Hello everyone! I hope you’re all having a nice day. It’s almost Fall –tomorrow! So I’ve already gone and updated the blog’s look. I also made myself a new icon, and I guess tomorrow I will clean house so I can decorate on Thursday. My friend Mandie is coming for a “Little” playdate on Saturday night so I want everything to look just right.
I’m sitting here taking a break from work while a lot of people work on our roof, which is being replaced. There’s kind of a nasty smell in the air from whatever they’re using. My little guard-cat isn’t very thrilled that they are so close to our special “hanging out together” area…
I’ve been very productive, both in art and around the house. Commissions are progressing nicely, I’ve also done personal art and a few gifts for Christopher, and even worked on my book. I’ve taken care of the snails and continued with my exercises. Here are some photos of today’s walk…
I’m PMSing now, so I’m in a bit of a “fragile” mood as always, and everything I feel, good and bad, is super intense. I’m trying to redirect my impatience and anxiousness into my exercise routine, and just, looking forward until I feel normal again. 😓
My Cubanitos are doing well. Here they are exploring and eating after their most recent tank clean:
My biggest Roman snail seems to be on the way out. Not much I can do for him at this point. I’ll miss him when he goes, he had an old crack on his shell that made him very recognizable. I really do love my snails. I know it seems strange or silly to people, but I do adore them for so many different reasons.
One is purely from a scientific observation angle. Another is my “Little” self that has always found them adorable. And, they are so vulnerable, yet ridiculous looking, in such an endearing way. I really do enjoy my little pets.
Speaking of my little pets… this is a very low quality photo, but it is just so sweet. Rosie fell asleep in a tiny box:
I’m going to post a bunch of art now, and then catch up on housework before I go and beat my feelings into the sidewalk. That means going for a long walk. 🚶♀️💦
Hi everyone! Today was a wonderful day. Just getting a lot done, we had a wonderful date night, and in general, little things here and there are just… making me very happy.
To begin with, here’s a morning photo of Tomoyo and Elliot creepily staring me down. They held their pose and stare for several minutes, it was rather unnerving:
Then I have a daily owl from today’s walk:
I published a new chapter of Meganeea today, with three illustrations. You can read it here if you would like. 😊
In the afternoon I played Legend Of Mana for a little while. A while after that I had a big burst of energy/emotions for… reasons, that I desperately needed to walk off 🙈 so I took my second walk in spite of this insanity:
When I got back, Christopher was home. I was able to coax him into having a date night dinner out. So I put a new outfit together (parts of it are new) and I brought Vanilla Bean with me. We went to the Village Tavern.
I took this photo of Vanilla Bean in the car but she ended up looking kind of wonky. This also distracted me into not putting my seatbelt on until a few streets later. I’m not sure why, I’ve been forgetting that once in a while. I’m paranoid about wearing a seatbelt, so it’s weird.
Our wait wasn’t very long. I took this selfie of us while our table was being readied. I hope we can take photos like these without masks soon…
I felt like celebrating tonight, so I got a chocolate martini. Vanilla Bean had a sip too:
Rather horrifyingly for a $120+ teddy, she got some chocolate on her paw in the process. Thankfully it was easily wiped off! Well… ultimately I want to enjoy my stuffies, and take them on adventures, so the odd stain or such is not the end of the world if it happens. It’s just life.
I should say, this drink always does a number on me. I’d have to drink four glasses of wine to get as plastered as this one drink gets me, I don’t know why. Christopher says there’s vodka in it, which I never drink, so I guess that would explain a lot.
Needless to say I was absolutely obnoxious the entire evening, and yet in my drunken state managed to beat him at two rounds of Tetris. By the end of our game time, however, the pieces seemed to be going all in the opposite directions I wanted them to go. The connection between my hands and my brain was quite fuzzy. But I didn’t care, it was so much fun.
Tomorrow should be fun too. Goodnight, everyone! 😊
Today was so, so lovely. This entire weekend was. There’s a healing quality to certain days, that leave you feeling like you can do anything, and that life is really worth living. I feel that way right now.
