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Bunk Bed Is All Done! ๐ŸŒˆโœจ๐Ÿ›๏ธ

My studio bunk bed is all done! Some choice stuffie friends have been placed on the top now that there is a mattress there. It’s basically a stuffie corral. ๐Ÿ˜

Of course it’s also been thoroughly decorated, and I chose Bizcocho and Maplenut to hang on the edge. Everyone seems happy and comfy on the new sheet:

It looks especially lovely in the dark with all the pretty fairy lights on:

So, yeah… it took months to get this from IKEA but I am quite pleased!

National Squelfpoon’s Vacation: 6/27 – 7/4 ๐ŸŽข๐ŸŒˆ

Alrighty! Here’s the summary of the rest of the week. I’ve separated each day in sections while including everything in a single post. It doesn’t include the couple of days I already blogged about, so this is from Sunday 27th and onwards.

Looking at it all, photos, etc, it really should have been more enjoyable for me… It was a trip full of fun things after all… I wonder if I would have had a much better time were it not for my period, which came on the third morning. Then again, Christopher believes stress triggers my periods to come early, because they always seem to come when I’m anxious or stressed out. So it was this time. ๐Ÿ˜ž

(CW for fairly detailed period related talk below.)

I don’t know though. Last 3-4 months my period has been slightly abnormal. It’s regular, but comes on very suddenly –no physical warning other than bad mood, and it’s like BAM it’s there ๐Ÿ˜ณ without the usual mild few days of spotting. It also leaves very suddenly, whereas it used to be gradual.

This time felt so sudden that I got scared and thought something else entirely was happening to me, like, something serious. But no. ๐Ÿคทโ€โ™€๏ธ Well, who knows. ๐Ÿ˜… I really do have to go see my gynecologist this month so I can be properly examined and make sure everything is okay. ๐Ÿค”

BTW, PLEASE DO NOT TRY TO DIAGNOSE ME OR GIVE SUGGESTIONS ABOUT WHAT MAY OR MAY NOT BE GOING ON WITH MY BODY –not even in the form of shared personal experiences. It feels presumptuous and makes me super anxious. Just don’t, okay.

(Period talk ends here.)

๐ŸŽฅ Disney Hollywood Studios ๐ŸŽฅ

Sunday, June 27th

We were up early on Sunday. Got to have McDonald’s which was a nice start to the day. Now all of this was several days ago so I don’t really remember everything… ๐Ÿค” The ride to Orlando was okay. We went to Disney Hollywood Studios, which, you know ๐Ÿคทโ€โ™€๏ธ I don’t do rides, so… I wasn’t exactly excited.

Ultimately, this day wasn’t too bad, it was one of the better ones. I did a bit of shopping, went on more rides than I normally would, including Star Wars: Rise Of The Resistance in Galaxy’s Edge. That was EPIC. Also, terrifying. Mostly because I’m scared of Stormtroopers, and Christopher basically pushed me towards them, I can’t imagine another ride where it feels so much like you are literally inside a movie. I wish everyone who is into Star Wars could experience it, I want to go again.

If you don’t mind the ride being spoiled for you, here’s a sort of rundown of it (the GIF above is borrowed from that Buzzfeed article.)

My interest in Star Wars was always just kinda mildly there, but not fanatically so, however the stuff I experienced in Galaxy’s Edge has me wanting to rewatch all the movies.

Honestly… part of why I’ve always been “eh” about Star Wars is that The Phantom Menace is my favorite movie, because it was my intro to the franchise maybe, and when you’re talking to other fans that’s just kind of a non-starter? People either are disgusted at your taste or make fun of you, so… I gravitated towards Star Trek instead. ๐Ÿ˜… But maybe I’ll stop holding back.

Lunch was interesting. They had a “lobster” roll, with quotes on the menu, because it was vegetarian:

The “lobster” was a hearts of palm salad. I love hearts of palm, and I did love this meal.

Everyone else had burgers, chicken nuggets and hot dogs. Here is my mom-in-law and (Christopher’s) Grandma during lunch:

I took video of the entire lightsaber-building experience of my sis-in-law and another family member, Brayden, who is kind of Christopher’s nephew, I think? It was really cool:

Here’s the video, in two parts because I had to stop in the middle of recording to do I forget what:

Made a GIF of this part because it was โœจ SO COOL โœจ:

Truly the entirety of Galaxy’s Edge was awesome and I really wish I had not been in such a foul mood. I would like to go again when I’m not feeling like that. I got on Star Tours too, though that was technically outside of Galaxy’s Edge. I liked it.

Other than that, I did end up getting on a number of other attractions and rides. It’s ironic because when I look back it was not a bad time at all. I think it was the knowledge of the immensely packed schedule ahead, the fact that I was still-reeling from the heartbreak of the original canceled plans, and my impending period, that made actually enjoying it so difficult. But, I’m really glad for the things I enjoyed, particularly the Star Wars parts.

