We made it to the middle of the week again! Today was okay. As all the other previous days, it has its ups and downs. I’m trying my best to stay cheerful, and work really hard. Every passing day feels like a little accomplishment.
I do think my posts are kind of boring lately. I’m sorry for that. Maybe I should not post daily when I don’t have anything interesting to say, but it’s a form of self care I suppose, so I try not to skip it.
And I really don’t have anything interesting today. I do have a colorful photo of my lunch:
And a couple of Tomoyo just being cute, laying on my lap and refusing to leave:
Her asthma has been troublesome the last few days, so I’m doing my best taking care of her, too.
My mood isn’t all that bad. But I have been struggling with arm pain and headaches. Before the end of the weekend I hope to have all the commissions I’m currently working on, posted (a total of five). I also did a little gift art for Christopher today which I will post later. 💕
I guess I feel a bit better now. 😒 It’s mildly infuriating to have emotions that are so easy to upset and, conversely, so stupidly easy to please. Hormones do make it worse, but still, it’s problematic. Sometimes I feel like I’m too simple when it comes to some things, and it’s annoying.
Why can’t I be aloof and blasé like other people? 😩 I guess I just am what I am, though, and I can’t help that. Anyway… here’s a beautiful sky from today’s morning walk:
I’m at my mom’s now, getting commissions done, eating good things, and just relaxing. When I got here my mom had the usual little snacking spread…
And she made me one of my favorite foods for dinner:
I’ll be gaming a bit here and there, but really mostly working. I’m not sure that I’ll go for any walk tomorrow. I’d like to, but I don’t enjoy walks around my mom’s place as much. So we will see how I feel in the morning.
Before I sign off, here’s some Tomoyo:
I’m very sleepy… last night was bad, but I think tonight me and my simple brain will sleep much better. 🙄 I swear it feels sometimes as though I can only process like, two emotions. This is probably why I find snails so appealing, with their two neurons. Sigh.
I’ll post the fitness entry with a delay since the WordPress app hates tables. Goodnight all.
Good morning, everyone! 🌞 I’m writing this from the ✨ nice and clean ✨ back porch. 😊 I’m so glad I pushed through and did that! Now I’m waiting for Christopher to wake up so we can go garage saling today. Our good friend is too busy with work to join us, which has us both a little bummed, but we will have a good time all the same.
It’s a little cooler today. In an hour or two it will be hot as ever, but right now I’m outside and wearing a jacket, which really feels kind of amazing. October is halfway over… cooler weather is just around the corner for us, and really, it can’t come soon enough. I love being out here with the cats.
Plus, I can’t wait to take walks at other times of the day other than sunrise and sunset, you know, when the sun is actually out, without melting.
That aside, since I started tracking my periods again, now I know that I’m PMSing, which does explain my crappy mood the last day or so. It’s really helpful to realize that it’s going on, so I can see some things more objectively.
Art wise, I’m feeling very encouraged. I was sure there was no way that this month I could put the full $1,000 towards my mom’s fund, AND the $500 towards our house debt, because… well, this month I paid off my Amazon card, and it was at over $500 (in the last few months I had a bunch of not super smart purchases… games, clothes, and a lot in Christmas presents for this year –most of it before things went to heck for us).
BUT. I gave Christopher the $500 for the monthly debt, I paid off the $500+ of the Amazon card, AND I have $395 set aside for my mom’s move-in fund. If I make it to $500, I won’t feel like I failed (because the Amazon card is not a regular expense). But if I make it to $1,000… the full monthly amount… I’ll feel very triumphant indeed.
Anyway, Christopher’s awake so it’s time to finish getting ready. I’ll post again later today!
Yesterday was a hard day. It kinda started Tuesday night when we went to bed and noticed Kotoko hadn’t joined us as is her usual routine. She was hiding in an unusual little nook under my studio bed and looked quite unhappy.
This was coupled with her vomiting even on an empty stomach (white foam) over the last few days, something that intensified in the previous 24 hours, with her appetite quite reduced. Since she had some loose stool as well during this period, and because she is old, it all became very concerning. Her hiding like that from us was the most unusual part.
