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IKEA Outing ๐Ÿ’›๐Ÿ’™โœจ

Hi hi, everyone! ๐Ÿ‘‹ Yesterday was pretty fun. After breakfast, some house chores and yard work, Christopher and I picked up our friend and the three of us went to IKEA. I brought Anise with me and put together a new outfit!

We had swedish meatballs and such for lunch and then walked around. I found some wild snail art on a fridge!

My main goal for this outing was to measure some bunk beds, see them in person, and decide which one I’m going to put in my studio. In the end, I settled for this one:

The upper area will be mostly for my stuffed animals, except in cases where I really need to have someone there. But that will not be its primary purpose. Anyway, it was out of stock, which I expected. It should be coming back later this month.

Totally unrelated but one of the Bluey showrunners or something (verified account) liked one of my tweets with a Bluey plush and a freaking ODU ONESIE on it and I had a moment of both glee and utter panic:

I was happy and also had an urge to block him out of sheer panic. It was like โ€œHe noticed me!!โ€ ๐Ÿ˜€ โ€œNOOO PLEASE DON’T NOTICE MY CRINGEโ€ ๐Ÿ˜ฑ

Anyhow, that’s it for today. I did also gets plenty more commission progress done. Hopefully my goals of posting all overdue work this week can be reached! Goodnight, everyone.

Birthday Tea Time!

My cramps were terrible this morning โ€”the worst theyโ€™ve been in maybe 3 years. Tea almost had to be cancelled! But four painkillers and a hot compress later, I managed to get ready to goโ€ฆ no fancy dress this time. ๐Ÿ˜Ÿ I couldnโ€™t handle it feeling like that. I still felt decently cute, though.

Oh yeah –somehow, I forgot to show off this bag until today! The reason is that I got it during the recent vacation, as an early birthday present from Christopher. By which I mean I saw it at Boxlunch while Christopher was miles away (we spent that day in separate places) and I told him I’d had to have it even if I overdrafted my bank account. So, would he go halfsies with me on it as a birthday present?

In the end, he covered the whole cost, knowing how much this movie means to me on a spiritual level. ๐Ÿ˜ But I wasnโ€™t allowed to touch or take photos of it or anything until my actual birthday. And then I forgot because I’d hidden it. Anyway –here it is!

Christopher wore one of Grandpaโ€™s shirts today, so I took this photo to send to Grandma. Itโ€™s been just a couple of days since the first anniversary of Grandpaโ€™s passing… The flag was a gift from Grandma too so I included it in the photo:

Mignon was my companion for this outing!

๐Ÿฐ๐ŸŽ€ Time For Tea ๐ŸŽ€๐Ÿฐ

Hereโ€™s Mignon with my first tea pick, a peaches and cream tea. Itโ€™s a favorite of mine.

Then we had quichรฉ and tomato soup!

Finally the best part came! I didnโ€™t take a photo of the tray this time… It’s the same as usual –lots of delicious finger sandwiches and sweets.

They always put so much effort in the little details!

We took our time and really enjoyed ourselves. It’ll be a while before we get to go again.

After tea, we went to walk around Tateโ€™s Comics. Then Christopher began to look for some other place to go before heading home, but so many old places we frequented had shut down permanently because of Covid… I just sat and played with Mignon while he looked on his phone.

Mignon might have gotten a little restless after a whileโ€ฆ

Eventually we went to a retro antique store and to a thrift shop. We didnโ€™t have any intention of shopping, but I found this book for just $1:

If you know these characters (you probably donโ€™t) you know how hard this stuff is to find! Canโ€™t beat it at just one dollar.

It really was a wonderful time. I didnโ€™t have the heart to tell Lia (the owner) that it might be months/over a year before we can go again. ๐Ÿ˜ขWith our current situation, I think we will be lucky to be able have such a treat for our next anniversaryโ€ฆ but it was such a lovely time, and I feel so lucky that we didn’t have to cancel it.

Yard Work ๐Ÿฆ—

Even though I’m not doing okay mentally, I managed to be pretty helpful in the yard without as much whining as I feared I might have done. I ended up in a ton of pain but I helped raking leaves and with Christopher we put down two pallets of sod together. I also did a lot of pressure cleaning.