๐Ÿฆ Animal Kingdom ๐Ÿฆ

Monday, June 28th

The next day was Animal Kingdom. I brought my iPad on this day to draw a little more during the queues, and really did try to be in a happier mood. Still, I failed at times, but I think my mood was better on a chunk of this day than on any of the other days.

We went on a Kilimanjaro Safari first thing. Got great seats. I was excited to see baobab trees, but it turns out they are fake. I didn’t know that until we got home. Apparently they used to have a single real baobab tree several years ago, but it died during a cold winter.

I didn’t take photos of the animals but there certainly were many about, as it was early in the morning and they were feeding.

At some point in the afternoon, the biggest highlight of the entire week happened for me: I won a beautiful stuffed animal at a game of chance in Dinoland. This was a big deal for three reasons:

  • The stuffed animal I wanted was the biggest prize in any stall (well, one of two options, but it was the hardest to win.) It wasn’t even available on every stall, just two.
  • The game I tried my hand at was ridiculously hard, with a minuscule chance of winning this specific toy.
  • I never win at these games –ever. So I never try, because I end up crushed and frustrated every time.

I’ll go into more detail about this down below on a different segment since I don’t have photos of this stuffed animal from this specific day. My long-suffering family, already dealing with my shit mood, patiently sat in the baking heat for about an hour until I got my prize. I really don’t deserve them.

I did lots of window shopping while at Animal Kingdom. We went on two rides in Pandora: Na’vi River Journey and Avatar: Flight of Passage. Both were stunning, the latter certainly scared me a good bit but it was incredible. Here’s a POV video someone else took of this ride:

You have to realize this envelops you completely unless you look behind you really craning your neck (which I did a few times to stop myself from pissing my pants) so it REALLY feels like you’re flying. It’s hard to convince your brain that you’re not, and it’s really hard if you’re afraid of heights as I am. But I loved it anyways. The River Journey was also unbelievably gorgeous, with really impressive effects.

On the way out, I ran by the Rainforest Cafe gift shop and bought some baby dinosaurs. Then we went to dinner and finally back to the hotel.

๐Ÿ‘ Savannah, GA – Day One ๐Ÿ‘

Tuesday, June 29th

I don’t remember we did during the morning… I do recall that the afternoon train was more or less on time, and I got to sit with Christopher and had a window seat, so other than my period making me kind of miserable, it was an enjoyable ride. The photo below was taken early-ish during the ride, just past 2:00pm. It was a little over five hours to Savannah.

Truly, I don’t know what delayed us so much, because I know we went from the train station to the hotel, and even as we got there we were desperate to get some food and everything was closing. The photo below was taken at like, 10:30pm, and we’d gotten our food maybe 15 minutes before that at a “hole in the wall” burger place that was literally called “Hole In The Wall”. We were all exhausted.

Went I went back to get a milkshake by myself, the lovely owner of the Hole In The Wall high-fived me over my Pride wallet and wished me a happy Pride Month. Told me about her husband, who came out to her as bisexual, and a few other related things. I told her a little about me, too. I wished I could have talked with her longer. She was so nice, and it was a rare moment of validation for me.

Here are some photos I took of that area, while everyone else ate:

After we got back to the hotel, I settled down to keep reading the first volume of The Hagwood Trilogy with my new iguanodon friend, Femur:

I first saw this guy at the gift shop in the Dinosaur dark ride in Animal Kingdom, under a display case. To my utter dismay, he could not be purchased. I was directed to where I could win him in a game of chance. Normally, this is a non-starter for me. As I mentioned earlier, I just do not do well at these games, and I do not take it well when I lose. But I wanted him too badly, and against my better judgement, decided to try.

Now, to give you an idea of how hard he was to win, see this article and scroll down to the Comet Crashers game. As you will notice, only very few cups have colors. All the ones without colors are losers. Of the cups with colors, I only saw two that were yellow –meaning, the biggest prize, the one I wanted so badly. One at each end. To make it worse, the spots were the third from the front in both cases –near impossibly difficult to get into as they were so close to the edges. Just going by number of slots, according to a redditor who calculated it, it’s roughly a 9% chance of winning.

I used multiple tickets, buying $35.00 worth of them from the get-go, really sure that I would not win him, or that I would win some stupid Mickey or Minnie toy. I just felt I had to try. And win him I did –on my fourth attempt. I remember my utter disbelief. I could have cried! I held him close for the rest of that day, and hugged him every night of the remainder of our trip, even gave him one of my bandanas to wear.

Anyway, with a cuddle from Femur and my book, that was the end of the first night in Savannah –we didn’t do anything but dinner.

