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A Magical Saturday ๐Ÿฅฉโœจ

Today is finally over. It was an incredible, wonderful day! Christopher and I are both so exhausted we can hardly move or think straight. We had a lovely time with our friend doing all sorts of fun things, but I don’t think what we were doing mattered that much, just that we were together.

We really missed the sorts of days we’ve been having. I think we both thought at times maybe days like these were gone permanently. And, the exact way these days used to be, is in fact gone. Things change, those are memories. But I think these are even happier days and happier memories. I want to make so many more.

My day was off to a good start right from the get-go. I took my walk and came across a squirrel friend who had a big nut:

After my walk I did all my chores and changed into the outfit I prepared for today. I felt pretty cute in it.

Then I played Legend of Mana and worked on today’s warm-up while we waited for our friend to arrive to spend the day with us. Christopher also showed me a bunch of fun YouTube videos and we enjoyed that little time together.

Finally our friend was there and we headed out to a train store I’d long wanted to take Christopher to, but it was shut down for COVID until recently. I brought Heidi along today!

The train place certainly was fun, I took a lot of pictures:

They had a bunch of Thomas items but no Thomas Wood or Thomas Wooden Railway. However, these O-Gauge of James made my heart leap. I wish I could have bought either of them, I just love James so much.

But, I’ll always have my little wooden James, the first train Christopher ever bought me, on our outing to the train museum, and he will always be very special to me.

After the train store, our friend took us to a French place he knew well. It had a lovely atmosphere and the food was amazing (in particular, the cheese plate we started with) but service was rather poor. They were having a party, and it slowed things down to the point that we didn’t get our cheese plate until the 35 minute mark, maybe longer? And our main meal 15 minutes after that or so. We were so desperately hungry by then.

I forget what I ate… some sort of crรฉpe. It was good and that’s all that matters.

After this, we went to the house to hang out a little. Christopher napped while we checked the needed ingredients for dinner. Then we woke him up and dragged him out with us to shop for what we were missing.

I helped my best with dinner, while Christopher and our friend took care of the meat –the hard part– and some other stuff. I prepared rice (poorly, Christopher had to save it) and made pretty good chimichurri.

The picaรฑa was amazing:

Here it is served with the rice and beans:

And a final photo of it by itself (no Heidi) for good measure. It was so good, I can’t post just one!

I am WAY too full. But, my heart is also full. I feel so loved and looked after, and so happy. In a little bit I’m gonna be watching anime with Christopher while we cuddle, and then I’ll be falling asleep with these warm happy feelings. Tomorrow I’ll wake up full of energy and start the day with my walk… then the lawn… then some art. It’s a good life lately.

Pumpkin Drinks Are Back, But I Might Be Done…

Starbucks pumpkin drinks are back, so I had my first one of the seasonโ€ฆ Got a Pumpkin Cream Cold Brew. Sadly, it was almost totally flavorless. ๐Ÿ˜ž

Iโ€™m not sure why I still try. I hadnโ€™t had Starbucks in months for this reasonโ€ฆ There are three locations near me, and they all botch simple drinks (no special requests/mods) every time. My husbandโ€™s too.

It didnโ€™t use to be this wayโ€ฆ in particular when the newest one opened it could be counted on to make perfect drinks. Then it steadily declined. And no one wants to be a Karenโ€ฆ so Iโ€™ll often trash my full $6 drink, a rare treat, rather than complain to a tired barista. ๐Ÿ˜ข The times I have asked for it to be fixed or remade were when I was with someone else who would have felt uncomfortable if I simply stared at my drink and didn’t drink while they did.

And you may say, “well donโ€™t buy overpriced Starbucks at all then” but I don’t go there for the good “coffee”. The chain has been a steady presence in my life where many important memories were formed & parts of my books written. Sometimes I just want to go back, and enjoy a syrupy drink… it shouldn’t be so hard when I never ask for any modifications to them.

I still sometimes have the occasional perfect (or, you know, just moderately enjoyable) drink, but it’s so rare. I had already gone from “Starbucks through the year” to “Starbucks only at Fall & Christmas” (because those drinks seemed impossible to screw up) and now… it may be just “Starbucks at Christmas”.

Until that gets botched too. Lol. I dunno. I may give a PSL one last try. I’m just bummed, man.