More than anything I am relieved that considering how I am currently feeling I managed to be cheerful most of the time because I really don’t want to bring my family down with my nonsense, again.

๐Ÿ› Working On The Yard ๐Ÿ›

My mom in law found a cute caterpillar while raking leaves so she let me take him to a safe place. He was such a cutie:

Here’s some video of the little bugger, too:

I really didn’t want to be the first one to tap out (and I only stopped maybe 15 minutes before everyone else, after working since before 8:00am) but I was actually crying by that point because of the terribly pain in my old wrist injury. I think it’ll be okay though.

These photos are from when I came back inside. Almost every area of uncovered skin looked like my arm. ๐Ÿ˜…

Oh yeah –the fridge behind me is the new fridge. It was delivered today. It’s a pretty nice fridge.

Here are some photos of our freshly sodded and pressure cleaned yard and house. The first pallet had some kinda bad squares, but Christopher said it will all grow in very nicely.

After going back in, I showered and sat down to relax for a bit. I had a package to open.

๐ŸŽˆ Birthday Present From Drake ๐ŸŽˆ

My friend Drake sent me a really fancy birthday present! It’s a very cute (but very good, it’s not a toy) crayon sharpener. I hope to use it on the next Little playdate.

Mojito was admiring it too!

Thank you Drakey for such a very lovely present. ๐Ÿ’•โœจ

๐Ÿฐ Scrapbooking Time ๐Ÿฐ

After that I worked a bit on my scrapbook and watched Crayon Shin-Chan. Mignon wanted to watch so I prepared his little chair for him to sit on.

And that was that for the day. Eventually I began working on chores. Grandma made spaghetti and meatballs for dinner. The day didn’t end on a bad note. Perhaps I’ll cheer up tomorrow, I’m going to try!

Date Night An’ Other Stuff

Vegeta wants to send you good vibes for today!! โœŠโœจ

Anyway, it’s Thursday. Tonight is date night. I also need to do a little shopping for my upcoming play date with Mwako while I still can.

๐ŸŒˆ Little Shopping Trip ๐ŸŒˆ

I don’t want to spoil at least the visuals for Mwako, so I won’t post those things here. But I got some big crayons for his little baby hands, a bit of clay, some fun puzzle and activity books, and some other things to have a really nice little play date.

I also got some things for scrapbooking. A notebook, some Pokรฉmon cards and such…

I’m looking forward to having fun with these things in my scrapbooks. Glad to be finding joy in that hobby again.

๐ŸŽฎ Nexomon Extinction ๐ŸŽฎ

This game has been added to my extensive “to play” roster (also, this is the first time ever I can say I’ve literally collected games… I’m becoming like my husband.)

I never in a MILLION years thought I’d buy such a thing! ๐Ÿ˜… This game is a very honest absolute knockoff of Pokรฉmon. However, it seems to be a loving, well done homage, that a lot of older fans are enjoying. It was quite discounted the day I found it, so I figured I’d give it a shot. ๐Ÿ˜Š I’ll be sure to let you know how that goes.

๐Ÿ’˜ Date Night ๐Ÿ’˜

Tonight was date night! We had a few plans. In the end we didn’t get to play I Spy, though I ended up taking a picture of it at the beginning of the evening…

Instead we sat next to each other playing Age Of Empires. That was really fun. While playing I snacked on some yummy stuff that Apply Juice watched over so the cats wouldn’t try to get a taste:

Can’t wait to do the exact same thing next Thursday too! ๐Ÿฅฐ

A Happy Little Sleepover ๐ŸŸ๐ŸŒˆ๐Ÿ–๏ธ

Hi everyone! ๐Ÿ‘‹ How was your weekend? The LAN is over now, everyone is going home. My friend Shelly just left and so our Little sleepover is over as well. We had soooo much fun together! We colored, built a puzzle, played board games, watched cartoons and a Disney movie and ordered Happy Meals! It was the best night ever. I want to tell you all about it on this post.

