dinner we had skirt steak with cilantro rice and beans. It was amazing!
Even by this point it had been a very lovely day, but we spent the rest of the evening watching TV and cuddling in bed in the nicest way. Today I could have been cranky and just dealing with my cramps all day but it ended up being such a nice relaxing day and Christopher gave me so much attention… I’m really happy. 🥰
Good morning, everyone! 🌞 I’m writing this from the ✨ nice and clean ✨ back porch. 😊 I’m so glad I pushed through and did that! Now I’m waiting for Christopher to wake up so we can go garage saling today. Our good friend is too busy with work to join us, which has us both a little bummed, but we will have a good time all the same.
It’s a little cooler today. In an hour or two it will be hot as ever, but right now I’m outside and wearing a jacket, which really feels kind of amazing. October is halfway over… cooler weather is just around the corner for us, and really, it can’t come soon enough. I love being out here with the cats.
Plus, I can’t wait to take walks at other times of the day other than sunrise and sunset, you know, when the sun is actually out, without melting.
That aside, since I started tracking my periods again, now I know that I’m PMSing, which does explain my crappy mood the last day or so. It’s really helpful to realize that it’s going on, so I can see some things more objectively.
Art wise, I’m feeling very encouraged. I was sure there was no way that this month I could put the full $1,000 towards my mom’s fund, AND the $500 towards our house debt, because… well, this month I paid off my Amazon card, and it was at over $500 (in the last few months I had a bunch of not super smart purchases… games, clothes, and a lot in Christmas presents for this year –most of it before things went to heck for us).
BUT. I gave Christopher the $500 for the monthly debt, I paid off the $500+ of the Amazon card, AND I have $395 set aside for my mom’s move-in fund. If I make it to $500, I won’t feel like I failed (because the Amazon card is not a regular expense). But if I make it to $1,000… the full monthly amount… I’ll feel very triumphant indeed.
Anyway, Christopher’s awake so it’s time to finish getting ready. I’ll post again later today!
Today I’m feeling a bit more hopeful. It’s fairly private so I don’t want to talk about it on the blog (or anywhere) but to put it as succinctly as possible, stuff that is really important in our lives is on the way to some sort of healing, of getting better, even if it’s just the beginning of a type of journey that is simply not quick nor easy. But first steps are being taken –and that feels like, well, everything. Because it IS everything. It’s the most important thing in my life really. 💗 But, that’s all I will say about that.
In other news I sold two slots of my new YCH which means today’s savings goal is complete! 🎉
Today is a busy day, both in terms of artwork and chores, so not much in the way of blogging, but I am doing my best. I’ve had a headache for hours, so I’m gonna go take something and then clean the snail tank. 🐌 Hope you all are having a lovely afternoon!
Yesterday was a hard day. It kinda started Tuesday night when we went to bed and noticed Kotoko hadn’t joined us as is her usual routine. She was hiding in an unusual little nook under my studio bed and looked quite unhappy.
This was coupled with her vomiting even on an empty stomach (white foam) over the last few days, something that intensified in the previous 24 hours, with her appetite quite reduced. Since she had some loose stool as well during this period, and because she is old, it all became very concerning. Her hiding like that from us was the most unusual part.
We hoped so much to avoid a vet appointment, because it was at a minimum a $300 expense that we could ill afford. But yesterday morning, it became clear that we had to go, as she continued to hide from us and throw up. I took this picture right as we were leaving for the vet. She behaved very well.
On the one hand, thanks to the appointment I confirmed her ears are okay, her spotty eye is fine, the lump on her back leg is fatty tissue, and her teeth are also okay. She was given medication to control the vomiting, which has helped (she didn’t vomit anymore since yesterday morning) and a bunch of blood work, the results of which we should have today.
But on the other hand, I was SO discouraged. It was so hard to raise this month’s $500 for this month’s debt to take some stress off Christopher’s plate. I was so proud –even though I still have to raise more before November. But after the vet bill, we were set back around $300 (there was an additional $25 for other items for her):
To have such an amount removed from all of my efforts this month nearly made me cry with frustration. I’m drawing all the time, trying my best to make things okay, but I can’t catch up like this. We received a significant amount of help yesterday but it had us over $200 in the hole still. So even this morning, I was really sad about that.
It was when I came back from my walk that I had Christopher check and realized just how much we received in donations (since I had them sent directly to his PayPal) and my mind was blown!!
The entire vet bill and additional meds were covered thanks to your generous donations! 😭 The $500 I made to put towards our house debt are once again, untouched. And, most importantly, Kotoko is feeling better. This photo is from the way back from the vet (I know, the photos are very similar) but even then, because of the fluids and anti-nausea meds, she was feeling better:
It took a while for the fluids to go into her (something for which they took her to the back) so I fooled around with the Jurassic World Alive app on my phone while we waited…
Anyway, I just want to reiterate how grateful I am, all I wanted was to not have this be such a painful hit for our finances, discouraging as it was, and in the end we received so much help that we didn’t have to lose the money saved for the debt. I am so grateful to everyone who donated!
To continue in regards to yesterday. When we got back home, though I was trying to stay cheerful for Christopher (who I could tell was doing the same) I felt really low. Christopher did his best to cheer me up, he treated me to Chipotle and Starbucks on the same day. But it took a while until I felt okay again.
At least though, I managed to push through my hated task of cleaning the porch. And boy, did I hate it. But it is done, and by the time night fell, I finally let the cats outside again, to their utter delight. They’re still there now, enjoying themselves:
I also planted more grass for them to eat while they are on the porch, something I know they miss a lot.