Mwakoโ€™s โ€™21 Visit ๐Ÿฆ Day Three

๐Ÿ–๏ธ At The Beach ๐Ÿ–๏ธ

I think today was my most favorite day of Mwako’s visit! It was definitely our “Littlest” day. We went to the beach and played lots of Littlespace games later that day back at my house.

We were up very early and off to Target to get some beach toys since I didn’t have any. Mwako got me a bucket, some scoops and a saxophone playing parasaurolophus!

I wore my Wen swimsuit, which I love to pieces still, and my new Toy Story Land hat that I got during the last Orlando trip. ๐Ÿ˜

Mwako took lots of photos of some –some candid, some I posed for. I think these might be the only photos of me at a beach ever.

There was a lot of seaweed, and I didn’t want to go into the water because it required wading past it. So Mwako basically dragged me screaming into the sea, I wish I was joking. ๐Ÿคฆโ€โ™€๏ธ Then I clung on to him like a barnacle, and didn’t want to go back into the beach because of wading into the seaweed again. There was SO MUCH of it.

While we played in the water, a vehicle came and swept a lot of the seaweed on the beach away (or rather, “tilled” it into the sand). So at that point we went back to play on the nice clean beach.

My large blue bucket was quite unmanageable. I wasn’t able to make a big castle with it, I guess the sand was the problem. Being full of seaweed, it easily fell apart. But I was able to make a few small structures! A tiny city of sorts.

My parasaurolophus simply stood by playing an ominous tune on his sax.

Eventually the village was done! It even had bushes for decoration. A peaceful neighborhood, for the time being.

Mwako doesn’t really like his picture taken, but he approved of me taking this one from far away. He is looking for seashells for me to decorate my houses with.

All of these beautiful beach photos were taken by Mwako.

Of course, I had to “enhance” them with stickers… ๐Ÿ˜ฌ

Here’s a couple more he took of me:

At this point my sax-playing parasaurolophus decided it was time to give in to his dinosaur instincts and destroy the town.

Just like that the poor entire town is gone. For some reason, after this I felt very satisfied, and just sat staring out at the sea in contemplation.

…before sentencing my parasaurolophus to be drowned when the tide came in as penance for the wanton destruction:

(In the end he got lucky, we had to leave before the tide came in. He lives to destroy again!)

๐Ÿฃ๐ŸŒˆ Littlespace Time ๐ŸŒˆ๐Ÿฃ

After the beach, we went to a McDonald’s Drive-Thru and it was the perfect hour: they had Sausage Egg McMuffins AND fresh fries! I had one of the most delicious breakfasts in months. Then we got back to my place, showered, and feeling quite refreshed, began our Little time!

At Mwako’s suggestion, we watched The Owl House, a show I am new to. I liked it a lot! Here is Mwako’s play area with the big crayons:

Mwako colored very, very fast. One could hardly keep up with him!

I just colored one drawing, of Cookie Monster with… err… a neighbor? Cousin?

I basically finished, but want to add some more details later:

I also started on a new squirrel page:

Multiple Owl House episodes later, our wrists hurt and we needed a snack, so we headed downstairs.

๐Ÿฟ Intermission ๐Ÿฟ

For a snack, I had coffee and a chocolate rice krispie treat! Mwako had juice and Lunchables.

๐Ÿงฉ Time For Games ๐Ÿงฉ

Next was board games! We played Bluey’s Shadowlands.

The physical execution of this fame is atrocious, lol. I can’t recommend buying it. It’s a cool concept, however it is very poorly done. Materials wise, I mean. Mostly it’s the palm tree mechanism that is a problem. But the game looks nice.

Still –we had fun with it. Mwako won!

๐ŸŒˆ Waffle Block Fun ๐ŸŒˆ

I love waffle blocks so much! They are my favorite type of block by far. We had so much fun with them. I made a little house! The house had windows, a path, a fence, a lawn chair, a satellite dish and two bushes.

Mwako made two things. The first was an Evil Lair Of Liony Doom (my name). I took many photos because I thought it was extremely cool.

He also made a cat carrier, with a handle and all:

Of course, we had to have the cats try it…

Elliot had regrets.

Rosie’s opinion was similar:

At this point Christopher was getting home so we put the toys away, and once he arrived, we went to our anticipated ramen dinner.

๐Ÿœ Hi-Pot Dinner ๐Ÿœ

Hi-Pot is one of our favorite restaurants and we were happy to introduce Mwako to it. We hadn’t had it in a long time and it was as good as ever.