๐ŸŸ๐Ÿ–๏ธ๐ŸŒˆ Saturday Evening๐ŸŸ๐Ÿ–๏ธ๐ŸŒˆ

Last night, before Shelly got here, I got everything ready with Ricky Parky standing guard over our many snacks, coloring books, board games and puzzles! It was a magnificent spread of Littleness.

I hadn’t brought down my crayons and coloring things in quite some time. It was nostalgic seeing them again. ๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿ’•

(Umโ€ฆ Iโ€™d rather you keep watch over the snacks from a distance, Rickyโ€ฆ)

I had our first movie all ready to watch. The Great Mouse Detective. I hadnโ€™t seen it in ages! Itโ€™s Shellyโ€™s favorite, and I like it a lot too.

After this movie I introduced Shelly to Bluey. She loved it! Always good to indoctrinate new people into the Bluey cult, lol.

As soon as Shelly arrived, we ordered the perfect Disney movie night/sleepover mealโ€ฆ Happy Meals for dinner!

I ordered a cheeseburger and Shelly had nuggets. For our toy, we both got Lola!

After eating we began coloring while continuing to watch our movie. I colored one of my vintage printed coloring pages:

It was so nice to touch and smell my crayons again and to just, make positive Littlespace memories to replace bad ones. The whole evening was a healing experience for me. ๐Ÿ˜Œ

When we were ready to take a break from coloring, we played the Lucky Ducks game which was really silly and fun!

The pond board even quacked! The mechanism is so loud though, lol.

This photo of Shelly it’s my favorite of the night because it’s so cute:

The game was a bit dumb (in that, there was no real challenge but it was cute and fun regardless and we enjoyed putting the stickers on the ducks. ๐Ÿฆ† Basically each of you gets a shape. The shapes are in the duck’s bottoms. On your turn, you pick a duck. If it’s your shape, you keep it. If it’s not, you have to show it to the other players before returning it to the pond. The first player to find 3 ducks with their shape wins.

After Lucky Ducks we played the Mystery Garden game:

I like this game a lot and it was so nice to be able to play it with a fellow Little. One player plays the Gardener. That player grabs a card, looks at it and hides it. The card shows something in the board. It could be the pumpkins, the dragon, the sun, etc. The other players have to guess what it is by asking “yes” or “no” questions.

Each time the players get a question wrong, the Gardener can move a step on the board. If you guess the card, you get to keep it. The first player to get three cards wins. You take turns being the gardener.

Then we put together a puzzle! Iโ€™ve had this puzzle, a gift from
my friend Kitty (AKA Blankit) for the longest time, but there was never a good occasion to put it together until now.

We had fun building it and had some pretty deep discussions while doing just that. It turns out we had a lot more in common than we realized (including some sad things –but realizing that doesn’t make me sad, it makes me feel so much less alone. Ironically those conversations were the most important part of our time together.)

Here is the puzzle, all done!

I liked that the pieces were big. ๐Ÿ˜ I’m not very good at puzzles.

๐ŸŒž๐Ÿฅฃ๐ŸŒˆ Sunday Morning ๐ŸŒž๐Ÿฅฃ๐ŸŒˆ

This morning we colored a little more and watched Bluey and Courage The Cowardly Dog! Just some relaxing Little time before Shelly was picked up. It was really pleasant.

I didn’t get to finish my coloring because I do so many layers. Maybe next time!

Here’s a photo of Shelly coloring. ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ’•

It was such a lovely time and I canโ€™t wait for Shelly to visit again. It was everything I hoped it would be. Iโ€™m so happy today!

New Toys ‘N Things ๐Ÿฆ–๐ŸŽˆ

I may have been getting a lot of toys and stuff lately… in my defense some of it was early gifts since my birthday is coming… ๐Ÿ˜… but it does feel like I’m posting about new toys/games/stickers like every single post lol. I may need to calm my titties a tad.

On that note… Christopher managed to get the goodies I asked for during his business trip. With his coworkers, he went all out of his way to go to the Dinosaur World gift shop for me! He got me this awesome holographic framed print. I love it so much!

The other thing I’d asked for was this raptor lamp. It’s so cute!

Today I also went to pick up my new Grogu. He is extremely adorable, perfect to carry in my bag and even be dressed up. ๐Ÿ˜ I’ll make him a bead name necklace soon.