We hoped so much to avoid a vet appointment, because it was at a minimum a $300 expense that we could ill afford. But yesterday morning, it became clear that we had to go, as she continued to hide from us and throw up. I took this picture right as we were leaving for the vet. She behaved very well.
On the one hand, thanks to the appointment I confirmed her ears are okay, her spotty eye is fine, the lump on her back leg is fatty tissue, and her teeth are also okay. She was given medication to control the vomiting, which has helped (she didn’t vomit anymore since yesterday morning) and a bunch of blood work, the results of which we should have today.
But on the other hand, I was SO discouraged. It was so hard to raise this month’s $500 for this month’s debt to take some stress off Christopher’s plate. I was so proud –even though I still have to raise more before November. But after the vet bill, we were set back around $300 (there was an additional $25 for other items for her):
To have such an amount removed from all of my efforts this month nearly made me cry with frustration. I’m drawing all the time, trying my best to make things okay, but I can’t catch up like this. We received a significant amount of help yesterday but it had us over $200 in the hole still. So even this morning, I was really sad about that.
It was when I came back from my walk that I had Christopher check and realized just how much we received in donations (since I had them sent directly to his PayPal) and my mind was blown!!
The entire vet bill and additional meds were covered thanks to your generous donations! 😭 The $500 I made to put towards our house debt are once again, untouched. And, most importantly, Kotoko is feeling better. This photo is from the way back from the vet (I know, the photos are very similar) but even then, because of the fluids and anti-nausea meds, she was feeling better:
It took a while for the fluids to go into her (something for which they took her to the back) so I fooled around with the Jurassic World Alive app on my phone while we waited…
Anyway, I just want to reiterate how grateful I am, all I wanted was to not have this be such a painful hit for our finances, discouraging as it was, and in the end we received so much help that we didn’t have to lose the money saved for the debt. I am so grateful to everyone who donated!
To continue in regards to yesterday. When we got back home, though I was trying to stay cheerful for Christopher (who I could tell was doing the same) I felt really low. Christopher did his best to cheer me up, he treated me to Chipotle and Starbucks on the same day. But it took a while until I felt okay again.
At least though, I managed to push through my hated task of cleaning the porch. And boy, did I hate it. But it is done, and by the time night fell, I finally let the cats outside again, to their utter delight. They’re still there now, enjoying themselves:
I also planted more grass for them to eat while they are on the porch, something I know they miss a lot.
The place looks a good bit emptier with all that I’ve thrown away, but that’s fine. It looks clean. And since this was something that was angering and depressing me so much, I expect my mood to continue to improve today and over the weekend, every time I see it. 😊 I’m also gonna clean up the house a little bit, since I am considering having a party the weekend after this one. 🤔
During one of my cleaning breaks yesterday, while having my coffee, I read some of this book I got at the Swap Shop…
It’s very simple, but quite adorable. I like it because the stories are not about bears in general but about teddy bears specifically (as in, toys).
And that brings me to now! I’m having breakfast with Picaña as I work on this post.
Anyway, today I really need to catch up on artwork, as much as I can. Things are not delayed per the queue, but they are per my monetary personal goals. 😥 This week just kinda went to heck, though thanks to everyone’s support it is turning around again! 🎉
Good morning, everyone! I’m back from my mom’s once again and her immigration process continues to proceed smoothly. Now she has her ID so, that was a significant and happy moment.
I had a special dinner with a good friend last night and got to see the beach at night. It really was almost pitch black other than the far-off city lights, and if I had been alone I know I would have been quite scared, by the darkness and by the random people in there that you could hear but barely make out the shapes of in the corners. But feeling safe, it was really wonderful to experience that strange atmosphere for just a few minutes. I wish it had lasted longer.
Now I’m trying to get myself back in gear, do all my overdue chores today, get back to exercising (I skipped my morning walk so I’m hopefully gonna do a 10k walk this evening) and finish the background for the pumpkin carving YCH. I’m looking forward to Friday, and to an outing next Tuesday with Mandie and Shelly.
