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My Goals For The Future And My New FA/Twitter Accounts ๐Ÿผโœจ

Hello everyone! I have some big news. I have new FA and Twitter account, where I will be more open to offering a different type of content, somewhat adjacent to my current.

I’ve generally drawn only littlefurs and kidfurs, and tried to steer clear from actually kinky stuff, as I’m not super keen on my gallery combining both, even in separate drawings. I’ve also never been into the idea of splitting my galleries. However, after some gentle exploring over the last few months, I came to the decision to create my new SquelfDaycare account on FA yesterday. I made an accompanying Twitter account for it today, as well.

As you may remember throughout this year, I had one primary goal: to pay thousands of dollars of old debt to my good old friend. This, thanks to your support of my work, I accomplished last month.

The secondary (now primary) goal I mentioned is that I need to save 10k by mid-next year. That’s a lot of money I need to save up, in order to begin taking care of my mom who is getting up in years. And that’s going to be a yearly thing: every year I will be giving my husband 10k to cover my mom’s living expenses.

Then you may also remember all of the catastrophes that happened to us in the last few months. New ACs ($10,000), a new roof ($20,000 and counting) tenting the house ($1,500) a new fridge ($2,000, thankfully a gift from Grandma). I think I didn’t get to mention that we had some damage to the house that required a $1000+ patch job.

Basically, we are going to be in debt for a long time. Thankfully it is not credit card debt. It is interest-free debt to Grandma (but yes, we are paying her and started immediately, with an automated payment plan) and a low-interest loan from my wonderful sister-in-law, also something that’s already being set up with auto payments. Even with all the help we have had, this is a bad situation, and it will not be easy to cover this debt. We will be in heavy debt for at least four years.

My husband does not handle this sort of stress very well when it’s compiled with all that he deals with at work. The stress that has always affected him the most is that of debt. I am unhappy every single day that he, himself, is stressed and unhappy. I’m sure most of you can relate to not being able to enjoy a single thing in life if the person you most love is dreading every morning. So I’ve been thinking a lot about how I can continue to draw and be able to cover the monthly debt payment (around $500) all on my own –in addition to the 1k I need to make monthly to put towards my mom’s fund. I need to make $1,500 per month with my art, after all Paypal fees and such are taken off.

It was because of this that I began contemplating something I’d already been thinking about for the last few months. You might remember that for the warm-ups project, I suspended my “no adults in diapers” rule, something I had in place because I was just trying not to alienate all of my followers who like kidfur stuff only. Plus, for the longest time, my interest in drawing adults in diapers was just, not there, you know? No enjoyment. But I realized, drawing them a few times during this project, that I really do like to draw it, in my own specific way. I started to contemplate the possibility of a side account just for this content, where I’d feel more comfortable creating a specific brand for it. I also figured on this account I could draw spanking art featuring adult characters, definitely go more towards the kinky side, and explore something I’ve always wanted to but didn’t want to mix into my current brand.

I’m not sure how interested people are going to be in my upcoming ABDL stuff, but I figured perhaps I can find a middle ground where I am exploring new things and meeting my monthly income goal, and thus, bring my husband more peace. That is what matters to me most of all, and I would gladly draw my fingers to stumps to see him relax and laugh and not dread every day. There is no joy for me in anything I do, if he is unhappy or unwell. So in addition to wanting to explore new territory for my own artistic enjoyment, my motivation is very strong so I can take care of those I love.

I hope you will watch my new accounts too, and commission me there, as I really need your support. I’m really grateful for all the support I’ve received and continue to receive. Thank you so much!

Pre-Trip Announcements ๐Ÿ›ซ

Greetings, everyone! I am giving the last touches to my packing today. As you may already know, I am leaving on a family vacation. I will be gone from tomorrow 6/25 until Sunday 7/4. We will have a friend staying over to look after our house and our pets.

During this time, you will not be able to reach me. Or rather, you will be able to, but I would ask that you avoid doing so. I will try not to look at my phone/Telegram/emails. Mostly, I will monitor for emergencies.

โ›” Please do not insistently reach out to me after June 26th (which when our plane actually departs) if you don’t have an emergency. An emergency is something that absolutely cannot wait until I return (hint: anything commission related CAN wait until I return). Please wait until my return on July 4th to contact me.

On a lighter note, not only is this the longest vacation of my life, but also my first big family vacation (with my husband, mom in law and sis in law, Christopher’s Grandma, and a good family friend). These are all people I obviously love tons and the idea of going on this trip with all of them, of seeing New York City for the first time, of seeing the cabin in which Grandma lived with Grandpa, who will have been gone a year next month, of visiting the American Museum of Natural History, seeing the Statue of Liberty, and so many more things, of doing lots and lots of driving in beautiful places, it’s all a dream come true to say the least. ๐Ÿฅบโœจ

With that out of the way, I wanted to make clear what this means in terms of commissions.

๐ŸŒˆ There Are No Warm-Ups During My Vacation Week ๐ŸŒˆ

As this was established when the 100 Days Of Warm-Ups journal was posted, it will not affect anyone’s delivery dates. ๐Ÿ˜Š I took this week of vacation into account when I made the Warm-Up schedule. So, when you don’t see Warm-Ups posted for the next eight days, please know that everything is running as it should. This week was always a Warm-Up-less week from the start.

๐ŸŒˆ 4 Overdue Commissions ๐ŸŒˆ

Due to a lot of stuff going on in my life, including vet trips and special care for Tomoyo, my mom’s lengthy immigration procedures/paperwork, as well as the completion of my citizenship process last May, I had a few commissions go past my self-imposed “overdue” deadline, and one which I know will be overdue while I am gone. While it’s not like, terrible, and they are all for commissioners who are friends of mine and have always given me a long leash time wise, I want to write below which commissions are overdue, for full accountability and transparency.

