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Summary Of The Last Few Days ๐ŸŒˆ๐ŸŒ๐Ÿž

Hello, everyone! I hope you’re having a happy Thursday morning. I decided to let a few days accumulate into a single post, since, well, I haven’t had much interesting stuff to share recently.

Christopher and I have been spending more time together in the evenings, and it has been lovely. Elliot keeps us company. He always comes to the couch when Christopher gets home. Unlike our other cats, Elliot tends to spend his entire day out on the porch and doesn’t visit me much, but he always comes in when Christopher gets home. I think he misses him.

We began our evening by playing Mario Party Superstars:

Christopher won, of course…

After video games, we watched Lamb. It was really freaking weird. The weirdness is not a problem, it’s great, but I felt like it built up a lot for no real payoff. It just wasn’t very scary either.

On Tuesday, my copy of Cupid Parasite arrived! Still a while until I get to this one. I’ll be playing my next otome the weekend after this one –the final fandisc of Code: Realize.

We will be taking a trip to a place that will be all decked out for Christmas, so it’s a perfect time to finally play Wintertide Miracles, especially with such a long car ride.

This is completely random, but I’ve been fooling around with wigs, and liked how this photo came out. ๐Ÿ˜

In the evening we watched the latest Paranormal Activity movie. It was okay. I had a little snack:

Yesterday I went on my walk, and to shop for groceries. I caught a couple of shots of this pretty butterfly on the way:

There were also several ducks foraging for food, and I got a photo and some video:

When Christopher got home, I had the smell of coffee and banana nut bread in the air. ๐Ÿ˜Š It was my first time making it and it turned out decently good:

Here is Cerise ready to try some:

Afterwards I made panko-crusted tilapia for dinner. It was pretty good.

Anyway as you can see I don’t have much interesting stuff to tell even when putting a bunch of days together. Right now, I am busy working on Christmas art for family. After that, I will resume commissions. I am also really, REALLY pumped for our upcoming trip. I pretty much cannot think about anything else…

Today I have to do my chores early, so I’ll wrap this up here. Enjoy your day, everyone!

Happy Saturday, Guys! ๐ŸŒž๐Ÿฆ‹

Good morning, everyone! ๐ŸŒž Iโ€™m writing this from the โœจ nice and clean โœจ back porch. ๐Ÿ˜Š I’m so glad I pushed through and did that! Now Iโ€™m waiting for Christopher to wake up so we can go garage saling today. Our good friend is too busy with work to join us, which has us both a little bummed, but we will have a good time all the same.

Itโ€™s a little cooler today. In an hour or two it will be hot as ever, but right now Iโ€™m outside and wearing a jacket, which really feels kind of amazing. October is halfway overโ€ฆ cooler weather is just around the corner for us, and really, it canโ€™t come soon enough. I love being out here with the cats.

Plus, I can’t wait to take walks at other times of the day other than sunrise and sunset, you know, when the sun is actually out, without melting.

That aside, since I started tracking my periods again, now I know that Iโ€™m PMSing, which does explain my crappy mood the last day or so. Itโ€™s really helpful to realize that itโ€™s going on, so I can see some things more objectively.

Art wise, Iโ€™m feeling very encouraged. I was sure there was no way that this month I could put the full $1,000 towards my momโ€™s fund, AND the $500 towards our house debt, becauseโ€ฆ well, this month I paid off my Amazon card, and it was at over $500 (in the last few months I had a bunch of not super smart purchases… games, clothes, and a lot in Christmas presents for this year –most of it before things went to heck for us).

BUT. I gave Christopher the $500 for the monthly debt, I paid off the $500+ of the Amazon card, AND I have $395 set aside for my mom’s move-in fund. If I make it to $500, I won’t feel like I failed (because the Amazon card is not a regular expense). But if I make it to $1,000… the full monthly amount… I’ll feel very triumphant indeed.

Anyway, Christopher’s awake so it’s time to finish getting ready. I’ll post again later today!

Two Steps Back –And Forward Again! ๐Ÿ™Œ

Yesterday was a hard day. It kinda started Tuesday night when we went to bed and noticed Kotoko hadn’t joined us as is her usual routine. She was hiding in an unusual little nook under my studio bed and looked quite unhappy.