This morning I took a different route on my walk. It’s kinda bland. Tomorrow I may do my usual one. It’s nice to do something different though, so, since I do two walks a day, I may do this one in the morning and the other one in the evening. I took a couple of photos during this walk…
Here’s a squirrel I met! He had a nut. Or maybe it was a kernel of popcorn? Either way he was obviously protective of his loot:
After my walk, I sat with Christopher while he had breakfast. We watched a movie (we’re getting through all of the Jurassic Park/Jurassic World movies). I took this photo of him because Kotoko and Tomoyo were waiting for him to finish his cereal so they could drink his leftover milk. The atmosphere was… intense.
After the movie was done our friend came over, and we went to lunch together, and then to Spirit Halloween. I brought Circo with me:
Whenever I’m in the backseat like this and the two of them are just talking their talk in the front, I feel so small. It’s definitely a very Little feeling and for sure part of why I felt so content the entire evening. It just does something for me. Ironic, I hated the back seat when I was actually little.
We had Chipotle for lunch. I hadn’t had it in forever. I find myself enjoying meals like these much more happily now that I am exercising and watching what I eat.
At Spirit Halloween I bought a couple of fishnet stockings which are an… unusual addition to my wardrobe. 😁 But as I said, I’m branching out. I also got a couple of new skirtalls in the mail, very cool ones (as in, the fabric is very breathable) that should work well for my walks in the heat. I’ll be trying those out tomorrow.
After we got back from Spirit Halloween, the three of us watched the first Jurassic World movie. It was so cozy and I don’t remember feeling so utterly content in a while. It was my second time watching this movie. I liked it much better this time around. Tomorrow Christopher and I might watch the next one.
I was super happy with how today’s warm-up came out. I’m finally giving myself license to play around with brushes and other commercial-use assets. Even though assets such as these brushes, or patterns, or commercial-use stock photography are literally made for artists to use, I always felt very reluctant to take advantage. I’ve gotten over that mental block, however, and it is bringing me a lot of joy in these latest few drawings.
I guess that’s all I have to share today, other than, I just feel so happy. I have not felt this happy in a long time. And seeing Christopher also be happy, after such a nice day, is a feeling that utterly completes me. He’s been so stressed. I know not every day can feel this way, but I’ll treasure the memory of each and every day that does.
Today I got a very respectable amount of artwork done! A piece of gift art and two warm-ups along with another commission that I inked the entire background of.
Like yesterday, I was up early and went out on a long walk, about an hour long. Early on my walk, I spotted something that made my heart leap. The burrowing owls were still out!
It is prohibited to disturb burrowing owls, so I did not get overly close. I crossed the street and walked on that sidewalk but that was it. One hid, but the other one stared at me all the way! So very cute.
During my walks I often rescue snails, earthworms and tiny frogs from the hot sun and put them in the grass. It’s hard to tell in these pics, but this guy was rather big-shelled for a bradybaena similaris. I wanted him for my tank, but he’d managed to grow so big and beautiful right there in the urban wild. I couldn’t tear him from his natural habitat.
That aside, I managed my eating rather well today and exercised, too, but did not drink enough water at all. 😟💧 I must make sure I drink enough tomorrow, because we are going out to the Swap Shop if the rain doesn’t cancel that –and it will involve a lot of walking.
We haven’t been there in forever. I’m really excited about going.
In the afternoon I read the last book in the Hagwood trilogy some more while having my coffee.
I can’t believe everything will be over after this book. I will really miss these characters. I wonder if Kernella will get Finnen at the end. As insufferable as she is in the beginning, she has really grown on me.
After I’m done with this, I need to pick another book that I left unfinished –either The Vampire Lestat or Tarzan. Once I am done with those two, I will reward myself with Jurassic Park.
Anyway, have a pic of some of my slimy guys at home:
And a GIF of Tomoyo playfully destroying our chairs:
That’s it for today! I hope I’ll have plenty to share after tomorrow’s adventures. Goodnight, one and all!