When Christopher drove me to pick Grogu up from Target (he was a site-to-store order) he also bought me this cute game to play with Shelly this Saturday night:

I’ve actually wanted this game for years to bring to previous Little playdates. In retrospective I’m glad I didn’t get it until now.

After I got home I continued LAN prep and fed/cleaned the snail tank:

They haven’t had cucumber in over a month! It’s a big treat for them.

That’s it for this post! I’m tired…

National Squelfpoon’s Vacation: 6/27 – 7/4 ๐ŸŽข๐ŸŒˆ

Alrighty! Here’s the summary of the rest of the week. I’ve separated each day in sections while including everything in a single post. It doesn’t include the couple of days I already blogged about, so this is from Sunday 27th and onwards.

Looking at it all, photos, etc, it really should have been more enjoyable for me… It was a trip full of fun things after all… I wonder if I would have had a much better time were it not for my period, which came on the third morning. Then again, Christopher believes stress triggers my periods to come early, because they always seem to come when I’m anxious or stressed out. So it was this time. ๐Ÿ˜ž

(CW for fairly detailed period related talk below.)

I don’t know though. Last 3-4 months my period has been slightly abnormal. It’s regular, but comes on very suddenly –no physical warning other than bad mood, and it’s like BAM it’s there ๐Ÿ˜ณ without the usual mild few days of spotting. It also leaves very suddenly, whereas it used to be gradual.

This time felt so sudden that I got scared and thought something else entirely was happening to me, like, something serious. But no. ๐Ÿคทโ€โ™€๏ธ Well, who knows. ๐Ÿ˜… I really do have to go see my gynecologist this month so I can be properly examined and make sure everything is okay. ๐Ÿค”

BTW, PLEASE DO NOT TRY TO DIAGNOSE ME OR GIVE SUGGESTIONS ABOUT WHAT MAY OR MAY NOT BE GOING ON WITH MY BODY –not even in the form of shared personal experiences. It feels presumptuous and makes me super anxious. Just don’t, okay.

(Period talk ends here.)

๐ŸŽฅ Disney Hollywood Studios ๐ŸŽฅ

Sunday, June 27th

We were up early on Sunday. Got to have McDonald’s which was a nice start to the day. Now all of this was several days ago so I don’t really remember everything… ๐Ÿค” The ride to Orlando was okay. We went to Disney Hollywood Studios, which, you know ๐Ÿคทโ€โ™€๏ธ I don’t do rides, so… I wasn’t exactly excited.

Ultimately, this day wasn’t too bad, it was one of the better ones. I did a bit of shopping, went on more rides than I normally would, including Star Wars: Rise Of The Resistance in Galaxy’s Edge. That was EPIC. Also, terrifying. Mostly because I’m scared of Stormtroopers, and Christopher basically pushed me towards them, I can’t imagine another ride where it feels so much like you are literally inside a movie. I wish everyone who is into Star Wars could experience it, I want to go again.

If you don’t mind the ride being spoiled for you, here’s a sort of rundown of it (the GIF above is borrowed from that Buzzfeed article.)

My interest in Star Wars was always just kinda mildly there, but not fanatically so, however the stuff I experienced in Galaxy’s Edge has me wanting to rewatch all the movies.

Honestly… part of why I’ve always been “eh” about Star Wars is that The Phantom Menace is my favorite movie, because it was my intro to the franchise maybe, and when you’re talking to other fans that’s just kind of a non-starter? People either are disgusted at your taste or make fun of you, so… I gravitated towards Star Trek instead. ๐Ÿ˜… But maybe I’ll stop holding back.

Lunch was interesting. They had a “lobster” roll, with quotes on the menu, because it was vegetarian:

The “lobster” was a hearts of palm salad. I love hearts of palm, and I did love this meal.