This was coupled with her vomiting even on an empty stomach (white foam) over the last few days, something that intensified in the previous 24 hours, with her appetite quite reduced. Since she had some loose stool as well during this period, and because she is old, it all became very concerning. Her hiding like that from us was the most unusual part.

We hoped so much to avoid a vet appointment, because it was at a minimum a $300 expense that we could ill afford. But yesterday morning, it became clear that we had to go, as she continued to hide from us and throw up. I took this picture right as we were leaving for the vet. She behaved very well.

On the one hand, thanks to the appointment I confirmed her ears are okay, her spotty eye is fine, the lump on her back leg is fatty tissue, and her teeth are also okay. She was given medication to control the vomiting, which has helped (she didn’t vomit anymore since yesterday morning) and a bunch of blood work, the results of which we should have today.

But on the other hand, I was SO discouraged. It was so hard to raise this month’s $500 for this month’s debt to take some stress off Christopher’s plate. I was so proud –even though I still have to raise more before November. But after the vet bill, we were set back around $300 (there was an additional $25 for other items for her):

To have such an amount removed from all of my efforts this month nearly made me cry with frustration. I’m drawing all the time, trying my best to make things okay, but I can’t catch up like this. We received a significant amount of help yesterday but it had us over $200 in the hole still. So even this morning, I was really sad about that.

It was when I came back from my walk that I had Christopher check and realized just how much we received in donations (since I had them sent directly to his PayPal) and my mind was blown!!

The entire vet bill and additional meds were covered thanks to your generous donations! ๐Ÿ˜ญ The $500 I made to put towards our house debt are once again, untouched. And, most importantly, Kotoko is feeling better. This photo is from the way back from the vet (I know, the photos are very similar) but even then, because of the fluids and anti-nausea meds, she was feeling better:

It took a while for the fluids to go into her (something for which they took her to the back) so I fooled around with the Jurassic World Alive app on my phone while we waited…

Anyway, I just want to reiterate how grateful I am, all I wanted was to not have this be such a painful hit for our finances, discouraging as it was, and in the end we received so much help that we didn’t have to lose the money saved for the debt. I am so grateful to everyone who donated!

To continue in regards to yesterday. When we got back home, though I was trying to stay cheerful for Christopher (who I could tell was doing the same) I felt really low. Christopher did his best to cheer me up, he treated me to Chipotle and Starbucks on the same day. But it took a while until I felt okay again.

At least though, I managed to push through my hated task of cleaning the porch. And boy, did I hate it. But it is done, and by the time night fell, I finally let the cats outside again, to their utter delight. They’re still there now, enjoying themselves:

I also planted more grass for them to eat while they are on the porch, something I know they miss a lot.

The place looks a good bit emptier with all that I’ve thrown away, but that’s fine. It looks clean. And since this was something that was angering and depressing me so much, I expect my mood to continue to improve today and over the weekend, every time I see it. ๐Ÿ˜Š I’m also gonna clean up the house a little bit, since I am considering having a party the weekend after this one. ๐Ÿค”

During one of my cleaning breaks yesterday, while having my coffee, I read some of this book I got at the Swap Shop…

It’s very simple, but quite adorable. I like it because the stories are not about bears in general but about teddy bears specifically (as in, toys).

And that brings me to now! I’m having breakfast with Picaรฑa as I work on this post.

Anyway, today I really need to catch up on artwork, as much as I can. Things are not delayed per the queue, but they are per my monetary personal goals. ๐Ÿ˜ฅ This week just kinda went to heck, though thanks to everyone’s support it is turning around again! ๐ŸŽ‰

Late Week Odds & Ends ๐Ÿฑ๐ŸŒ๐ŸฆŽ

Good morning, everyone! I’m back from my mom’s once again and her immigration process continues to proceed smoothly. Now she has her ID so, that was a significant and happy moment.

I had a special dinner with a good friend last night and got to see the beach at night. It really was almost pitch black other than the far-off city lights, and if I had been alone I know I would have been quite scared, by the darkness and by the random people in there that you could hear but barely make out the shapes of in the corners. But feeling safe, it was really wonderful to experience that strange atmosphere for just a few minutes. I wish it had lasted longer.

Now I’m trying to get myself back in gear, do all my overdue chores today, get back to exercising (I skipped my morning walk so I’m hopefully gonna do a 10k walk this evening) and finish the background for the pumpkin carving YCH. I’m looking forward to Friday, and to an outing next Tuesday with Mandie and Shelly.