Since I don’t often get to go out these days, I changed all over again just to go out to dinner:

As I was setting the alarm when we left, I noticed the sun on the Ring camera and it looked pretty so I took a capture:

I had… OMG… I had too many eggs. Christopher gave me his egg in exchange for my meat. I also ordered a side order of egg thinking it would be one egg but it was two. It was a massive amount of delicious eggs.

After we got home I almost went straight to bed, just kinda crashed, I was so happy and so full. Mwako leaves tomorrow… I will miss him lots. And I’ll back to work, work work! ๐Ÿ˜ซ

IKEA Outing ๐Ÿ’›๐Ÿ’™โœจ

Hi hi, everyone! ๐Ÿ‘‹ Yesterday was pretty fun. After breakfast, some house chores and yard work, Christopher and I picked up our friend and the three of us went to IKEA. I brought Anise with me and put together a new outfit!

We had swedish meatballs and such for lunch and then walked around. I found some wild snail art on a fridge!

My main goal for this outing was to measure some bunk beds, see them in person, and decide which one I’m going to put in my studio. In the end, I settled for this one:

The upper area will be mostly for my stuffed animals, except in cases where I really need to have someone there. But that will not be its primary purpose. Anyway, it was out of stock, which I expected. It should be coming back later this month.

Totally unrelated but one of the Bluey showrunners or something (verified account) liked one of my tweets with a Bluey plush and a freaking ODU ONESIE on it and I had a moment of both glee and utter panic:

I was happy and also had an urge to block him out of sheer panic. It was like โ€œHe noticed me!!โ€ ๐Ÿ˜€ โ€œNOOO PLEASE DON’T NOTICE MY CRINGEโ€ ๐Ÿ˜ฑ

Anyhow, that’s it for today. I did also gets plenty more commission progress done. Hopefully my goals of posting all overdue work this week can be reached! Goodnight, everyone.

National Squelfpoon’s Vacation: 6/27 – 7/4 ๐ŸŽข๐ŸŒˆ

Alrighty! Here’s the summary of the rest of the week. I’ve separated each day in sections while including everything in a single post. It doesn’t include the couple of days I already blogged about, so this is from Sunday 27th and onwards.

Looking at it all, photos, etc, it really should have been more enjoyable for me… It was a trip full of fun things after all… I wonder if I would have had a much better time were it not for my period, which came on the third morning. Then again, Christopher believes stress triggers my periods to come early, because they always seem to come when I’m anxious or stressed out. So it was this time. ๐Ÿ˜ž

(CW for fairly detailed period related talk below.)

I don’t know though. Last 3-4 months my period has been slightly abnormal. It’s regular, but comes on very suddenly –no physical warning other than bad mood, and it’s like BAM it’s there ๐Ÿ˜ณ without the usual mild few days of spotting. It also leaves very suddenly, whereas it used to be gradual.

This time felt so sudden that I got scared and thought something else entirely was happening to me, like, something serious. But no. ๐Ÿคทโ€โ™€๏ธ Well, who knows. ๐Ÿ˜… I really do have to go see my gynecologist this month so I can be properly examined and make sure everything is okay. ๐Ÿค”

BTW, PLEASE DO NOT TRY TO DIAGNOSE ME OR GIVE SUGGESTIONS ABOUT WHAT MAY OR MAY NOT BE GOING ON WITH MY BODY –not even in the form of shared personal experiences. It feels presumptuous and makes me super anxious. Just don’t, okay.

(Period talk ends here.)

๐ŸŽฅ Disney Hollywood Studios ๐ŸŽฅ

Sunday, June 27th

We were up early on Sunday. Got to have McDonald’s which was a nice start to the day. Now all of this was several days ago so I don’t really remember everything… ๐Ÿค” The ride to Orlando was okay. We went to Disney Hollywood Studios, which, you know ๐Ÿคทโ€โ™€๏ธ I don’t do rides, so… I wasn’t exactly excited.

Ultimately, this day wasn’t too bad, it was one of the better ones. I did a bit of shopping, went on more rides than I normally would, including Star Wars: Rise Of The Resistance in Galaxy’s Edge. That was EPIC. Also, terrifying. Mostly because I’m scared of Stormtroopers, and Christopher basically pushed me towards them, I can’t imagine another ride where it feels so much like you are literally inside a movie. I wish everyone who is into Star Wars could experience it, I want to go again.