The place looks a good bit emptier with all that I’ve thrown away, but that’s fine. It looks clean. And since this was something that was angering and depressing me so much, I expect my mood to continue to improve today and over the weekend, every time I see it. 😊 I’m also gonna clean up the house a little bit, since I am considering having a party the weekend after this one. 🤔
During one of my cleaning breaks yesterday, while having my coffee, I read some of this book I got at the Swap Shop…
It’s very simple, but quite adorable. I like it because the stories are not about bears in general but about teddy bears specifically (as in, toys).
And that brings me to now! I’m having breakfast with Picaña as I work on this post.
Anyway, today I really need to catch up on artwork, as much as I can. Things are not delayed per the queue, but they are per my monetary personal goals. 😥 This week just kinda went to heck, though thanks to everyone’s support it is turning around again! 🎉
Good evening, everyone! 😊 Today I woke up full of determination. I got lots done! But to begin with, let me share something from last night. I ultimately picked Anise to wear the lovely dress made by Kitty. Here she is modeling it!
Because today I knew I’d burn plenty of calories on the porch, I skipped my morning walk. I didn’t mean to skip the evening one as well, but it got late and Christopher isn’t happy when I get home after sundown, so I’ll probably just get on my exercise bike after I finish writing this post. Anyway, the porch was the first thing on my day, while it was still kinda dark outside, and still somewhat cool. My first job involved moving all the bricks to a corner of the yard. This was a BIG job:
All in all it was 32 or so bricks, 22 lbs each. Perhaps a little more? 😬 I could barely lift a single one, so I had to take them one at a time, and kinda f***ed up my wrists in doing so, but I did move them all. I also cleaned one part of the porch (no pressure cleaning) and moved everything from the other side, so I can pressure clean that area tomorrow. It’s so filthy:
Another thing I did was move my neglected little hanging plant to a spot where it will get more sun, and, being right next to the hose, be easier to water. I added more soil to the pot and just made it a little neater, it was a mess.
I fixed this little area, too, so now it is pleasant to look at again… 💖🌷
And I trashed many… many things that were in unsalvageable condition. 😞
Those photos are from my stopping point for the day, but earlier, around noon, I took a break to make lunch for Christopher and I. He’d been playing video games and relaxing, so I wanted to treat him to something special. I made him rice balls. 🍙✨🌈
His were plain (that’s how he likes them) but afterwards I made some for me too, and these had tuna salad and spreadable cheese as choices of fillings. They were great!
During lunch and throughout my day I continued to read “Sprout”. It’s a curious little story (spoilers ahead, if you care) about a little boy who is obsessed with elephants. He’s a very peculiar child, who by a wide variety of displayed traits would definitely be diagnosed autistic by our standards today.
The book is overall funny, charming, and without very high stakes, until our protagonist decides to climb up a tree and have a 22 foot fall that nearly kills him. It’s not something I expected to happen in such a short story. While the tone doesn’t change very much, things feel so serious so quickly. In any case, it has a happy end, and it’s a charming little read.
Not only did I do all of this today, but I streamed Dungeon Keeper for one hour (to be shared in a separate post) and finally got through the town of Tickle (I failed, I think, about five times, two or three times in-stream!) and got some work done on a birthday present for a couple of my friends. I might finish that tonight.
In another note, I now have some snail shells on my shelf. These were buried and cleaned out by nature (except for the baby shell… sadly, this is the baby I shared a month or so ago. He did not make it, but I saved his shell). One of the other shells is an old Cornu Aspersum. And the second shell from the left is my sweet old guy who died a few weeks ago. I’m happy that his shell survived in the best condition of the three that I buried.
Now, being done with this post, I’m going to continue on to the rest of my housework, then exercise a bit, then get some writing in before bed. I’ve finally broken through a serious chapter hurdle and I’ve got to strike while the iron is hot.
Ok, I’m back from my walk and here is the last post of the day. I managed to cheer myself up pretty well, although now that it’s gotten late and dark I feel a bit down again. Mostly because with the day being over, I can’t continue doing stuff. Or, I can but my energy is pretty darn spent.
Still, I’m gonna do the best I can after this post. Shower, get ready for bed, do a laundry load switch, put the dishes in the dishwasher, change the cats’ water, and then draw and play Dungeon Keeper until bedtime… or maybe draw and watch YouTube. Tomorrow I’ll take care of my paperwork and start work on the porch. Little by little I’ll get everything done and get out of my funk.
Anyway! I’m waffling, as the Brits say. This post is about two lovely packages I received recently, from two dear friends.
The first package to arrive was from my good friend Snow:
Based on some back-and-forth jokes, Snow sent me an old (clean) sock of his. I said if he did I would pin it on my corkboard, and indeed I have done so!
In addition to the Totoro sock memento, there were two very cute charms from Wen, who asked Snow to pass them on, and a pair of socks that might look familiar. You may remember that a long time ago, I got a pair just like it from my friend Drake (this is something Snow didn’t know). In fact, I loved my original socks so much, that I wore them til the fabric got quite thin. To have a replacement just in time, is perfect!
There was also a sweet letter from Snow as is usual with his mail, which is saved in my special folder along with his other letters and stories. 💕
Next is my dear friend Kitty’s package. It had so many lovely goodies! A dress for one of my bears, stickers, two pins, and naturally a lovely long letter.
The letter had a wax seal! It’s just like mine, except mine has a squirrel. I really love wax seals.
The giraffe pin is for my plushie Churro, while the squirrel one really was a totally unexpected surprise that will go in my pastel ita bag with Kitty’s own lovely pins.
I hadn’t gotten any mail of this sort in a while, and both packages really made my day. I have yet to decide who will get to wear the utterly beautiful handmade dress Kitty sent… it won’t be an easy decision, as in addition to being so pretty it is a precious thing since it was made by my very beloved friend.
That’s it for this entry… and for posts today (other than the upcoming fitness post). Hopefully tomorrow I can continue on like today and do well.
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