Have some kitty cat photos I’ve accumulated over the last couple of weeks! First, Sweeney, while I was visiting my mom:
Next, Rosemary. I took these photos when I went to the bathroom in the middle of the night. Rosie is very much “my girl” and often sleeps with me, cuddled next to my face or neck. This is the first time I got photos of her during the night:
Another day, here is Tomoyo making faces at me while I work:
That’s all I have for now, but I may update this post tomorrow with a short video I have yet to edit.
So, context. You may remember I started having breast ultrasounds a year and a half ago because my doctor found a lump. That was scary. So it turned out, my breast tissue is kinda fucked up, though it’s not exactly abnormal. I have several cysts.
This isn’t uncommon, but not super normal either. One particular cyst/mass was a bit different and all the ultrasounds are to monitor it multiple times a year for two years. So far so good –today was my third. But today I was very scared.
The reason is that two months ago I began having localized pain in one of my breasts. On a very specific spot. It was bothersome and scary. I was prepared to need at a minimum a biopsy… turns out an old cyst decided to start shrinking, and that’s been causing the annoyance.
When I was told all was good today, they told me it’d been two years and I needed no more tests until 40. So when, 15 minutes later, I got a phone call telling me the doctor wanted me to return in six months, I was apprehensive.
Turns out they’d just miscalculated, and it’ll be two years in six months. So basically that’s my boob story. I’m kind of acclimated to the idea of getting some sort of cancer because I think that’s more common the longer humans manage to live. 🤷♀️ So I’m careful and prepared.
(I say coolly, after pissing my pants in fear for days)
🐱 Kitty Ramble 🐱
Look into the void and despair:
She was crying at me because I was leaving the house to go for my ultrasound.
I post a lot about Tomoyo (even though my favorite, my “heart cat” is my little Rosie) because Tomoyo is the worst cat I’ve ever had, in many ways. Her health is, to put it in plain terms, generally “not great”. She almost died as a kitten, I nursed her through a particularly terrible night, lying her on my chest trying to keep her fever managed. She has asthma, and when I call her neurotic I mean that in a clinical, not in a funny way.
She has many destructive compulsions. She is very high strung, almost feral, and responded poorly to the many anxiety meds we tried. Add to her health issues (physical and mental) the fact that giving any medication to this cat is a terrible ordeal. You name it, we’ve tried it. It often ends in blood (ours) and Tomoyo’s emotional distress.
Often, decisions need to be made with our vet in regards to what meds to give and if any, along with how much to feed her (leading to her weight gain) had to be balanced with her behavior: this medicine may improve her life, but is the distress worth it? If we fed her less, she would be healthier, but so destructive that she would have had to be rehomed or put down. They are one and the same, by the way. I’m sure if I tried to rehome her, another person would put her down for serious behavioral issues. And I’ll never allow that to happen. Not unless she’s viciously attacking me, the other cats or herself.
In many ways Tomoyo has made our lives worse and more stressful. My response to this has been to shower her with love. If rehoming her meant SHE can be happier, some of her problems better managed, I’m sure I would. BUT… …it doesn’t. I doubt anyone else would put the time, money and patience we have put into this cat. She won’t even cuddle with you. I think anyone else might put her down. So I’ll never let her go.
I hold onto the good moments instead. Such as, after using the inhaler for a few weeks —an experience that invariable ended with me bleeding and Tomoyo hiding for hours— one day she realized it helped. Now she takes deep breaths and purrs while I do it. (Though she still fights when I grab her to do this, and screams, and scratches me with her back legs… you have to realize this is a mild reaction for Tomoyo. That would give some idea of what a bad reaction might be.)
When she began to relax during the inhaler procedure I could have cried. When she began to fall asleep by my computer, belly-up (this cat that never feels safe enough to relax in that way) I could have, too.
I know I have to love Tomoyo on her own terms. I do my best for her. My closeness with her is directly connected to how difficult she is. But she is also a very loving cat…
The interruption in petting prompted an audible sigh and loud, dog-like “HUFF”
At one point today, she saw her own butt as she left the desk corner. There is a camera pointed behind my monitor where she sleeps. I like watching her while I work. Well, she FREAKED. She thought she saw another cat (and, well, she did!) but by the time she approached the screen, the other black cat was mysteriously “gone”… lol 😅
🌈 Bonus Kotoko 🌈
The old lady surprises us sometimes by climbing the cat tree.