I’ve collected a number of random photos that fit nowhere, so here they are. First it’s Elliot, having taken residence upon my unmade bed:

Tomoyo decided the freshly laundered rugs made a better place to “fit”:

Here is a large iguana I saw on one of my walks:

And finally, snail stuff. Last Tuesday when I cleaned the snail tanks I decorated the glass of the bigger tank with Halloween window clings from Dollar Tree. I think it looks pretty cute!

And that’s it! Time to get things done. Hope you’re all enjoying your week!

Date Night At The Village Tavern! ๐Ÿ’˜

Hi everyone! Today was a wonderful day. Just getting a lot done, we had a wonderful date night, and in general, little things here and there are just… making me very happy.

To begin with, here’s a morning photo of Tomoyo and Elliot creepily staring me down. They held their pose and stare for several minutes, it was rather unnerving:

Then I have a daily owl from today’s walk:

I published a new chapter of Meganeea today, with three illustrations. You can read it here if you would like. ๐Ÿ˜Š

In the afternoon I played Legend Of Mana for a little while. A while after that I had a big burst of energy/emotions for… reasons, that I desperately needed to walk off ๐Ÿ™ˆ so I took my second walk in spite of this insanity:

When I got back, Christopher was home. I was able to coax him into having a date night dinner out. So I put a new outfit together (parts of it are new) and I brought Vanilla Bean with me. We went to the Village Tavern.

I took this photo of Vanilla Bean in the car but she ended up looking kind of wonky. This also distracted me into not putting my seatbelt on until a few streets later. I’m not sure why, I’ve been forgetting that once in a while. I’m paranoid about wearing a seatbelt, so it’s weird.

Our wait wasn’t very long. I took this selfie of us while our table was being readied. I hope we can take photos like these without masks soon…

I felt like celebrating tonight, so I got a chocolate martini. Vanilla Bean had a sip too:

Rather horrifyingly for a $120+ teddy, she got some chocolate on her paw in the process. Thankfully it was easily wiped off! Well… ultimately I want to enjoy my stuffies, and take them on adventures, so the odd stain or such is not the end of the world if it happens. It’s just life.

I should say, this drink always does a number on me. I’d have to drink four glasses of wine to get as plastered as this one drink gets me, I don’t know why. Christopher says there’s vodka in it, which I never drink, so I guess that would explain a lot.

Needless to say I was absolutely obnoxious the entire evening, and yet in my drunken state managed to beat him at two rounds of Tetris. By the end of our game time, however, the pieces seemed to be going all in the opposite directions I wanted them to go. The connection between my hands and my brain was quite fuzzy. But I didn’t care, it was so much fun.

Tomorrow should be fun too. Goodnight, everyone! ๐Ÿ˜Š

Best House+Petsitters Ever ๐Ÿฑ๐ŸŒ๐Ÿ 

Because we were gone for such a long time, we had three different friends care for our pets and house –one came two different days, another was supposed to come just once but came twice a whole bunch of time because our AC had issues that were super annoying to fix, and a third stayed almost an entire week for work-related reasons and in the meantime took excellent care of our pets too.

This last friend, Bert, was also nice enough to send me photos and video. This was a big deal to me because I missed the cats so, so very much. He even sent me video of the snails, but I didn’t include that in this post because it’s just the tank. I wanted to make a post for the rest though.

Here’s three of the kitties (Rosemary, Elliot and Kotoko):

And now for videos… first, Elliot:

Then my beloved Rosie…

And Kotoko…

Finally, sweet little Satan Tomoyo:

It’s so wonderful to be back home with them. I missed them more than I can put into words!

Happy Wednesday, Friends! ๐ŸŒˆ๐Ÿฏ

Good morning everyone! It’s a beautiful day… I’ve been up since 6:30am and ready to head out on my walk once Christopher leaves for work. I hope to make today a really good, productive day. โœŠ Before I move on to other things, here’s today’s outfit!

Last night I dreamed that the Tail Of The Moon manga got a sequel, but it was not translated. ๐Ÿ˜ซ It was one of those dreams that stay with you! Now I kinda want to Google to see if there was one, but I also don’t. Because if it wasn’t translated, that would make me sad. Haha.