๐Ÿ‘ Savannah, GA – Day Two ๐Ÿ‘

Wednesday, June 30th

Ok, so… by this day I was so exhausted, I’d count the rest of the days and just, inwardly cry. Also, Savannah is pretty and all, but a 1 hour trolley tour and a 1 hour boat tour are NOT worth 10+ hours on a train and dealing with a hotel room for two nights, not to me, anyway. Especially not being able to be alone with my husband (or by myself) quietly, at all, at no point (though at the end of this day I really stopped giving a flip and excused myself to be alone, which cost me one of the nicer meals of the trip. I ended up getting UberEats.)

I really would have enjoyed it WAY more if I hadn’t just been to two Disney parks, two different hotel rooms and five + hours on a train AND if I had been able to, you know, walk around and enjoy it which we couldn’t do, unfortunately, because it is not easy for Grandma to get around. From the trolley tour we were told of so many wonderful places to visit, but we couldn’t visit any of them. That made me really sad.

Below are some photos of the trolley tour. The houses were very pretty, but these are the only photos I got, literally nothing special at all in them.

We almost didn’t make it in time for the boat ride, but we did get on.

This was one of the times I excused myself from the family for a long period. They wanted to be inside in the AC which to me felt like a total waste of being on that boat in the first place. I wanted to look at the river, so I spent the entire hour standing, and watching, even when it rained on me a little.

The sun was blistering, but if you stood at the right end of the boat you could feel the wind in your face, at it was refreshing.

It was after this that everyone went to dinner and I just couldn’t force myself to leave the hotel room again. I showered, got some Japanese food ordered to the room, and finished reading my book with Beanie.

This book would also be a highlight of my trip, it was incredible, my favorite of Robin Jarvis’ books so far.

๐Ÿš‚ Intermission ๐Ÿš‚

Thursday, July 1st

And now we come to my lowest point. By 5:30am we were at the train station. I’d run out of painkillers, and of coffee. I was just a bundle of pain and misery, with a bumpy and painful train ride and like, four more days of not being home to look forward to.

At least, I told myself, I’ll be sitting next to Christopher, the seats are fairly comfortable, I can just put my head on his shoulder and I will feel better. Every moment I had alone with Christopher would raise up my HP by a few points, so I was eagerly looking forward to our “alone” time on the train, even in as much physical pain as I was.

Well… we ended up in the cafe car, four to a table, which doesn’t even have full-back seats (so you can’t sleep) and this would have been temporary, but my mom-in-law wanted to play cards or something and asked if we could be left there for the full FIVE HOURS. At this point I just lost my shit so much that I hid my head for a while and cried, there was nowhere for me to go.

Eventually I asked to be moved; it meant not being with Christopher, but I physically could not take the ride otherwise. I was moved to sit with a stranger, on an aisle seat. I begged to be moved to a window seat and eventually was moved to this…

It was kind of hilarious at this point, but at least I could lay against the side and try to sleep my pain away. But I was so lonely and miserable without Christopher. I felt that I hated everything, the train, the entire trip, just everything, but more than anything, by far, myself –for not being happy, for not handling well being tired and in pain the way everyone else did, for crying, for just being the way I am. I really wish I could be someone else, someone pleasant and easygoing, someone not selfish or whiny.

Though I don’t think my family would believe this, I really do fight against these sides of me constantly, but they are so bad, that none of that effort is noticeable. When my unpleasantness shows, it’s because my effort is finally cracking. I feel so much guilt for being the way I am. It really was the worst moment of all.

I felt better when we reached the train station. We went to Olive Garden for dinner and it was lovely. I felt my spirits lifting a tad.

Maybe that was just being next to Christopher again. He truly is the one single person in this world who doesn’t drain my energy, but replenishes it. Literally the only one. Just by being there. My appreciation and love for him was increased by the experience of this trip.

Later we just relaxed in the room, watched TV, I had some sweets and worked on this illustration which I’d also been working on during the train ride:

It’s a two-page spread for Meganeea featuring young Gideon, as well as the new chapter banner, since things have entered a new stage story-wise, the banner of little Faahvrigรผo is a tad outdated.

That marked the end of the day.

๐Ÿฐ Disney Springs / Florida Mall ๐Ÿฐ

Friday, July 2st – Saturday, July 3rd

Friday it was just Grandma and me. While everyone else went to Universal, we went to Disney Springs (Downtown Disney). Our Uber was really something, I appreciated this guy’s passion:

I wanted to get a photo of the outside of the car but it was raining and I had to make sure Grandma stayed dry and didn’t slip.

At one point I saw this huge canvas print –while it is not my style, I know Christopher would have loved it. It’s a dream of his, to have a print like this, by this artist, of this character. It was $500, and if I had had the funds on hand I would not have hesitated. It broke my heart to not get it for him. But I got him a $10 magnet of the same image. ๐Ÿ˜…

I had to get a photo of Stitch. Always makes me think of Christopher and of Mwako.