Everyone else had burgers, chicken nuggets and hot dogs. Here is my mom-in-law and (Christopher’s) Grandma during lunch:

I took video of the entire lightsaber-building experience of my sis-in-law and another family member, Brayden, who is kind of Christopher’s nephew, I think? It was really cool:

Here’s the video, in two parts because I had to stop in the middle of recording to do I forget what:

Made a GIF of this part because it was โœจ SO COOL โœจ:

Truly the entirety of Galaxy’s Edge was awesome and I really wish I had not been in such a foul mood. I would like to go again when I’m not feeling like that. I got on Star Tours too, though that was technically outside of Galaxy’s Edge. I liked it.

Other than that, I did end up getting on a number of other attractions and rides. It’s ironic because when I look back it was not a bad time at all. I think it was the knowledge of the immensely packed schedule ahead, the fact that I was still-reeling from the heartbreak of the original canceled plans, and my impending period, that made actually enjoying it so difficult. But, I’m really glad for the things I enjoyed, particularly the Star Wars parts.

๐Ÿฆ Animal Kingdom ๐Ÿฆ

Monday, June 28th

The next day was Animal Kingdom. I brought my iPad on this day to draw a little more during the queues, and really did try to be in a happier mood. Still, I failed at times, but I think my mood was better on a chunk of this day than on any of the other days.

We went on a Kilimanjaro Safari first thing. Got great seats. I was excited to see baobab trees, but it turns out they are fake. I didn’t know that until we got home. Apparently they used to have a single real baobab tree several years ago, but it died during a cold winter.

I didn’t take photos of the animals but there certainly were many about, as it was early in the morning and they were feeding.

At some point in the afternoon, the biggest highlight of the entire week happened for me: I won a beautiful stuffed animal at a game of chance in Dinoland. This was a big deal for three reasons:

  • The stuffed animal I wanted was the biggest prize in any stall (well, one of two options, but it was the hardest to win.) It wasn’t even available on every stall, just two.
  • The game I tried my hand at was ridiculously hard, with a minuscule chance of winning this specific toy.
  • I never win at these games –ever. So I never try, because I end up crushed and frustrated every time.

I’ll go into more detail about this down below on a different segment since I don’t have photos of this stuffed animal from this specific day. My long-suffering family, already dealing with my shit mood, patiently sat in the baking heat for about an hour until I got my prize. I really don’t deserve them.

I did lots of window shopping while at Animal Kingdom. We went on two rides in Pandora: Na’vi River Journey and Avatar: Flight of Passage. Both were stunning, the latter certainly scared me a good bit but it was incredible. Here’s a POV video someone else took of this ride:

You have to realize this envelops you completely unless you look behind you really craning your neck (which I did a few times to stop myself from pissing my pants) so it REALLY feels like you’re flying. It’s hard to convince your brain that you’re not, and it’s really hard if you’re afraid of heights as I am. But I loved it anyways. The River Journey was also unbelievably gorgeous, with really impressive effects.

On the way out, I ran by the Rainforest Cafe gift shop and bought some baby dinosaurs. Then we went to dinner and finally back to the hotel.

๐Ÿ‘ Savannah, GA – Day One ๐Ÿ‘

Tuesday, June 29th

I don’t remember we did during the morning… I do recall that the afternoon train was more or less on time, and I got to sit with Christopher and had a window seat, so other than my period making me kind of miserable, it was an enjoyable ride. The photo below was taken early-ish during the ride, just past 2:00pm. It was a little over five hours to Savannah.

Truly, I don’t know what delayed us so much, because I know we went from the train station to the hotel, and even as we got there we were desperate to get some food and everything was closing. The photo below was taken at like, 10:30pm, and we’d gotten our food maybe 15 minutes before that at a “hole in the wall” burger place that was literally called “Hole In The Wall”. We were all exhausted.

Went I went back to get a milkshake by myself, the lovely owner of the Hole In The Wall high-fived me over my Pride wallet and wished me a happy Pride Month. Told me about her husband, who came out to her as bisexual, and a few other related things. I told her a little about me, too. I wished I could have talked with her longer. She was so nice, and it was a rare moment of validation for me.

Here are some photos I took of that area, while everyone else ate:

After we got back to the hotel, I settled down to keep reading the first volume of The Hagwood Trilogy with my new iguanodon friend, Femur:

I first saw this guy at the gift shop in the Dinosaur dark ride in Animal Kingdom, under a display case. To my utter dismay, he could not be purchased. I was directed to where I could win him in a game of chance. Normally, this is a non-starter for me. As I mentioned earlier, I just do not do well at these games, and I do not take it well when I lose. But I wanted him too badly, and against my better judgement, decided to try.