I also had some dreams about the rats, but I don’t remember what, exactly. ๐Ÿค”

I woke up to find out the Roomba (well, Roborock) tried to eat the cat’s wet food. It didn’t go too well, there is cat food on the walls. ๐Ÿ˜… Thankfully though, it got stuck on the plate so the mess is constrained to that area.

Yesterday was a pretty busy day. I worked on a complex background commission, exercised, did some redecorating, worked on my book (as in, actual writing) and did some reading (still making my way through the first volume of The Rose Of Versailles). I did lots of housework too.

Kotoko was pretty clingy… she didnโ€™t really want to be on the desk, but rather, on me. She really wanted attention. In these photos, she was doing a little dance trying to get me to sit down so she could get back on my lap:

Elliot was clingy too, which given his recent infection concerned me. But he played with me a lot, and was very distracted by the window:

Right now he is on special urinary care food. We also began using aluminum bowls for their water and filtering the tap water in whatever way we could. But Christopher said we will discuss a reverse osmosis filter system as they have really gone down in price. We still don’t know what is causing these UTIs in three out of four cats, and neither does the vet, so we’re doing all we can to fix the problem. Aside from being expensive, it’s an awful experience for the cats when it happens.

๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ’›๐Ÿ’™ Ready For Pride Month ๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ’›๐Ÿ’™

My Target package arrived yesterday! They sent the wrong candles though (not pictured.) I got plain Pride candles rather than Pansexual Pride candles. However, they sent those after I placed a ticket, and allowed me to keep the normal Pride candles, so that’s alright. I’m gonna have a lot of candles though.

The things you can see above are a large, full-size Pansexual flag, which came with five little flags. I displayed one on my desk (since I got a mini flag stand too) and I’ll give my sis-in-law one of the others. I’ll put the rest away for now.

Then there’s the shirt and socks. They fit great and I am wearing them today, as you saw in the OOTD photo at the beginning of the post. I really like the shirt a lot:

I also got a rainbow pencil cup and tape dispenser, and a little plastic plant in a Pride container.

I’m still over the moon that they made Pan-specific stuff. Really makes you feel seen. ๐Ÿ˜Š

I wondered what to do with my new flag. In the end, I decided to use it as a curtain. It can be hung completely to block out the sun while still letting in light, but mostly, I keep it like this:

Incidentally, that is my new writing setup. It’s the most comfortable writing setup I’ve had in that room, specifically as far as ergonomics go, except that now that I use a real keyboard for everyday use, any other keyboard feels like absolute garbage, even the Apple Magic keyboard that I loved to bits for several years. So, I need a new “real” keyboard, though it doesn’t have to be pretty like the other one. I probably will still want it to light up though, just in a single, solid plain color. I’ll try to get one later this year.

I still have a lot of accumulated stuff to take care of before our New Hampshire trip. From gift art to commissions and planning events to discussing more immigration stuff with my mom. We have a Zoom call today at 11am or so to discuss more of that.

I’d told my mom about how excited I was about the Target Pride stuff, because recently she seemed to warm up to the topic, but once again like at the start, she seemed to get uncomfortable at the mere mention. I was so saddened by that. I know she still feels weird about it, even two years in.

Sometimes she seems really supportive of it and sometimes she seems to feel deeply uncomfortable by it. The latter always catches me off guard and hurts a bit, because I’m so used to discussing this topic with my husband. who is always so supportive of me in literally every way. I know she didn’t like it when I first came out to her, which hurt too, and was so odd because she was the one who raised me to be an open minded and accepting person. I think if I’d realized it as a teenager she would have been more supportive actually. I think what she finds odd is that I came to this realization so late in life.

Maybe she’ll come around completely eventually. It feels like an important part of me, to me. More rather than less, as time goes by. So I try to find little ways to validate it for myself because a part of me still feels like some sort of impostor, and it makes me worry that she feels that way about it too. I wonder if she will say anything about my shirt today.

Anyway! Lots and lots to do… the snails need their morning spraying. I hope everyone has a very lovely day!

Naturalization Day ๐Ÿ‡บ๐Ÿ‡ธโœจ

Hello everyone! ๐Ÿ‘‹ My weekend is wrapping up so itโ€™s finally time to write a proper post telling all that happened since Friday morning. It was a fateful and eventful day, with big highs and big lows but overall fantastic really, when all is said and done. Letโ€™s do this!