The next day we went to Florida Mall, this time it was me, Grandma and my mom-in-law while everyone else went to Universal again. I mostly ran off on my own. The Florida Mall gives me funny feelings because it’s where I had my biggest “Shit! I’m kind of gay I guess!!” moment, and it was so intense that just walking by the spot where it happened I have to take a moment, and just stop. It was like a lightning bolt at the time. Very bittersweet even to this day.

We were supposed to go home the next day, but one of our petsitters left the back door open, plus I ran out of pads, plus I ran out of epilepsy meds, and between one thing and another, we drove home one day early. My joy knew no bounds! ๐Ÿ˜ญโœจ๐Ÿ’–

โœจ My Vacation Haul โœจ

I… did a lot of shopping… well… what can I say, it kept me sane. ๐Ÿคทโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿ’ง

I already showed off Femur, so I’ll proceed to the next thing I absolutely loved and which rekindled my desire to scrapbook. A beautiful book-bound journal from a delightfully cringy favorite of mine:

The cover looks a lot like the original featured in the movie:

Another favorite find was a Mandalorian pencil case with adorable stationary –this was my souvenir from Grandma, she insisted we all pick one:

Third favorite find was also Mandalorian related, another journal, smaller than the first but no less luxurious:

Those are my most favorite things (well, minus a MAJOR one, but it’s my birthday present, so I guess I won’t show it here yet, since I’m not allowed to touch it until then.) Here’s everything else:

(I think this is the first time I’ve found something with my name at a store!)

And that’s it. That’s my vacation. Made a few good memories, still would have rather stayed home. Divided into three or even two trips, everything we did would have been far more enjoyable and less utterly exhausting. I’m still in so much pain just from sheer exhaustion. Definitely would have been without my period and without the massive disappointment of the cancellation hanging over, but it is what it is… at least I am home and I’m so grateful for that.

Now, back to work!

All Done Packing! ๐Ÿงณ๐Ÿงธ๐ŸŒˆ

Good morning everyone! Packing to spend an entire WEEK away from home is not easy… especially because I want to bring eight outfits (and I mean “Little” outfits, so, a lot of bulky overalls, accessories, etc including THREE pairs of shoes and three face masks to be able to match properly), eight nightshirts (I really don’t want to deal with laundry), basic toiletries (including necessities in case I should get my period), Franklin and Beanie (I will carry Beanie most of the trip), a blanket and neck pillow (there is not just the flights but so… so much driving… hours and hours… I want to be comfortable), my Nintendo Switch, my iPad, a book to read, and some snacks.

I think that’s it…It took effort and very careful sorting of everything into little packing bags, but everything fit quite comfortably. Considering how I normally pack for even a weekend trip, the fact that I went all out just to see how close I could get to actually bringing everything I wanted, and the fact that I am bringing TWO bears (since Franklin absolutely HAS to come to Vermont Teddy Bear factory) I really did kind of, well, amazing. This is all I’m bringing:

Franklin is snug inside, waiting for his special day:

Franklin has a lot of bittersweet memories attached to him. But ultimately I cling to all the good ones. Franklin was a very special birthday present special-ordered for me on July 16, 2011. That means on Franklin’s next birthday he will be ten years old. That’s kinda nuts.

I always wanted to bring Franklin back to his birthplace, Vermont Teddy Bear Factory, where he was made. I wonder if anyone will remember him. Franklin was well known by VTB staff at one point, and once, when his head came off (yes, really!) he even went to the hospital, and they sent me a photo of him in a gourney attached to a honey IV drip:

Post-op:

Realistically though… I doubt anyone at VTB will remember Franklin. Laura is no longer there, and in general, things do not seem to be the same at that factory and I believe they haven’t been since their “Crazy For You” bear gaffe that caused people at the company to even resign. But I still am excited to check this off my bucket list.

Speaking of excitement, I’m starting to allow that to happen. Our vacations have been repeatedly canceled due to COVID, so, it’s hard to get excited anymore, but slowly it’s happening in spite of myself. ๐Ÿ˜…

I’m insanely busy every day, working on commissions, doing last-minute adjustments to my packing, making sure the animals are ready… it goes on and on. Yesterday I went quickly on an outing to get snacks, the tiniest umbrella I could find, and a luggage tag. I ended up snagging a few other goodies I ran into:

This one was especially neat, for sure:

Also, those bandanas are incredible. I gave one to Bizcocho and the other one to Franklin. ๐Ÿ˜Š

Ok, I have to do some chores, get something to eat, get art done. Off I go!