I’ve collected a number of random photos that fit nowhere, so here they are. First it’s Elliot, having taken residence upon my unmade bed:
Tomoyo decided the freshly laundered rugs made a better place to “fit”:
Here is a large iguana I saw on one of my walks:
And finally, snail stuff. Last Tuesday when I cleaned the snail tanks I decorated the glass of the bigger tank with Halloween window clings from Dollar Tree. I think it looks pretty cute!
And that’s it! Time to get things done. Hope you’re all enjoying your week!
Hello everyone! I hope you’re all having a nice day. It’s almost Fall –tomorrow! So I’ve already gone and updated the blog’s look. I also made myself a new icon, and I guess tomorrow I will clean house so I can decorate on Thursday. My friend Mandie is coming for a “Little” playdate on Saturday night so I want everything to look just right.
I’m sitting here taking a break from work while a lot of people work on our roof, which is being replaced. There’s kind of a nasty smell in the air from whatever they’re using. My little guard-cat isn’t very thrilled that they are so close to our special “hanging out together” area…
I’ve been very productive, both in art and around the house. Commissions are progressing nicely, I’ve also done personal art and a few gifts for Christopher, and even worked on my book. I’ve taken care of the snails and continued with my exercises. Here are some photos of today’s walk…
I’m PMSing now, so I’m in a bit of a “fragile” mood as always, and everything I feel, good and bad, is super intense. I’m trying to redirect my impatience and anxiousness into my exercise routine, and just, looking forward until I feel normal again. 😓
My Cubanitos are doing well. Here they are exploring and eating after their most recent tank clean:
My biggest Roman snail seems to be on the way out. Not much I can do for him at this point. I’ll miss him when he goes, he had an old crack on his shell that made him very recognizable. I really do love my snails. I know it seems strange or silly to people, but I do adore them for so many different reasons.
One is purely from a scientific observation angle. Another is my “Little” self that has always found them adorable. And, they are so vulnerable, yet ridiculous looking, in such an endearing way. I really do enjoy my little pets.
Speaking of my little pets… this is a very low quality photo, but it is just so sweet. Rosie fell asleep in a tiny box:
I’m going to post a bunch of art now, and then catch up on housework before I go and beat my feelings into the sidewalk. That means going for a long walk. 🚶♀️💦
Hi everyone! Today was a wonderful day. Just getting a lot done, we had a wonderful date night, and in general, little things here and there are just… making me very happy.
To begin with, here’s a morning photo of Tomoyo and Elliot creepily staring me down. They held their pose and stare for several minutes, it was rather unnerving:
Then I have a daily owl from today’s walk:
I published a new chapter of Meganeea today, with three illustrations. You can read it here if you would like. 😊
In the afternoon I played Legend Of Mana for a little while. A while after that I had a big burst of energy/emotions for… reasons, that I desperately needed to walk off 🙈 so I took my second walk in spite of this insanity:
When I got back, Christopher was home. I was able to coax him into having a date night dinner out. So I put a new outfit together (parts of it are new) and I brought Vanilla Bean with me. We went to the Village Tavern.
I took this photo of Vanilla Bean in the car but she ended up looking kind of wonky. This also distracted me into not putting my seatbelt on until a few streets later. I’m not sure why, I’ve been forgetting that once in a while. I’m paranoid about wearing a seatbelt, so it’s weird.
Our wait wasn’t very long. I took this selfie of us while our table was being readied. I hope we can take photos like these without masks soon…
I felt like celebrating tonight, so I got a chocolate martini. Vanilla Bean had a sip too:
Rather horrifyingly for a $120+ teddy, she got some chocolate on her paw in the process. Thankfully it was easily wiped off! Well… ultimately I want to enjoy my stuffies, and take them on adventures, so the odd stain or such is not the end of the world if it happens. It’s just life.
I should say, this drink always does a number on me. I’d have to drink four glasses of wine to get as plastered as this one drink gets me, I don’t know why. Christopher says there’s vodka in it, which I never drink, so I guess that would explain a lot.
Needless to say I was absolutely obnoxious the entire evening, and yet in my drunken state managed to beat him at two rounds of Tetris. By the end of our game time, however, the pieces seemed to be going all in the opposite directions I wanted them to go. The connection between my hands and my brain was quite fuzzy. But I didn’t care, it was so much fun.