โค๏ธ๐Ÿค๐Ÿ’™ Naturalization Ceremony โค๏ธ๐Ÿค๐Ÿ’™

We left the house at 6:30am. The ceremony was at 8:15am, so we went to Dunkinโ€™ Donuts to get breakfast first, since Dunkinโ€™ was the first thing my mom and I ate when we landed on the US almost 20 years ago at 4:00am. ๐Ÿฉ So on such a special occasion, of course we had to start with that. We met my mom at USCIS in Hialeah.

The ceremony, I have to say, was really lackluster. ๐Ÿ˜ž I did expect that to a degree, with COVID and all, but the masks, the social distancing, the Judge having to be there over Zoom, none of that was the issue. Even not being able to have guests there was much of an issue to me.

More than anything, it felt like this particular USCIS location didn’t give the event the gravitas it deserved. The thing that sucked most was that the USCIS employees werenโ€™t ready, so as the Judge was talking to us, and saying all of these important things, they were talking over her. ๐Ÿ˜  Wtf?! They were trying to get everyoneโ€™s paperwork and such and we just couldnโ€™t hear the Judge. All stuff that should have been done before we entered that room.

Another thing was that, for all they tell you to dress to mark the dignity of the occasion, there were people with tank tops, torn jeans, visible panties (?!) which did also kinda spoil the mood for me a tad. ๐Ÿ˜’

But even that wasnโ€™t the worst. At one point the Judge asked that we all take out our paper with the Oath of Allegiance. No one had it because they failed to give it to us! So we all repeated after the Judge as best as we could but that was so upsetting, some of the words were hard to understand. This was also the Oath with which you renounce allegiance to your country of birth. It’s a big deal and was supposed to be so solemn. And EVEN AT THIS TIME, some employees are still talking over the Judge and walking around! Give me a break.

Another bummer was that the video of Biden welcoming us didnโ€™t play. I was looking forward to that so much. And then the Judge asked us to take out the little flags we had been given but we had been given NO FLAGS! I was so upset by this too. We did get our flags by the end, with the Naturalization Certificate, after the ceremony was over. But not on that special moment. Worse yet, we could see on the livestream that people at other locations got them properly and in time.

As we left we did get some photos outside with me holding my little flag, though, so that was nice:

Here is my Naturalization package… ๐Ÿ˜ the flag, certificate (I edited out all sensitive info) and my voter registration and passport papers to fill out! It’s official!

Later, during the party, I got a frame from our friend Fern to put my certificate. I’ll frame it and put it on the wall this week. I got a stand for my little flag too. Displaying everything properly this week.

We were supposed to go to lunch with my mom a couple hours after, so we went to our house to relax a while until it was time. I was so excited about this lunch! But alas, it was not to be, because…

โ›ˆ๏ธ Elliot’s Emergency Vet Visit โ›ˆ๏ธ

Elliot got very sick, very suddenly. He must have been developing an UTI for a few days. But he was fine, eating and drinking well, playing and running like crazy. Suddenly, he began crying, dragging his front on the rug, panting heavily and desperately, trying to pee everywhere, without success. So right before we were about to leave for lunch, my mom had to go home and we ran to the vet as an emergency.

It was clear that Elliot was suffering terribly all the way. Between that, the lackluster ceremony, and the canceled long-awaited celebratory lunch, my spirits were so low. It felt like my day might be ruined. How can I be happy when my kitty is suffering.

Elliot had to have multiple medications to treat his infection, and manage his pain. We went home with a $330 bill… I didn’t even dare ask that we still have a meal out. We went home and I did my best to cheer up as I continued getting the house ready for the party, but at this point I wasn’t in the mood for partying anymore. ๐Ÿ˜”

๐Ÿฑ Patriotic Kitties ๐Ÿฑ

As I cheered up and decorated I began to fool around. I may have gotten Kotoko and Rosemary involved:

No Elliot, because he was sick, and no Tomoyo, because I didn’t feel like being hospitalized.

๐Ÿฅณ The Party ๐Ÿฅณ

I was barely ready when guests began to arrive. ๐Ÿ˜ฒ The first was my new friend Shelly and her boyfriend Ben. Shelly is a fellow Little whom I met online almost two years ago. We were supposed to attend Little Scouts together but that fell through because of… stuff happening in both our lives, and soon after I became so jaded on having Little friends and doing Little things, that I didn’t pursue further and you know, time just passed, and then COVID hit.