Unicorn Chaser ๐Ÿฆ„ ๐Ÿ’จ

Letโ€™s like… just… talk about other stuff for a while, yeah? I can only take this other stuff for so long. So let me share a few happy things.

The other day I went to the craft store and got some ribbon and beads and fabric and similar things. I’ve been determined to make some of my newer (and older, neglected) stuffies their own bandanas and name necklaces.

Here is Raisin, holding the haul and eagerly awaiting his own goodies to be made:

The fabric bundle was really cute:

One of the older stuffies who got pimped out is Frito. Frito has survived several purges and sat in my “donation” pile three times. I can never bear to let him go. After he survived the third purge, I decided it was time to make him a name necklace and dress him up:

Frito is actually a very funny and expressive Folkmanis puppet.

Churrasco also got a name necklace, finally:

And my new stuffed little t-rex, now named Gao, got a name necklace and a bandana that I made for him myself:

Beanie got kind of revamped. He gave up his massive rainbow bow for an oversized sweater, cute bandana and new ribbon:

Along with veteran Franklin, Beanie will be coming along with me on the upcoming New England trip.

It is indeed very rare for me to travel with two bears (a first) as well as Franklin’s first trip in many years. Franklin is basically retired these days. However, we will be going to the Vermont Teddy Bear Factory where Franklin was born –I cannot visit that place with anyone but Franklin.

And then of course there is Raisin. He’s very happy with his new getup:

Everyone will be getting hats soon. I got them from AliExpress so that will take a few weeks to arrive.

I have other stuffies who have gotten a bandana here or a ribbon there but these are the most significant changes.

I also made a little cover for my laminator which always gets dusty:

And that’s it. Just some happy stuff to chase away some of these clouds. I’m gonna get some chores done and then work on another commission.

Naturalization Day ๐Ÿ‡บ๐Ÿ‡ธโœจ

Hello everyone! ๐Ÿ‘‹ My weekend is wrapping up so itโ€™s finally time to write a proper post telling all that happened since Friday morning. It was a fateful and eventful day, with big highs and big lows but overall fantastic really, when all is said and done. Letโ€™s do this!

โค๏ธ๐Ÿค๐Ÿ’™ Naturalization Ceremony โค๏ธ๐Ÿค๐Ÿ’™

We left the house at 6:30am. The ceremony was at 8:15am, so we went to Dunkinโ€™ Donuts to get breakfast first, since Dunkinโ€™ was the first thing my mom and I ate when we landed on the US almost 20 years ago at 4:00am. ๐Ÿฉ So on such a special occasion, of course we had to start with that. We met my mom at USCIS in Hialeah.

The ceremony, I have to say, was really lackluster. ๐Ÿ˜ž I did expect that to a degree, with COVID and all, but the masks, the social distancing, the Judge having to be there over Zoom, none of that was the issue. Even not being able to have guests there was much of an issue to me.

More than anything, it felt like this particular USCIS location didn’t give the event the gravitas it deserved. The thing that sucked most was that the USCIS employees werenโ€™t ready, so as the Judge was talking to us, and saying all of these important things, they were talking over her. ๐Ÿ˜  Wtf?! They were trying to get everyoneโ€™s paperwork and such and we just couldnโ€™t hear the Judge. All stuff that should have been done before we entered that room.

Another thing was that, for all they tell you to dress to mark the dignity of the occasion, there were people with tank tops, torn jeans, visible panties (?!) which did also kinda spoil the mood for me a tad. ๐Ÿ˜’

But even that wasnโ€™t the worst. At one point the Judge asked that we all take out our paper with the Oath of Allegiance. No one had it because they failed to give it to us! So we all repeated after the Judge as best as we could but that was so upsetting, some of the words were hard to understand. This was also the Oath with which you renounce allegiance to your country of birth. It’s a big deal and was supposed to be so solemn. And EVEN AT THIS TIME, some employees are still talking over the Judge and walking around! Give me a break.

Another bummer was that the video of Biden welcoming us didnโ€™t play. I was looking forward to that so much. And then the Judge asked us to take out the little flags we had been given but we had been given NO FLAGS! I was so upset by this too. We did get our flags by the end, with the Naturalization Certificate, after the ceremony was over. But not on that special moment. Worse yet, we could see on the livestream that people at other locations got them properly and in time.

As we left we did get some photos outside with me holding my little flag, though, so that was nice:

Here is my Naturalization package… ๐Ÿ˜ the flag, certificate (I edited out all sensitive info) and my voter registration and passport papers to fill out! It’s official!

Later, during the party, I got a frame from our friend Fern to put my certificate. I’ll frame it and put it on the wall this week. I got a stand for my little flag too. Displaying everything properly this week.