If you don’t mind the ride being spoiled for you, here’s a sort of rundown of it (the GIF above is borrowed from that Buzzfeed article.)

My interest in Star Wars was always just kinda mildly there, but not fanatically so, however the stuff I experienced in Galaxy’s Edge has me wanting to rewatch all the movies.

Honestly… part of why I’ve always been “eh” about Star Wars is that The Phantom Menace is my favorite movie, because it was my intro to the franchise maybe, and when you’re talking to other fans that’s just kind of a non-starter? People either are disgusted at your taste or make fun of you, so… I gravitated towards Star Trek instead. ๐Ÿ˜… But maybe I’ll stop holding back.

Lunch was interesting. They had a “lobster” roll, with quotes on the menu, because it was vegetarian:

The “lobster” was a hearts of palm salad. I love hearts of palm, and I did love this meal.

Everyone else had burgers, chicken nuggets and hot dogs. Here is my mom-in-law and (Christopher’s) Grandma during lunch:

I took video of the entire lightsaber-building experience of my sis-in-law and another family member, Brayden, who is kind of Christopher’s nephew, I think? It was really cool:

Here’s the video, in two parts because I had to stop in the middle of recording to do I forget what:

Made a GIF of this part because it was โœจ SO COOL โœจ:

Truly the entirety of Galaxy’s Edge was awesome and I really wish I had not been in such a foul mood. I would like to go again when I’m not feeling like that. I got on Star Tours too, though that was technically outside of Galaxy’s Edge. I liked it.

Other than that, I did end up getting on a number of other attractions and rides. It’s ironic because when I look back it was not a bad time at all. I think it was the knowledge of the immensely packed schedule ahead, the fact that I was still-reeling from the heartbreak of the original canceled plans, and my impending period, that made actually enjoying it so difficult. But, I’m really glad for the things I enjoyed, particularly the Star Wars parts.

๐Ÿฆ Animal Kingdom ๐Ÿฆ

Monday, June 28th

The next day was Animal Kingdom. I brought my iPad on this day to draw a little more during the queues, and really did try to be in a happier mood. Still, I failed at times, but I think my mood was better on a chunk of this day than on any of the other days.

We went on a Kilimanjaro Safari first thing. Got great seats. I was excited to see baobab trees, but it turns out they are fake. I didn’t know that until we got home. Apparently they used to have a single real baobab tree several years ago, but it died during a cold winter.

I didn’t take photos of the animals but there certainly were many about, as it was early in the morning and they were feeding.

At some point in the afternoon, the biggest highlight of the entire week happened for me: I won a beautiful stuffed animal at a game of chance in Dinoland. This was a big deal for three reasons:

  • The stuffed animal I wanted was the biggest prize in any stall (well, one of two options, but it was the hardest to win.) It wasn’t even available on every stall, just two.
  • The game I tried my hand at was ridiculously hard, with a minuscule chance of winning this specific toy.
  • I never win at these games –ever. So I never try, because I end up crushed and frustrated every time.

I’ll go into more detail about this down below on a different segment since I don’t have photos of this stuffed animal from this specific day. My long-suffering family, already dealing with my shit mood, patiently sat in the baking heat for about an hour until I got my prize. I really don’t deserve them.

I did lots of window shopping while at Animal Kingdom. We went on two rides in Pandora: Na’vi River Journey and Avatar: Flight of Passage. Both were stunning, the latter certainly scared me a good bit but it was incredible. Here’s a POV video someone else took of this ride:

You have to realize this envelops you completely unless you look behind you really craning your neck (which I did a few times to stop myself from pissing my pants) so it REALLY feels like you’re flying. It’s hard to convince your brain that you’re not, and it’s really hard if you’re afraid of heights as I am. But I loved it anyways. The River Journey was also unbelievably gorgeous, with really impressive effects.

On the way out, I ran by the Rainforest Cafe gift shop and bought some baby dinosaurs. Then we went to dinner and finally back to the hotel.

๐Ÿ‘ Savannah, GA – Day One ๐Ÿ‘

Tuesday, June 29th

I don’t remember we did during the morning… I do recall that the afternoon train was more or less on time, and I got to sit with Christopher and had a window seat, so other than my period making me kind of miserable, it was an enjoyable ride. The photo below was taken early-ish during the ride, just past 2:00pm. It was a little over five hours to Savannah.