Tomorrow should be fun too. Goodnight, everyone! 😊
Today was so, so lovely. This entire weekend was. There’s a healing quality to certain days, that leave you feeling like you can do anything, and that life is really worth living. I feel that way right now.
This morning I took a different route on my walk. It’s kinda bland. Tomorrow I may do my usual one. It’s nice to do something different though, so, since I do two walks a day, I may do this one in the morning and the other one in the evening. I took a couple of photos during this walk…
Here’s a squirrel I met! He had a nut. Or maybe it was a kernel of popcorn? Either way he was obviously protective of his loot:
After my walk, I sat with Christopher while he had breakfast. We watched a movie (we’re getting through all of the Jurassic Park/Jurassic World movies). I took this photo of him because Kotoko and Tomoyo were waiting for him to finish his cereal so they could drink his leftover milk. The atmosphere was… intense.
After the movie was done our friend came over, and we went to lunch together, and then to Spirit Halloween. I brought Circo with me:
Whenever I’m in the backseat like this and the two of them are just talking their talk in the front, I feel so small. It’s definitely a very Little feeling and for sure part of why I felt so content the entire evening. It just does something for me. Ironic, I hated the back seat when I was actually little.
We had Chipotle for lunch. I hadn’t had it in forever. I find myself enjoying meals like these much more happily now that I am exercising and watching what I eat.
At Spirit Halloween I bought a couple of fishnet stockings which are an… unusual addition to my wardrobe. 😁 But as I said, I’m branching out. I also got a couple of new skirtalls in the mail, very cool ones (as in, the fabric is very breathable) that should work well for my walks in the heat. I’ll be trying those out tomorrow.
After we got back from Spirit Halloween, the three of us watched the first Jurassic World movie. It was so cozy and I don’t remember feeling so utterly content in a while. It was my second time watching this movie. I liked it much better this time around. Tomorrow Christopher and I might watch the next one.
I was super happy with how today’s warm-up came out. I’m finally giving myself license to play around with brushes and other commercial-use assets. Even though assets such as these brushes, or patterns, or commercial-use stock photography are literally made for artists to use, I always felt very reluctant to take advantage. I’ve gotten over that mental block, however, and it is bringing me a lot of joy in these latest few drawings.
I guess that’s all I have to share today, other than, I just feel so happy. I have not felt this happy in a long time. And seeing Christopher also be happy, after such a nice day, is a feeling that utterly completes me. He’s been so stressed. I know not every day can feel this way, but I’ll treasure the memory of each and every day that does.
Today I got a very respectable amount of artwork done! A piece of gift art and two warm-ups along with another commission that I inked the entire background of.
Like yesterday, I was up early and went out on a long walk, about an hour long. Early on my walk, I spotted something that made my heart leap. The burrowing owls were still out!
It is prohibited to disturb burrowing owls, so I did not get overly close. I crossed the street and walked on that sidewalk but that was it. One hid, but the other one stared at me all the way! So very cute.
During my walks I often rescue snails, earthworms and tiny frogs from the hot sun and put them in the grass. It’s hard to tell in these pics, but this guy was rather big-shelled for a bradybaena similaris. I wanted him for my tank, but he’d managed to grow so big and beautiful right there in the urban wild. I couldn’t tear him from his natural habitat.
That aside, I managed my eating rather well today and exercised, too, but did not drink enough water at all. 😟💧 I must make sure I drink enough tomorrow, because we are going out to the Swap Shop if the rain doesn’t cancel that –and it will involve a lot of walking.
We haven’t been there in forever. I’m really excited about going.
In the afternoon I read the last book in the Hagwood trilogy some more while having my coffee.
I can’t believe everything will be over after this book. I will really miss these characters. I wonder if Kernella will get Finnen at the end. As insufferable as she is in the beginning, she has really grown on me.
After I’m done with this, I need to pick another book that I left unfinished –either The Vampire Lestat or Tarzan. Once I am done with those two, I will reward myself with Jurassic Park.
Anyway, have a pic of some of my slimy guys at home:
And a GIF of Tomoyo playfully destroying our chairs:
That’s it for today! I hope I’ll have plenty to share after tomorrow’s adventures. Goodnight, one and all!
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