So, a month or so ago (I may have told this story in passing on my blog actually) a pest control truck was parked across the street from my house. I’d been looking for someone to do pest control inside our house and I saw a girl near the truck; I thought, great! I want to support a woman-led pest control business. I never see that. So I ran outside in my rainbow socks like a crazy person.

I approach the truck and ask, and this girl, who’s now in the truck with a gentleman, looks at me really intensely while explaining that they only do outdoor pest control. I go back inside and get a text from Shelly, the girl I didn’t get to meet long ago, and she’s all like, did you just ask me about pest control?? Of all the crazy coincidences, right?

Anyway, thankfully Shelly is better at remembering people from photos than I am. We began texting again but I couldn’t manage to make some spare time to meet, so I invited them to this party, and thankfully they both came and hopefully weren’t too put off by my obnoxiousness. ๐Ÿ˜… They were both so nice.

A lot of people began to arrive soon after them. Some couldn’t make it, but people who I wasn’t expecting to see made it, and we had a great turnout. Christopher made great burgers as usual and a lot of the snacks I got were eaten.

Before I veer off from the topic above, it seems a Little-geared event may soon happen among a bunch of us, all girls, and more Middles than Littles really… I feel excited in that small, happy way about Littlespace for the first time in the longest time ever, so it’s a big plus to this party.

I wrote a lot, so I’m going to interject with some pictures here:

Something that I was NOT expecting was presents. Danny and Amanda gave me a card and fifty bucks that I had a lot of fun spending at Barnes & Noble the next day (more on that later.) My mom in law came dressed in patriotic colors and gave me a flag cookie, a $50 Amazon gift card, a beautiful bracelet with USA flag colors, and at some point I lose track of what was from her and what was from Grandma… I got a pole and a USA flag for the house, and I do mean a real proper full size all-weather flag, and I believe one was from my mom in law and the other from Grandma. There was also napkins and a tablecloth and a garden flag, and a dish towel, all USA themed, it was really all too much… I was floored.

Grandma also sent this pair of flags. I have a similar one already on the porch, so I will rotate them as they wear out:

There was a lovely note from Grandma too. My friend Jen got me some fancy liqueur and my very dear friend Kris and his lovely girlfriend Sivan got me a tic-tac-toe set. You may not think this sounds very special, and I was a bit puzzled, until I opened the actual pieces and screamed. Here it is in the library!

It’s handmade in Puerto Rico. Needless to say, they know me well…

We drank a fair bit. Christopher is such a delightful drunk.

I just get more obnoxious. For my drink, I asked Leo to pop the cork in my champagne, and he somehow broke the mouth of the bottle and cut his finger, so I gave him a Cinderella printed band-aid and filtered my champagne through a Keurig reusable pod. There were no crunchies. ๐Ÿ˜

Here’s more drunk Christopher. This was near the end of the night. You can hear my mom in law telling him to just be quiet. Lol.

Christopher rarely drinks and for this reason I LOVE it when he does. He’s the best kind of drunk, just fun and happy. We had to carry him up the stairs though.

My mom in law took several photos, but most of this night’s photos were taken by my friend Andrea, who, by the way, came looking SUPER patriotic. She’s very good at just constantly taking random candid photos for which I am always grateful.

Here’s a selfie round-up:

Speaking of Andrea being great at capturing moments, some DDR actually happened since Christopher fixed the machine. Here he is playing with dad-to-be Leo:

Here’s both Christopher and I, happy and drunk. A wonderful night almost over.

I took this photo right before getting in bed. Getting Christopher to bed was a whole ordeal. Bert was a big help. Christopher was so happy and loopy, poorly coordinated and consequently difficult lol. As soon as he passed out after brushing his teeth, Kotoko protectively lay on him.

And that was the end of this wonderful night. One more thing I want to mention is that I got to hang out with my old friends for a long time, I mean my pre-Christopher friends, for the first time in years. Properly, I mean.

You see… a few years ago, I felt so fulfilled by Christopher and by the couple of friends that we were deeply close with at that time, that I unconsciously (or perhaps somewhat consciously) stepped away from my old friend group, I can even say I pushed my friends aside. The friendship we had with that couple truly and utterly filled my heart and the free time in my weekends. When it wasn’t that, I was so absorbed with my furry friends and my Little side/lifestyle that I felt it didn’t merge well with my old friend group. I didn’t lose touch completely, but I did by a big amount.