Truly, I don’t know what delayed us so much, because I know we went from the train station to the hotel, and even as we got there we were desperate to get some food and everything was closing. The photo below was taken at like, 10:30pm, and we’d gotten our food maybe 15 minutes before that at a “hole in the wall” burger place that was literally called “Hole In The Wall”. We were all exhausted.

Went I went back to get a milkshake by myself, the lovely owner of the Hole In The Wall high-fived me over my Pride wallet and wished me a happy Pride Month. Told me about her husband, who came out to her as bisexual, and a few other related things. I told her a little about me, too. I wished I could have talked with her longer. She was so nice, and it was a rare moment of validation for me.

Here are some photos I took of that area, while everyone else ate:

After we got back to the hotel, I settled down to keep reading the first volume of The Hagwood Trilogy with my new iguanodon friend, Femur:

I first saw this guy at the gift shop in the Dinosaur dark ride in Animal Kingdom, under a display case. To my utter dismay, he could not be purchased. I was directed to where I could win him in a game of chance. Normally, this is a non-starter for me. As I mentioned earlier, I just do not do well at these games, and I do not take it well when I lose. But I wanted him too badly, and against my better judgement, decided to try.

Now, to give you an idea of how hard he was to win, see this article and scroll down to the Comet Crashers game. As you will notice, only very few cups have colors. All the ones without colors are losers. Of the cups with colors, I only saw two that were yellow –meaning, the biggest prize, the one I wanted so badly. One at each end. To make it worse, the spots were the third from the front in both cases –near impossibly difficult to get into as they were so close to the edges. Just going by number of slots, according to a redditor who calculated it, it’s roughly a 9% chance of winning.

I used multiple tickets, buying $35.00 worth of them from the get-go, really sure that I would not win him, or that I would win some stupid Mickey or Minnie toy. I just felt I had to try. And win him I did –on my fourth attempt. I remember my utter disbelief. I could have cried! I held him close for the rest of that day, and hugged him every night of the remainder of our trip, even gave him one of my bandanas to wear.

Anyway, with a cuddle from Femur and my book, that was the end of the first night in Savannah –we didn’t do anything but dinner.

๐Ÿ‘ Savannah, GA – Day Two ๐Ÿ‘

Wednesday, June 30th

Ok, so… by this day I was so exhausted, I’d count the rest of the days and just, inwardly cry. Also, Savannah is pretty and all, but a 1 hour trolley tour and a 1 hour boat tour are NOT worth 10+ hours on a train and dealing with a hotel room for two nights, not to me, anyway. Especially not being able to be alone with my husband (or by myself) quietly, at all, at no point (though at the end of this day I really stopped giving a flip and excused myself to be alone, which cost me one of the nicer meals of the trip. I ended up getting UberEats.)

I really would have enjoyed it WAY more if I hadn’t just been to two Disney parks, two different hotel rooms and five + hours on a train AND if I had been able to, you know, walk around and enjoy it which we couldn’t do, unfortunately, because it is not easy for Grandma to get around. From the trolley tour we were told of so many wonderful places to visit, but we couldn’t visit any of them. That made me really sad.

Below are some photos of the trolley tour. The houses were very pretty, but these are the only photos I got, literally nothing special at all in them.

We almost didn’t make it in time for the boat ride, but we did get on.

This was one of the times I excused myself from the family for a long period. They wanted to be inside in the AC which to me felt like a total waste of being on that boat in the first place. I wanted to look at the river, so I spent the entire hour standing, and watching, even when it rained on me a little.

The sun was blistering, but if you stood at the right end of the boat you could feel the wind in your face, at it was refreshing.

It was after this that everyone went to dinner and I just couldn’t force myself to leave the hotel room again. I showered, got some Japanese food ordered to the room, and finished reading my book with Beanie.

This book would also be a highlight of my trip, it was incredible, my favorite of Robin Jarvis’ books so far.

๐Ÿš‚ Intermission ๐Ÿš‚

Thursday, July 1st

And now we come to my lowest point. By 5:30am we were at the train station. I’d run out of painkillers, and of coffee. I was just a bundle of pain and misery, with a bumpy and painful train ride and like, four more days of not being home to look forward to.