We were supposed to go to lunch with my mom a couple hours after, so we went to our house to relax a while until it was time. I was so excited about this lunch! But alas, it was not to be, because…

โ›ˆ๏ธ Elliot’s Emergency Vet Visit โ›ˆ๏ธ

Elliot got very sick, very suddenly. He must have been developing an UTI for a few days. But he was fine, eating and drinking well, playing and running like crazy. Suddenly, he began crying, dragging his front on the rug, panting heavily and desperately, trying to pee everywhere, without success. So right before we were about to leave for lunch, my mom had to go home and we ran to the vet as an emergency.

It was clear that Elliot was suffering terribly all the way. Between that, the lackluster ceremony, and the canceled long-awaited celebratory lunch, my spirits were so low. It felt like my day might be ruined. How can I be happy when my kitty is suffering.

Elliot had to have multiple medications to treat his infection, and manage his pain. We went home with a $330 bill… I didn’t even dare ask that we still have a meal out. We went home and I did my best to cheer up as I continued getting the house ready for the party, but at this point I wasn’t in the mood for partying anymore. ๐Ÿ˜”

๐Ÿฑ Patriotic Kitties ๐Ÿฑ

As I cheered up and decorated I began to fool around. I may have gotten Kotoko and Rosemary involved:

No Elliot, because he was sick, and no Tomoyo, because I didn’t feel like being hospitalized.

๐Ÿฅณ The Party ๐Ÿฅณ

I was barely ready when guests began to arrive. ๐Ÿ˜ฒ The first was my new friend Shelly and her boyfriend Ben. Shelly is a fellow Little whom I met online almost two years ago. We were supposed to attend Little Scouts together but that fell through because of… stuff happening in both our lives, and soon after I became so jaded on having Little friends and doing Little things, that I didn’t pursue further and you know, time just passed, and then COVID hit.

So, a month or so ago (I may have told this story in passing on my blog actually) a pest control truck was parked across the street from my house. I’d been looking for someone to do pest control inside our house and I saw a girl near the truck; I thought, great! I want to support a woman-led pest control business. I never see that. So I ran outside in my rainbow socks like a crazy person.

I approach the truck and ask, and this girl, who’s now in the truck with a gentleman, looks at me really intensely while explaining that they only do outdoor pest control. I go back inside and get a text from Shelly, the girl I didn’t get to meet long ago, and she’s all like, did you just ask me about pest control?? Of all the crazy coincidences, right?

Anyway, thankfully Shelly is better at remembering people from photos than I am. We began texting again but I couldn’t manage to make some spare time to meet, so I invited them to this party, and thankfully they both came and hopefully weren’t too put off by my obnoxiousness. ๐Ÿ˜… They were both so nice.

A lot of people began to arrive soon after them. Some couldn’t make it, but people who I wasn’t expecting to see made it, and we had a great turnout. Christopher made great burgers as usual and a lot of the snacks I got were eaten.

Before I veer off from the topic above, it seems a Little-geared event may soon happen among a bunch of us, all girls, and more Middles than Littles really… I feel excited in that small, happy way about Littlespace for the first time in the longest time ever, so it’s a big plus to this party.

I wrote a lot, so I’m going to interject with some pictures here:

Something that I was NOT expecting was presents. Danny and Amanda gave me a card and fifty bucks that I had a lot of fun spending at Barnes & Noble the next day (more on that later.) My mom in law came dressed in patriotic colors and gave me a flag cookie, a $50 Amazon gift card, a beautiful bracelet with USA flag colors, and at some point I lose track of what was from her and what was from Grandma… I got a pole and a USA flag for the house, and I do mean a real proper full size all-weather flag, and I believe one was from my mom in law and the other from Grandma. There was also napkins and a tablecloth and a garden flag, and a dish towel, all USA themed, it was really all too much… I was floored.

Grandma also sent this pair of flags. I have a similar one already on the porch, so I will rotate them as they wear out:

There was a lovely note from Grandma too. My friend Jen got me some fancy liqueur and my very dear friend Kris and his lovely girlfriend Sivan got me a tic-tac-toe set. You may not think this sounds very special, and I was a bit puzzled, until I opened the actual pieces and screamed. Here it is in the library!

It’s handmade in Puerto Rico. Needless to say, they know me well…

We drank a fair bit. Christopher is such a delightful drunk.

I just get more obnoxious. For my drink, I asked Leo to pop the cork in my champagne, and he somehow broke the mouth of the bottle and cut his finger, so I gave him a Cinderella printed band-aid and filtered my champagne through a Keurig reusable pod. There were no crunchies. ๐Ÿ˜

Here’s more drunk Christopher. This was near the end of the night. You can hear my mom in law telling him to just be quiet. Lol.

Christopher rarely drinks and for this reason I LOVE it when he does. He’s the best kind of drunk, just fun and happy. We had to carry him up the stairs though.

