Look at this cutie I saw when I was watering our new yard!
I saw him when I first set out the sprinkler and he hid inside. Still, just in case I took my phone the second time around and I was very glad because he was back, and I was able to get super close for some really adorable photos of my little neighbor:
He was a curly tail. Invasive species… they grow kinda big. I hope I see him again.
I worked on a bunch of commissions today! Also had fun working a tad on my scrapbook (well, Littlespace journal.)
As you can see some areas are kind of “lifting” which I hope to be able to fix with a fixative spray that is coming later this week. My goal is to fix this journal completely, but after that I’m 100% going back to Happy Planner pages. Not Happy Planners themselves –just that format. It is far easier to scrapbook with those.
Both work and Littlespace cheered me up a lot! I’m also really looking forward to tea this weekend for my birthday. I’m going to try to scrapbook more this week as long as I can also keep up with commission work too.
I can’t wait for Mwako’s visit so we can do all sorts of Little things together! I’ve been craving it terribly.
I had a terrible, awful bad dream. One of those wake-up-sweating, with the words I was screaming in a loop during my dream caught at my throat, almost crying type of nightmare. The bad feeling was very slow to leave me. It still hasn’t completely.
I guess the last week was pretty crappy and stressful… Maybe it all got to me. The thing that has me feeling the lowest isn’t something I can fix and I’m having so much trouble getting over it. That is not helping at all.
I’m looking forward a lot to my friend Mwako visiting. I think spending time being Little with him will help a ton. Just a bit under a month to go –and by then most of the stressful stuff just might be over.
I’m still feeling super, super low, so I decided to go on a Little outing. I walked to Michaels and got some stickers, and then to Target, where I got one of their last two Bluey plushies. I really, desperately needed something new to hug that wasn’t expensive.
It was very hot outside, almost unbearably so, but the walk did me good all the same. I met a squirrel on the way, who really stared me down…
Here’s my Bluey plush that I got to cheer myself up:
Later, I did some more scrapbooking. Bluey made sure the colors were harmonious.
I did work on art in the afternoon though, so I promise it wasn’t a day without commission work.
Even though I’m not doing okay mentally, I managed to be pretty helpful in the yard without as much whining as I feared I might have done. I ended up in a ton of pain but I helped raking leaves and with Christopher we put down two pallets of sod together. I also did a lot of pressure cleaning.
More than anything I am relieved that considering how I am currently feeling I managed to be cheerful most of the time because I really don’t want to bring my family down with my nonsense, again.
🐛 Working On The Yard 🐛
My mom in law found a cute caterpillar while raking leaves so she let me take him to a safe place. He was such a cutie:
Here’s some video of the little bugger, too:
I really didn’t want to be the first one to tap out (and I only stopped maybe 15 minutes before everyone else, after working since before 8:00am) but I was actually crying by that point because of the terribly pain in my old wrist injury. I think it’ll be okay though.
These photos are from when I came back inside. Almost every area of uncovered skin looked like my arm. 😅
Oh yeah –the fridge behind me is the new fridge. It was delivered today. It’s a pretty nice fridge.
Here are some photos of our freshly sodded and pressure cleaned yard and house. The first pallet had some kinda bad squares, but Christopher said it will all grow in very nicely.
After going back in, I showered and sat down to relax for a bit. I had a package to open.
🎈 Birthday Present From Drake 🎈
My friend Drake sent me a really fancy birthday present! It’s a very cute (but very good, it’s not a toy) crayon sharpener. I hope to use it on the next Little playdate.
Mojito was admiring it too!
Thank you Drakey for such a very lovely present. 💕✨
🐰 Scrapbooking Time 🐰
After that I worked a bit on my scrapbook and watched Crayon Shin-Chan. Mignon wanted to watch so I prepared his little chair for him to sit on.
And that was that for the day. Eventually I began working on chores. Grandma made spaghetti and meatballs for dinner. The day didn’t end on a bad note. Perhaps I’ll cheer up tomorrow, I’m going to try!
I think I just don’t know how to talk to people in a normal way. I say too much or too little, almost all of the time. Especially the former. I am so awkward.
I’ve been told I am this way since childhood and I have been told I have to change. I have always tried, and sometimes I think I am getting better, but eventually I am reminded that I’m really, really not. Every day it’s more obvious that I’m not neurotypical at all (and I never have been) but that knowledge doesn’t help. I still have to carry this painful inability to be social in the same wavelength as others that is always there. Always putting my foot in my mouth or wondering if I did. Always wondering.
I’m so sorry for being this way… I’m in a perpetual state of anxiety because of it. If I ever offend you, I probably didn’t mean to. I just really wear my heart in my sleeve instead of showing it slowly. It can be really off putting. I’m so sorry for that, I really mean that.
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