At least, I told myself, I’ll be sitting next to Christopher, the seats are fairly comfortable, I can just put my head on his shoulder and I will feel better. Every moment I had alone with Christopher would raise up my HP by a few points, so I was eagerly looking forward to our “alone” time on the train, even in as much physical pain as I was.

Well… we ended up in the cafe car, four to a table, which doesn’t even have full-back seats (so you can’t sleep) and this would have been temporary, but my mom-in-law wanted to play cards or something and asked if we could be left there for the full FIVE HOURS. At this point I just lost my shit so much that I hid my head for a while and cried, there was nowhere for me to go.

Eventually I asked to be moved; it meant not being with Christopher, but I physically could not take the ride otherwise. I was moved to sit with a stranger, on an aisle seat. I begged to be moved to a window seat and eventually was moved to this…

It was kind of hilarious at this point, but at least I could lay against the side and try to sleep my pain away. But I was so lonely and miserable without Christopher. I felt that I hated everything, the train, the entire trip, just everything, but more than anything, by far, myself –for not being happy, for not handling well being tired and in pain the way everyone else did, for crying, for just being the way I am. I really wish I could be someone else, someone pleasant and easygoing, someone not selfish or whiny.

Though I don’t think my family would believe this, I really do fight against these sides of me constantly, but they are so bad, that none of that effort is noticeable. When my unpleasantness shows, it’s because my effort is finally cracking. I feel so much guilt for being the way I am. It really was the worst moment of all.

I felt better when we reached the train station. We went to Olive Garden for dinner and it was lovely. I felt my spirits lifting a tad.

Maybe that was just being next to Christopher again. He truly is the one single person in this world who doesn’t drain my energy, but replenishes it. Literally the only one. Just by being there. My appreciation and love for him was increased by the experience of this trip.

Later we just relaxed in the room, watched TV, I had some sweets and worked on this illustration which I’d also been working on during the train ride:

It’s a two-page spread for Meganeea featuring young Gideon, as well as the new chapter banner, since things have entered a new stage story-wise, the banner of little Faahvrigรผo is a tad outdated.

That marked the end of the day.

๐Ÿฐ Disney Springs / Florida Mall ๐Ÿฐ

Friday, July 2st – Saturday, July 3rd

Friday it was just Grandma and me. While everyone else went to Universal, we went to Disney Springs (Downtown Disney). Our Uber was really something, I appreciated this guy’s passion:

I wanted to get a photo of the outside of the car but it was raining and I had to make sure Grandma stayed dry and didn’t slip.

At one point I saw this huge canvas print –while it is not my style, I know Christopher would have loved it. It’s a dream of his, to have a print like this, by this artist, of this character. It was $500, and if I had had the funds on hand I would not have hesitated. It broke my heart to not get it for him. But I got him a $10 magnet of the same image. ๐Ÿ˜…

I had to get a photo of Stitch. Always makes me think of Christopher and of Mwako.

The next day we went to Florida Mall, this time it was me, Grandma and my mom-in-law while everyone else went to Universal again. I mostly ran off on my own. The Florida Mall gives me funny feelings because it’s where I had my biggest “Shit! I’m kind of gay I guess!!” moment, and it was so intense that just walking by the spot where it happened I have to take a moment, and just stop. It was like a lightning bolt at the time. Very bittersweet even to this day.

We were supposed to go home the next day, but one of our petsitters left the back door open, plus I ran out of pads, plus I ran out of epilepsy meds, and between one thing and another, we drove home one day early. My joy knew no bounds! ๐Ÿ˜ญโœจ๐Ÿ’–

โœจ My Vacation Haul โœจ

I… did a lot of shopping… well… what can I say, it kept me sane. ๐Ÿคทโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿ’ง

I already showed off Femur, so I’ll proceed to the next thing I absolutely loved and which rekindled my desire to scrapbook. A beautiful book-bound journal from a delightfully cringy favorite of mine:

The cover looks a lot like the original featured in the movie:

Another favorite find was a Mandalorian pencil case with adorable stationary –this was my souvenir from Grandma, she insisted we all pick one:

Third favorite find was also Mandalorian related, another journal, smaller than the first but no less luxurious:

Those are my most favorite things (well, minus a MAJOR one, but it’s my birthday present, so I guess I won’t show it here yet, since I’m not allowed to touch it until then.) Here’s everything else:

(I think this is the first time I’ve found something with my name at a store!)