My mom in law took several photos, but most of this night’s photos were taken by my friend Andrea, who, by the way, came looking SUPER patriotic. She’s very good at just constantly taking random candid photos for which I am always grateful.

Here’s a selfie round-up:

Speaking of Andrea being great at capturing moments, some DDR actually happened since Christopher fixed the machine. Here he is playing with dad-to-be Leo:

Here’s both Christopher and I, happy and drunk. A wonderful night almost over.

I took this photo right before getting in bed. Getting Christopher to bed was a whole ordeal. Bert was a big help. Christopher was so happy and loopy, poorly coordinated and consequently difficult lol. As soon as he passed out after brushing his teeth, Kotoko protectively lay on him.

And that was the end of this wonderful night. One more thing I want to mention is that I got to hang out with my old friends for a long time, I mean my pre-Christopher friends, for the first time in years. Properly, I mean.

You see… a few years ago, I felt so fulfilled by Christopher and by the couple of friends that we were deeply close with at that time, that I unconsciously (or perhaps somewhat consciously) stepped away from my old friend group, I can even say I pushed my friends aside. The friendship we had with that couple truly and utterly filled my heart and the free time in my weekends. When it wasn’t that, I was so absorbed with my furry friends and my Little side/lifestyle that I felt it didn’t merge well with my old friend group. I didn’t lose touch completely, but I did by a big amount.

Now, other than seeing one of our old friends sometimes (since I had a terrible and very painful falling out with the other) that “couple” friendship is gone and it left a huge gaping hole. There’s no more hanging out every weekend, no more meeting up to cook a meal at our place or going to an art walk or a thrift sale. It took a long time to get used to that. But I didn’t feel like just trying to rekindle old friendships either. I was left quite jaded and afraid by that experience and a similar one that followed. No longer in pain, but tired by it, just jaded.

Now a lot of time has passed since the last truly painful, traumatizing stuff. Two plus years. Other bad stuff happened but it’s more easily brushed off. And I saw my old OLD friends again. Almost all of them came. They didn’t have to, you know. None of them forgot me. They all came to celebrate me and treated me as if I’d been part of the group in the same way the last five years (which I have not been.)

I felt more comfortable and more like myself among them than I ever did before. Like the old me and the new me came together and I’m comfortable again. And now I better see how precious friendships are. I was so careless with them.

Our MAD anime group had its share of drama but most of us have always gotten along and sorted out conflicts. I knew that before but didn’t realize its value. My friends are all very different but they are good people and I’m really lucky to be back among them after I kind of discarded them temporarily. Maybe I thought I didn’t need them but that is not true. No friendship should ever be taken for granted. We get less in a lifetime than we think, and I was and am lucky to have them.

We have the next MAD meetup planned, at our place! I haven’t hosted one in years, so I’m really excited. It’s on June 12th.

Sorry to get so verbose… let’s move on to Saturday!

๐ŸŒˆ Saturday ๐ŸŒˆ

Since I didn’t get a nice meal with my mom, my mom in law treated me to the same place I wanted to go to for Saturday’s lunch (The Tavern). I brought Beanie along for this one:

I had crab cakes, teriyaki brussel sprouts and cole slaw. I wanted to have crรจme brรปlรฉe for dessert but in the end I was just too full.

After this we went to the book store. I saw this cute book but I didn’t buy it, I got a picture though:

It KILLED me that we ran into Thomas stuff, and they had Harold, Edward AND Cranky!! I didn’t dare ask Christopher for any of it… ๐Ÿ˜– He’s been spending way too much because of me. But seeing this stuff in person and not getting it was kinda killer, haha… at least I got a photo:

It was Cranky I wanted most of all. ๐Ÿ˜ญ But now, for what I DID buy. I got this Sesame Street tote:

It’s big and very thick and fits my iPad:

I also got a couple of dinosaur books and a li’l t-rex friend:

These books may be for little kids, but I want them for character design tips and ideas. The illustrations are amazing, and the quick facts are super useful:

Later we went to Brandsmart. We didn’t buy anything, it was just to look. Brandsmart always feels larger than life to me:

After that we went to PhแปŸ 79 for dinner, and then home. Before bedtime we played Rummikub and Mille Bornes. I had patriotic cakes with my new dino friend:

I went to bed very tired and happy. It was a wonderful day.

๐ŸŽ€ Sunday ๐ŸŽ€

Sunday was a quieter affair. I got up, had my coffee and got ready to head out on my walk. I wanted to check the Pride section at Target. Speaking of, my pansexual pride bandana did come in, at least, which you can see in the photo above.

It was a rainy day, everything gray and dull and wet. My outfit really stood out (and I’m not even holding my dinosaur umbrella here):

Before I went out though, my mom in law helped us install our brand new flag!