Now, to give you an idea of how hard he was to win, see this article and scroll down to the Comet Crashers game. As you will notice, only very few cups have colors. All the ones without colors are losers. Of the cups with colors, I only saw two that were yellow –meaning, the biggest prize, the one I wanted so badly. One at each end. To make it worse, the spots were the third from the front in both cases –near impossibly difficult to get into as they were so close to the edges. Just going by number of slots, according to a redditor who calculated it, it’s roughly a 9% chance of winning.

I used multiple tickets, buying $35.00 worth of them from the get-go, really sure that I would not win him, or that I would win some stupid Mickey or Minnie toy. I just felt I had to try. And win him I did –on my fourth attempt. I remember my utter disbelief. I could have cried! I held him close for the rest of that day, and hugged him every night of the remainder of our trip, even gave him one of my bandanas to wear.

Anyway, with a cuddle from Femur and my book, that was the end of the first night in Savannah –we didn’t do anything but dinner.

๐Ÿ‘ Savannah, GA – Day Two ๐Ÿ‘

Wednesday, June 30th

Ok, so… by this day I was so exhausted, I’d count the rest of the days and just, inwardly cry. Also, Savannah is pretty and all, but a 1 hour trolley tour and a 1 hour boat tour are NOT worth 10+ hours on a train and dealing with a hotel room for two nights, not to me, anyway. Especially not being able to be alone with my husband (or by myself) quietly, at all, at no point (though at the end of this day I really stopped giving a flip and excused myself to be alone, which cost me one of the nicer meals of the trip. I ended up getting UberEats.)

I really would have enjoyed it WAY more if I hadn’t just been to two Disney parks, two different hotel rooms and five + hours on a train AND if I had been able to, you know, walk around and enjoy it which we couldn’t do, unfortunately, because it is not easy for Grandma to get around. From the trolley tour we were told of so many wonderful places to visit, but we couldn’t visit any of them. That made me really sad.

Below are some photos of the trolley tour. The houses were very pretty, but these are the only photos I got, literally nothing special at all in them.

We almost didn’t make it in time for the boat ride, but we did get on.

This was one of the times I excused myself from the family for a long period. They wanted to be inside in the AC which to me felt like a total waste of being on that boat in the first place. I wanted to look at the river, so I spent the entire hour standing, and watching, even when it rained on me a little.

The sun was blistering, but if you stood at the right end of the boat you could feel the wind in your face, at it was refreshing.

It was after this that everyone went to dinner and I just couldn’t force myself to leave the hotel room again. I showered, got some Japanese food ordered to the room, and finished reading my book with Beanie.

This book would also be a highlight of my trip, it was incredible, my favorite of Robin Jarvis’ books so far.

๐Ÿš‚ Intermission ๐Ÿš‚

Thursday, July 1st

And now we come to my lowest point. By 5:30am we were at the train station. I’d run out of painkillers, and of coffee. I was just a bundle of pain and misery, with a bumpy and painful train ride and like, four more days of not being home to look forward to.

At least, I told myself, I’ll be sitting next to Christopher, the seats are fairly comfortable, I can just put my head on his shoulder and I will feel better. Every moment I had alone with Christopher would raise up my HP by a few points, so I was eagerly looking forward to our “alone” time on the train, even in as much physical pain as I was.

Well… we ended up in the cafe car, four to a table, which doesn’t even have full-back seats (so you can’t sleep) and this would have been temporary, but my mom-in-law wanted to play cards or something and asked if we could be left there for the full FIVE HOURS. At this point I just lost my shit so much that I hid my head for a while and cried, there was nowhere for me to go.

Eventually I asked to be moved; it meant not being with Christopher, but I physically could not take the ride otherwise. I was moved to sit with a stranger, on an aisle seat. I begged to be moved to a window seat and eventually was moved to this…

It was kind of hilarious at this point, but at least I could lay against the side and try to sleep my pain away. But I was so lonely and miserable without Christopher. I felt that I hated everything, the train, the entire trip, just everything, but more than anything, by far, myself –for not being happy, for not handling well being tired and in pain the way everyone else did, for crying, for just being the way I am. I really wish I could be someone else, someone pleasant and easygoing, someone not selfish or whiny.