And that’s it. That’s my vacation. Made a few good memories, still would have rather stayed home. Divided into three or even two trips, everything we did would have been far more enjoyable and less utterly exhausting. I’m still in so much pain just from sheer exhaustion. Definitely would have been without my period and without the massive disappointment of the cancellation hanging over, but it is what it is… at least I am home and I’m so grateful for that.

Now, back to work!

All Done Packing! ๐Ÿงณ๐Ÿงธ๐ŸŒˆ

Good morning everyone! Packing to spend an entire WEEK away from home is not easy… especially because I want to bring eight outfits (and I mean “Little” outfits, so, a lot of bulky overalls, accessories, etc including THREE pairs of shoes and three face masks to be able to match properly), eight nightshirts (I really don’t want to deal with laundry), basic toiletries (including necessities in case I should get my period), Franklin and Beanie (I will carry Beanie most of the trip), a blanket and neck pillow (there is not just the flights but so… so much driving… hours and hours… I want to be comfortable), my Nintendo Switch, my iPad, a book to read, and some snacks.

I think that’s it…It took effort and very careful sorting of everything into little packing bags, but everything fit quite comfortably. Considering how I normally pack for even a weekend trip, the fact that I went all out just to see how close I could get to actually bringing everything I wanted, and the fact that I am bringing TWO bears (since Franklin absolutely HAS to come to Vermont Teddy Bear factory) I really did kind of, well, amazing. This is all I’m bringing:

Franklin is snug inside, waiting for his special day:

Franklin has a lot of bittersweet memories attached to him. But ultimately I cling to all the good ones. Franklin was a very special birthday present special-ordered for me on July 16, 2011. That means on Franklin’s next birthday he will be ten years old. That’s kinda nuts.

I always wanted to bring Franklin back to his birthplace, Vermont Teddy Bear Factory, where he was made. I wonder if anyone will remember him. Franklin was well known by VTB staff at one point, and once, when his head came off (yes, really!) he even went to the hospital, and they sent me a photo of him in a gourney attached to a honey IV drip:

Post-op:

Realistically though… I doubt anyone at VTB will remember Franklin. Laura is no longer there, and in general, things do not seem to be the same at that factory and I believe they haven’t been since their “Crazy For You” bear gaffe that caused people at the company to even resign. But I still am excited to check this off my bucket list.

Speaking of excitement, I’m starting to allow that to happen. Our vacations have been repeatedly canceled due to COVID, so, it’s hard to get excited anymore, but slowly it’s happening in spite of myself. ๐Ÿ˜…

I’m insanely busy every day, working on commissions, doing last-minute adjustments to my packing, making sure the animals are ready… it goes on and on. Yesterday I went quickly on an outing to get snacks, the tiniest umbrella I could find, and a luggage tag. I ended up snagging a few other goodies I ran into:

This one was especially neat, for sure:

Also, those bandanas are incredible. I gave one to Bizcocho and the other one to Franklin. ๐Ÿ˜Š

Ok, I have to do some chores, get something to eat, get art done. Off I go!

Unicorn Chaser ๐Ÿฆ„ ๐Ÿ’จ

Letโ€™s like… just… talk about other stuff for a while, yeah? I can only take this other stuff for so long. So let me share a few happy things.

The other day I went to the craft store and got some ribbon and beads and fabric and similar things. I’ve been determined to make some of my newer (and older, neglected) stuffies their own bandanas and name necklaces.

Here is Raisin, holding the haul and eagerly awaiting his own goodies to be made:

The fabric bundle was really cute:

One of the older stuffies who got pimped out is Frito. Frito has survived several purges and sat in my “donation” pile three times. I can never bear to let him go. After he survived the third purge, I decided it was time to make him a name necklace and dress him up:

Frito is actually a very funny and expressive Folkmanis puppet.

Churrasco also got a name necklace, finally:

And my new stuffed little t-rex, now named Gao, got a name necklace and a bandana that I made for him myself:

Beanie got kind of revamped. He gave up his massive rainbow bow for an oversized sweater, cute bandana and new ribbon:

Along with veteran Franklin, Beanie will be coming along with me on the upcoming New England trip.

It is indeed very rare for me to travel with two bears (a first) as well as Franklin’s first trip in many years. Franklin is basically retired these days. However, we will be going to the Vermont Teddy Bear Factory where Franklin was born –I cannot visit that place with anyone but Franklin.