I fully expect to complete these commissions before any others reach their due date.

  • Mwako (2 characters, fully rendered, already colored and currently shading, but won’t be finished until I return)
  • Island (3 characters, fully rendered, not yet started)
  • Snowthebear (5 characters, flat colored, not yet started)
  • Tugscarebear (2 characters, fully rendered, not yet started, will pass due date while I am gone)

I am bringing my iPad, so it is possible that all four of these commissions will see moderate to significant progress while I am gone. But my goal during the vacation will be to enjoy the vacation –if I draw it’ll be because I got tired of gaming and reading during my downtime. I really want to relax. I need it, badly.

๐Ÿ’– Thank you ๐Ÿ’–

I want to end this post by extending my gratitude for all the support I have received so far this year. Thanks to you all, I am slowly accomplishing important life goals. I appreciate all of my commissioners.

I hope to have lots of photos and fun anecdotes to share with you upon my return. ๐Ÿ‘‹

(I do expect to make one last post tomorrow, as it’s just a day of prep, we leave in the evening. So you’ll hear from me once more, but already, tomorrow it may be difficult to contact me, and you won’t get a response after Saturday. Ideally though, I prefer you just wait until my return to contact me. I never know if a friend or family member may contact me for an emergency, so getting messages means I can’t ignore them and it will be stressful to get them. Thank you so much.)

Big Change To Will Draw/Won’t Draw

Today, I made a big change to my “Will Not Draw” list (which is here: https://marinaneira.com/willdrawwontdraw/)

It’s probably going to upset some of my commissioners who have supported me for such a long time, and I am sorry about that. I am really grateful for every commission I’ve received.

You will remember that some time ago, I made this blog post. It was fairly recent.

Even more recently, I merged my portfolio with my blog. This meant that I am also reposting my entire portfolio. Generally, I crosspost that with FurAffinity, but now, FA didn’t have most of my spanking art because I took it down (see: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9837296/) So it was a time to think carefully as to whether I still wanted to go through the conscious effort to re-upload all of that elsewhere.

I know I said I would always have it available. And in a way, it always is. My commissioners have posted it, and I’m obviously not asking them to take down work they paid for. I don’t want that. This is more about going forward.

Going forward, I will no longer draw commissions on which a minor character’s bare bottom is the focal point. In general, I prefer not to draw bare bottoms on minors anymore, unless it’s a ref sheet, or clearly for humorous purposes, such as:

OR, if it’s related to spanking, barely a peek, like this:

In the past, I’ve drawn domestic spanking scenes of this sort, often to illustrate a commissioner’s story. These scenes were always SFW, and not sexual in any way. In very few of these drawings, the focus was on the character’s bare bottom, since the art piece’s main theme was that of a spanking. This very much paralleled the sort of children’s media that I, myself, grew up with, in TV, comics, and books.

Over time, I have grown uncomfortable with depicting a child in this manner, which is no longer widely accepted in most mainstream media either. I will still draw spanking scenes, but the character’s bottom cannot be bare. I hope my past commissioners can understand that I am doing this for my own personal comfort as well as that of my followers.

Many years ago, a good friend of mine posted art of his little fursona laying on his tummy on a towel after a bath, with a bare bottom. I remember being completely baffled that he marked it mature, and he explained that on FA, such art would likely be automatically assumed to be cub simply because the character’s bare bottom was visible. I was sure, back then, that he was exaggerating. He wasn’t.

You do have to realize, I grew up in a vastly different time, though it seems not long ago. I grew up exposed to spanking and bare kids’ butts on all kinds of media. One of my earliest childhood memories (as far as cartoons go) is this cartoon where a bunny got spanked by his mom at the end of the cartoon, and the screen closed in on his bare spanked butt at the end. It took up the WHOLE damn screen. Bare bottoms were a regular thing, even in Disney shorts, so, you know, I never saw it as sexual. My grandma gave me a French picture book (a BIG book, Un Bon Petit Diable) that had huge cover art of a kid bending down to show his bare butt with two paper devils pasted on each buttcheek to his nanny or maid or whatever to spook her into not spanking him. This was the cover. For real! This was normal to me. My literal Grandma gave me this and it was a mainstream children’s book.

But, times change. Now, art like this makes most people pretty uncomfortable. There’s a reason kids today aren’t bombarded by that sort of media the way I was growing up. And I started to feel that maybe I need to stop fighting that, and adapt. Feeling the constant need to defend such art when I make it, so that it’s not misconstrued, is so exhausting. And when I wrote that sentence (“I will no longer draw art in which a minor character’s bare bottom is the focal point”) my brain did go, wow, what the fuck, that sounds messed up when I write it down. So maybe it is. I never did mean for such scenes to be perverse. I hope that, between my previous journal on the topic and what I describe here, that this much is evident. But I can also understand how, to a completely different generation, such art is also totally different feeling. And I want to respect that.

I don’t want to stop drawing spanking art. And I feel if I don’t make this change, I’ll have to. If most people see a cartoony naked furry kid’s bottom as sexual or perverse in any way, I either have to accept making most people uncomfortable, or, you know, stop altogether. ๐Ÿคทโ€โ™€๏ธ Hence this change.

I’m probably also being affected by so many people being into pedo art, and most of all by the Milo thing. It’s still eating away at me. I’m trying to feel more comfortable within this community, because I love it deeply. I hope you can understand.