Now, other than seeing one of our old friends sometimes (since I had a terrible and very painful falling out with the other) that “couple” friendship is gone and it left a huge gaping hole. There’s no more hanging out every weekend, no more meeting up to cook a meal at our place or going to an art walk or a thrift sale. It took a long time to get used to that. But I didn’t feel like just trying to rekindle old friendships either. I was left quite jaded and afraid by that experience and a similar one that followed. No longer in pain, but tired by it, just jaded.

Now a lot of time has passed since the last truly painful, traumatizing stuff. Two plus years. Other bad stuff happened but it’s more easily brushed off. And I saw my old OLD friends again. Almost all of them came. They didn’t have to, you know. None of them forgot me. They all came to celebrate me and treated me as if I’d been part of the group in the same way the last five years (which I have not been.)

I felt more comfortable and more like myself among them than I ever did before. Like the old me and the new me came together and I’m comfortable again. And now I better see how precious friendships are. I was so careless with them.

Our MAD anime group had its share of drama but most of us have always gotten along and sorted out conflicts. I knew that before but didn’t realize its value. My friends are all very different but they are good people and I’m really lucky to be back among them after I kind of discarded them temporarily. Maybe I thought I didn’t need them but that is not true. No friendship should ever be taken for granted. We get less in a lifetime than we think, and I was and am lucky to have them.

We have the next MAD meetup planned, at our place! I haven’t hosted one in years, so I’m really excited. It’s on June 12th.

Sorry to get so verbose… let’s move on to Saturday!

๐ŸŒˆ Saturday ๐ŸŒˆ

Since I didn’t get a nice meal with my mom, my mom in law treated me to the same place I wanted to go to for Saturday’s lunch (The Tavern). I brought Beanie along for this one:

I had crab cakes, teriyaki brussel sprouts and cole slaw. I wanted to have crรจme brรปlรฉe for dessert but in the end I was just too full.

After this we went to the book store. I saw this cute book but I didn’t buy it, I got a picture though:

It KILLED me that we ran into Thomas stuff, and they had Harold, Edward AND Cranky!! I didn’t dare ask Christopher for any of it… ๐Ÿ˜– He’s been spending way too much because of me. But seeing this stuff in person and not getting it was kinda killer, haha… at least I got a photo:

It was Cranky I wanted most of all. ๐Ÿ˜ญ But now, for what I DID buy. I got this Sesame Street tote:

It’s big and very thick and fits my iPad:

I also got a couple of dinosaur books and a li’l t-rex friend:

These books may be for little kids, but I want them for character design tips and ideas. The illustrations are amazing, and the quick facts are super useful:

Later we went to Brandsmart. We didn’t buy anything, it was just to look. Brandsmart always feels larger than life to me:

After that we went to PhแปŸ 79 for dinner, and then home. Before bedtime we played Rummikub and Mille Bornes. I had patriotic cakes with my new dino friend:

I went to bed very tired and happy. It was a wonderful day.

๐ŸŽ€ Sunday ๐ŸŽ€

Sunday was a quieter affair. I got up, had my coffee and got ready to head out on my walk. I wanted to check the Pride section at Target. Speaking of, my pansexual pride bandana did come in, at least, which you can see in the photo above.

It was a rainy day, everything gray and dull and wet. My outfit really stood out (and I’m not even holding my dinosaur umbrella here):

Before I went out though, my mom in law helped us install our brand new flag!

โค๏ธ๐Ÿค๐Ÿ’™ Installing The Flag โค๏ธ๐Ÿค๐Ÿ’™

Honestly, they did all the hard work. But I made sure the flag didn’t touch the ground.

Placing the pole!

We had to get at least one photo of me next to it:

Here’s the way the flag looks from the door, and from the street:

Here it is waving in all its glory! A waving flag makes a beautiful sound. I never paid attention to it until now.

At dusk we brought the flag in. We won’t actually take it out again until Thursday, as that is when we will be installing a light so it’s not in the dark at night.

I think that’s everything. A very busy week looms ahead, with cleaning-up to do, overdue warm-ups, immigration paperwork for my mom, answering lots and LOTS of congratulatory messages, and scheduling doctor appointments.

I’m going to take care of my snails now, and then head to bed. Thank you so much to everyone who read this!