And then of course there is Raisin. He’s very happy with his new getup:

Everyone will be getting hats soon. I got them from AliExpress so that will take a few weeks to arrive.

I have other stuffies who have gotten a bandana here or a ribbon there but these are the most significant changes.

I also made a little cover for my laminator which always gets dusty:

And that’s it. Just some happy stuff to chase away some of these clouds. I’m gonna get some chores done and then work on another commission.

Hi-Pot For Date Night ๐Ÿœ๐Ÿ’•

It’s date night! We went out to dinner tonight. This was my outfit for the day:

We went to Hi-Pot, though we just had ramen as we usually do. I give Christopher my meat and he gives me his egg. It’s a good trade. I had milk tea with boba, too, and brought Cerise along:

Afterwards we walked around a little, went to Gamestop. Christopher got Cadence of Hyrule: Crypt Of The NecroDancer for Switch and I watched him play that for a while while working on art. It was a pretty chill date night but we enjoyed ourselves.

Trying To Catch Up ๐Ÿ˜ช

Man, oh man… Commissions are delayed, and events/important stuff/trips just keep coming my way. My mom’s immigration process is taking a lot of work. Even with all this going on, I’ve started to make an effort to do some things that are meaningful to me daily, because otherwise I’m not enjoying my days… ๐Ÿ˜ž

I exercised plenty yesterday and today, did some more book outlining yesterday, made a good dinner too, and finished the first volume of The Rose Of Versailles. It’s definitely helping keep my spirits up and, of course, I also got a lot of commission work done, both yesterday and today, so at least there is progress.

Our date night was on the lazy side. We are both very tired. We had Publix chicken and watched TV, and that was a-ok. Sometimes, the simplest things can bring a lot of joy.

We also did a lot of deep conversing, which does not happen super often but I always enjoy. It invariably makes me feel closer to him and cements the bond we have. In a world where there is such little nuance, it really makes me happy to have someone with whom I can have serious conversations with –be it about religion, politics or other heavy topics, in a happy and calm manner. Even when we disagreed more than now, we still could talk about such things pleasantly.

Anyway, yesterday I went grocery shopping. In all our local stores, patriotic spirits are high!

That aside, our new goose, named Beetlegoose, arrived! The front of the house is definitely looking… well, let’s just say it rather matches the inside and the porch now:

Looking snazzy in his clown getup:

Christopher’s reaction was a mix of shock and resignation, bless him.

Motherโ€™s Day Weekend In Sebastian ๐ŸŒˆ ๐Ÿงธ

Hello everyone! I hope this post finds you well. First of all I want to apologize for the inactivity –I am finally home again, and I am feeling better. Just very tired.

Though commissions are still a tad delayed, I was able to finish the warm-ups, and will be posting them shortly. I also got progress underway on three more pieces. I really appreciate everyoneโ€™s patience.

We had a nice time with family. My mom in law has a new fish. It is called a Plecostomus or simply Pleco. Itโ€™s the type of fish that suctions onto the glass with its mouth a lot of the time. Heโ€™s really cute and I love him. Heโ€™s big, too. I got a couple of photos of him just lounging.

One of the kids at my mom in lawโ€™s school made these play-doh snails when she told him I liked snails. Didnโ€™t he do an amazing job? I love them!

I brought my new bear, Beanie, on this trip, and cuddled him to sleep…

In the morning, Beanie and I had breakfast together.

My mom in lawโ€™s fluffy cat Spaz came to me for cuddles. Heโ€™s such a softie!

After breakfast we left for Renningers Flea and Farmers Market. Beanie looked out the window all the way.

At Renningers I bought some books, a handbag, a huge snail magnet and a couple of mousepads –one for me and one for my sis in law. Here’s my haul:

Afterwards we had dinner at Makoto’s and then played cards in the evening. I tried to sneak in drawing whenever I could, so I didn’t play cards all the time, but it was nice spending time with family even when I was working.

Grandma didn’t spend much time with us while we were playing. She fell asleep on the couch. I think she fell asleep praying… it was really cute.

Before bed we played a few rounds of Trivia Murder Party and I won once.

Now I’m going to post some art, finish unpacking and then get more art done. I hope you enjoyed your Mother’s day weekend!