โค๏ธ๐Ÿค๐Ÿ’™ Installing The Flag โค๏ธ๐Ÿค๐Ÿ’™

Honestly, they did all the hard work. But I made sure the flag didn’t touch the ground.

Placing the pole!

We had to get at least one photo of me next to it:

Here’s the way the flag looks from the door, and from the street:

Here it is waving in all its glory! A waving flag makes a beautiful sound. I never paid attention to it until now.

At dusk we brought the flag in. We won’t actually take it out again until Thursday, as that is when we will be installing a light so it’s not in the dark at night.

I think that’s everything. A very busy week looms ahead, with cleaning-up to do, overdue warm-ups, immigration paperwork for my mom, answering lots and LOTS of congratulatory messages, and scheduling doctor appointments.

I’m going to take care of my snails now, and then head to bed. Thank you so much to everyone who read this!

Motherโ€™s Day Weekend In Sebastian ๐ŸŒˆ ๐Ÿงธ

Hello everyone! I hope this post finds you well. First of all I want to apologize for the inactivity –I am finally home again, and I am feeling better. Just very tired.

Though commissions are still a tad delayed, I was able to finish the warm-ups, and will be posting them shortly. I also got progress underway on three more pieces. I really appreciate everyoneโ€™s patience.

We had a nice time with family. My mom in law has a new fish. It is called a Plecostomus or simply Pleco. Itโ€™s the type of fish that suctions onto the glass with its mouth a lot of the time. Heโ€™s really cute and I love him. Heโ€™s big, too. I got a couple of photos of him just lounging.

One of the kids at my mom in lawโ€™s school made these play-doh snails when she told him I liked snails. Didnโ€™t he do an amazing job? I love them!

I brought my new bear, Beanie, on this trip, and cuddled him to sleep…

In the morning, Beanie and I had breakfast together.

My mom in lawโ€™s fluffy cat Spaz came to me for cuddles. Heโ€™s such a softie!

After breakfast we left for Renningers Flea and Farmers Market. Beanie looked out the window all the way.

At Renningers I bought some books, a handbag, a huge snail magnet and a couple of mousepads –one for me and one for my sis in law. Here’s my haul:

Afterwards we had dinner at Makoto’s and then played cards in the evening. I tried to sneak in drawing whenever I could, so I didn’t play cards all the time, but it was nice spending time with family even when I was working.

Grandma didn’t spend much time with us while we were playing. She fell asleep on the couch. I think she fell asleep praying… it was really cute.

Before bed we played a few rounds of Trivia Murder Party and I won once.

Now I’m going to post some art, finish unpacking and then get more art done. I hope you enjoyed your Mother’s day weekend!

Happy Wednesday To All! ๐Ÿฆ‹ ๐Ÿง‰

Hello everyone, happy Wednesday! Iโ€™m still enjoying spending time with my mom. Iโ€™m not feeling so great physically though, enough that I have a doctorโ€™s appointment tomorrow. So commissions that are just hitting their due date might see a small delay. Please bear with me. ๐Ÿ™‡โ€โ™€๏ธ

Iโ€™ve actually been under the weather since the weekend (again, physical symptoms) which led to canceling plans with a friend too. But Iโ€™ve continued working and have just been doing my best not to fall behind too much.

This morning we had breakfast and watched a few YouTube videos together. I introduced Beanie to mate:

Sweeney cuddled up to me during this time. I didnโ€™t really bother or touch him and he stayed quite a while:

I played Giraffe and Anikka for a little while and drew a lot. My mom made a weird but good salad in the afternoon. It had cheese, olives, rice, tuna. It was bizarre but delicious.

Now Iโ€™m just relaxing and working on more commissions before itโ€™s time to head home. Iโ€™ll post the daily warm-up in the evening, so look forward to that.

Evening With Mom! ๐Ÿ’œ

Hi hi, everyone! If youโ€™re coming here from Twitter, Iโ€™ll see your comments tomorrow. Iโ€™m at my momโ€™s now so I can cross post stuff but not respond to Twitter comments.

So! A new friend arrived today! Mignon was ready to help him out of the box:

His name is Beanie!! On account of his very cute beans! ๐Ÿพ

I love him, he has long dangling arms, almost a little monkey-like. Heโ€™s a sweet little bear.

Since his outfit obscures him a little, here you can see him before I dressed him up:

Iโ€™m having a great time with my mom. We snacked and drank wine, she made milanesas and we had them while watching The Handmaidโ€™s Tale.

The cats have been super affectionate, especially Sweeney. They seem to have missed me. I managed to snag a really cute photo of Shampoo:

Now Iโ€™m very sleepy, and in bed with Beanie…

Tomorrow should be a pretty chill day. Drawing, watching TV together and relaxing together. Iโ€™m looking forward to that. ๐Ÿฅฐ

Hope everyone has a wonderful evening!