After the relief of my ultrasound, I went to Dollar Tree and Five Below. I got some more things for the upcoming sleepover with my friend Shelly, some more stuff for scrapbooking, and other odds and ends.
While I was at the store Christopher messaged me so I could pick my goodies from the Dinosaur World gift shop (he’s currently at NATIA and managed to get away to do me that huge favor, since going to Dinosaur World is something that I don’t expect to happen again for years). I can’t wait to show those things off when he’s back! He got me a velociraptor lamp and a framed holographic picture.
I always, always treat myself after a scary ultrasound (or blood draw/shot). For my goodies I got some Lisa Frank stickers, some animal/critter “mood” stickers, cute bird and birthday stickers, an InuYasha keychain I’ll turn into a necklace, more crayons, three mini Jurassic Park baby dinos and two greeting cards plus a pack of Alphabet flash cards with Sesame Street characters, for scrapbooking. 😊
I got two more really big coloring books for the sleepover –I guess we have quite enough now, but I won’t post those so I can surprise my friend in case she sees this post. 😁
In the afternoon I finished pressure washing the porch and putting everything back outside. I had to pressure wash the porch while it rained. Because I had all the porch stuff inside and need to clean the house tomorrow, I just had to finish today, there was no way around it. It wasn’t super fun, but it is done now.
I had a wee dinner, but it filled me up. Three little sandwiches and some baked kale chips.
I didn’t get to scrapbook today, but it was an extremely accomplished day all the same. It’s actually been a string of very fruitful days. I also just completed the daily warm-up as I wrap up this post. Time to get ready for bed. Goodnight, everyone!
Note: I’ve post-dated this entry because I didn’t want to be so blatant about being home alone while I was actually home alone. Christopher comes back today so now I’m okay posting about it.
Christopher left his morning on a four day business trip. It’s always the same –I’m very excited the day he leaves, excited to eat lots of garbage, go to bed really late, and maybe take an Uber to and back from a favorite store (that’s how I party). In reality, I eat UberEats once, go to bed late because I do more housework than usual, and spend my nights in terror because I hate being home alone at night. Lol.
Anyway, as usual, I asked Christopher if I could order takeout just once at some point during his business trip (he said yes) and did it literally as he was pulling out of the driveway… 😅 Oops. That counts, right? He’d technically already left.
After working on art for a while, I went grocery shopping for the week (after, of course, a super indulgent “Little” outing –Goodwill and Five Below). I got my favorite, popcorn chicken, at Publix, and even had a soda with it! A real treat, so I took out the fancy china.
As if that weren’t enough I had milk and cookies for dessert… I told you I’m partying.
Part of the reason for the “Little” shopping outing was sleepover snacks. I’m having a sleepover with my new friend in the middle of the LAN. She likes gummies like me so I got a lot of those, among other stuff…
At Goodwill I found a cute Golden Book to use for scrapbooking. At Five Below I got a Grogu sticker for my water bottle, a Pound Puppies bag clip, some “affirmation cards” (very cute and positive, these are also for scrapbooking) and two coloring books for the sleepover. 🥰
Here’s the sticker on my water bottle, it looks pretty nice:
Something else you can see in the other photo is my new Mandalorian sticker set. It’s one of those Amazon sticker sets from China that have a TON of stickers… looking at them, I think a lot are stolen art. 😣 I should have known better. But others are… um… I don’t even know how to put it. I’m just going to share some of my favorites and also some of the most “peculiar” ones below. The rest of the 60 sticker pack was more mundane. Cute, just not unusually so, or not unusually wtf, unlike, well, some of these:
In the evening, after some housework, I tried to make kale chips. It’s maybe the third time I try. Even though they were a bit too oily and salty, I finally managed to get them nice and crispy! So I’m excited to try again in the future.
Since Christopher isn’t home I decided to let Tomoyo sleep with me. She’s usually too poorly behaved to be allowed upstairs at night. She was happy, though.
And that’s it… that was my first, indulgent day, but really one that comes before what I know will be an incredibly busy week. 👀💦 Goodnight, everyone!
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