Though I don’t think my family would believe this, I really do fight against these sides of me constantly, but they are so bad, that none of that effort is noticeable. When my unpleasantness shows, it’s because my effort is finally cracking. I feel so much guilt for being the way I am. It really was the worst moment of all.

I felt better when we reached the train station. We went to Olive Garden for dinner and it was lovely. I felt my spirits lifting a tad.

Maybe that was just being next to Christopher again. He truly is the one single person in this world who doesn’t drain my energy, but replenishes it. Literally the only one. Just by being there. My appreciation and love for him was increased by the experience of this trip.

Later we just relaxed in the room, watched TV, I had some sweets and worked on this illustration which I’d also been working on during the train ride:

It’s a two-page spread for Meganeea featuring young Gideon, as well as the new chapter banner, since things have entered a new stage story-wise, the banner of little Faahvrigรผo is a tad outdated.

That marked the end of the day.

๐Ÿฐ Disney Springs / Florida Mall ๐Ÿฐ

Friday, July 2st – Saturday, July 3rd

Friday it was just Grandma and me. While everyone else went to Universal, we went to Disney Springs (Downtown Disney). Our Uber was really something, I appreciated this guy’s passion:

I wanted to get a photo of the outside of the car but it was raining and I had to make sure Grandma stayed dry and didn’t slip.

At one point I saw this huge canvas print –while it is not my style, I know Christopher would have loved it. It’s a dream of his, to have a print like this, by this artist, of this character. It was $500, and if I had had the funds on hand I would not have hesitated. It broke my heart to not get it for him. But I got him a $10 magnet of the same image. ๐Ÿ˜…

I had to get a photo of Stitch. Always makes me think of Christopher and of Mwako.

The next day we went to Florida Mall, this time it was me, Grandma and my mom-in-law while everyone else went to Universal again. I mostly ran off on my own. The Florida Mall gives me funny feelings because it’s where I had my biggest “Shit! I’m kind of gay I guess!!” moment, and it was so intense that just walking by the spot where it happened I have to take a moment, and just stop. It was like a lightning bolt at the time. Very bittersweet even to this day.

We were supposed to go home the next day, but one of our petsitters left the back door open, plus I ran out of pads, plus I ran out of epilepsy meds, and between one thing and another, we drove home one day early. My joy knew no bounds! ๐Ÿ˜ญโœจ๐Ÿ’–

โœจ My Vacation Haul โœจ

I… did a lot of shopping… well… what can I say, it kept me sane. ๐Ÿคทโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿ’ง

I already showed off Femur, so I’ll proceed to the next thing I absolutely loved and which rekindled my desire to scrapbook. A beautiful book-bound journal from a delightfully cringy favorite of mine:

The cover looks a lot like the original featured in the movie:

Another favorite find was a Mandalorian pencil case with adorable stationary –this was my souvenir from Grandma, she insisted we all pick one:

Third favorite find was also Mandalorian related, another journal, smaller than the first but no less luxurious:

Those are my most favorite things (well, minus a MAJOR one, but it’s my birthday present, so I guess I won’t show it here yet, since I’m not allowed to touch it until then.) Here’s everything else:

(I think this is the first time I’ve found something with my name at a store!)

And that’s it. That’s my vacation. Made a few good memories, still would have rather stayed home. Divided into three or even two trips, everything we did would have been far more enjoyable and less utterly exhausting. I’m still in so much pain just from sheer exhaustion. Definitely would have been without my period and without the massive disappointment of the cancellation hanging over, but it is what it is… at least I am home and I’m so grateful for that.

Now, back to work!

All Done Packing! ๐Ÿงณ๐Ÿงธ๐ŸŒˆ

Good morning everyone! Packing to spend an entire WEEK away from home is not easy… especially because I want to bring eight outfits (and I mean “Little” outfits, so, a lot of bulky overalls, accessories, etc including THREE pairs of shoes and three face masks to be able to match properly), eight nightshirts (I really don’t want to deal with laundry), basic toiletries (including necessities in case I should get my period), Franklin and Beanie (I will carry Beanie most of the trip), a blanket and neck pillow (there is not just the flights but so… so much driving… hours and hours… I want to be comfortable), my Nintendo Switch, my iPad, a book to read, and some snacks.

I think that’s it…It took effort and very careful sorting of everything into little packing bags, but everything fit quite comfortably. Considering how I normally pack for even a weekend trip, the fact that I went all out just to see how close I could get to actually bringing everything I wanted, and the fact that I am bringing TWO bears (since Franklin absolutely HAS to come to Vermont Teddy Bear factory) I really did kind of, well, amazing. This is all I’m bringing:

Franklin is snug inside, waiting for his special day:

Franklin has a lot of bittersweet memories attached to him. But ultimately I cling to all the good ones. Franklin was a very special birthday present special-ordered for me on July 16, 2011. That means on Franklin’s next birthday he will be ten years old. That’s kinda nuts.

I always wanted to bring Franklin back to his birthplace, Vermont Teddy Bear Factory, where he was made. I wonder if anyone will remember him. Franklin was well known by VTB staff at one point, and once, when his head came off (yes, really!) he even went to the hospital, and they sent me a photo of him in a gourney attached to a honey IV drip:

Post-op:

Realistically though… I doubt anyone at VTB will remember Franklin. Laura is no longer there, and in general, things do not seem to be the same at that factory and I believe they haven’t been since their “Crazy For You” bear gaffe that caused people at the company to even resign. But I still am excited to check this off my bucket list.

Speaking of excitement, I’m starting to allow that to happen. Our vacations have been repeatedly canceled due to COVID, so, it’s hard to get excited anymore, but slowly it’s happening in spite of myself. ๐Ÿ˜…

I’m insanely busy every day, working on commissions, doing last-minute adjustments to my packing, making sure the animals are ready… it goes on and on. Yesterday I went quickly on an outing to get snacks, the tiniest umbrella I could find, and a luggage tag. I ended up snagging a few other goodies I ran into:

This one was especially neat, for sure:

Also, those bandanas are incredible. I gave one to Bizcocho and the other one to Franklin. ๐Ÿ˜Š

Ok, I have to do some chores, get something to eat, get art done. Off I go!

Unicorn Chaser ๐Ÿฆ„ ๐Ÿ’จ

Letโ€™s like… just… talk about other stuff for a while, yeah? I can only take this other stuff for so long. So let me share a few happy things.

The other day I went to the craft store and got some ribbon and beads and fabric and similar things. I’ve been determined to make some of my newer (and older, neglected) stuffies their own bandanas and name necklaces.

Here is Raisin, holding the haul and eagerly awaiting his own goodies to be made:

The fabric bundle was really cute:

One of the older stuffies who got pimped out is Frito. Frito has survived several purges and sat in my “donation” pile three times. I can never bear to let him go. After he survived the third purge, I decided it was time to make him a name necklace and dress him up:

Frito is actually a very funny and expressive Folkmanis puppet.

Churrasco also got a name necklace, finally:

And my new stuffed little t-rex, now named Gao, got a name necklace and a bandana that I made for him myself:

Beanie got kind of revamped. He gave up his massive rainbow bow for an oversized sweater, cute bandana and new ribbon:

Along with veteran Franklin, Beanie will be coming along with me on the upcoming New England trip.

It is indeed very rare for me to travel with two bears (a first) as well as Franklin’s first trip in many years. Franklin is basically retired these days. However, we will be going to the Vermont Teddy Bear Factory where Franklin was born –I cannot visit that place with anyone but Franklin.

And then of course there is Raisin. He’s very happy with his new getup:

Everyone will be getting hats soon. I got them from AliExpress so that will take a few weeks to arrive.

I have other stuffies who have gotten a bandana here or a ribbon there but these are the most significant changes.

I also made a little cover for my laminator which always gets dusty:

And that’s it. Just some happy stuff to chase away some of these clouds. I’m gonna get some chores done and then work on another commission.